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From time to time i think about how much i want to come back to pick up. How much i want to just leave my house at 2am just to go and get a girl and try to bring her back (I live in a highly populated town of girls, next to the town centre). How much i just miss gaming girls in general, from the IOI's to getting the lay.
The reason I miss it is because im in a relationship. I've only been in a relationship 3 months so far, known her for nearly 4 years though. In fact, she was an ex of mine a while back but split because she was pretty insecure. But she never fallen out of love with me, she says, after around 18 months apart. During the 18 months barely any words were exchange because i just completely pulled away. We got back together though because she changed a fair amount. More relaxed, less insecure. Just all round a much better and attractive person to be with.
Ultimately though, i feel like being in a relationship leads to big missed opportunity. I go out sometimes and find that girls will sometimes hit on me, giving me shit load of IOI's. I see my friends who are single sometimes getting kisses/numbers on a night out somewhat boasting and i'm thinking 'fuck, I could probably be bringing them back home'. Simply put, i feel like i'm not ready to retire from pick up. I'm fairly young and want to approach every hot girl in sight. But at the same time i have this beautiful girlfriend who will simply do anything for me.
It's not really a major dilemma, but i'm questioning what i'm doing from time to time. Would I be overall happy if i stayed in a relationship? Of course, but I wouldn't be happy when i walk past a HB10 and cant approach and have fun, or hit on a HB when she throws tonnes of IOI's at me on a night out. in fact, I'm writing this at 2am now because i'm sitting here wanting to go out and just try and get a ONS.
What do I do? I know pick up will always be there, but i'm only young for so long. The excitement at this age is the perfect age for pick up. Reading this back is almost as if im answering my own question but i want to view it from many different angles and perspectives.
It sounds like you are leaning towards pick up. If you aren't serious about your girlfriend then let her go. No reason to take her through an emotional roller coaster. I won't make that decision for you. Let me tell you that I was gamy even the beginning of my previous relationship a year ago. I had the same thoughts, at certain points I couldn't really figure out if I should flirt or not with the girls I met in my life other than my girlfriend at the time. It was tough, I either was happy or not happy at certain points
Morally I was at crossroads. Then again, I didn't know much about relationships and I am only 23. Can't really say I am fully mature, and I am being honest. Up to you though.