Now I'm completely calm and feel confident. This was designed to tackle my anxiety problem and put me out of my comfort zone. I think it was a genius idea.

Sure I can do that.

One thing I've noticed lately is how boring small talk is. I get so many messages on the sugar baby site of girls asking me to "tell them about myself," it's annoying.

But I will post after 10 girls.

Like forming a connection. Like understanding. Like having fun. Getting to know. Sparking emotions.

If you start a business with the sole intention of making money you've failed before you even started.

a big house all by yourself. women will love you.

i truly believe tht women are always looking for a come up

Unless that connection leads to sex pretty quickly, you might as well be their gay friend.

A girl I met on the sugar baby site was going to be homeless. I live in a 4 bedroom house by myself so I asked if she wanted to stay here for a week until she found her new place. I did this on a whim and did it to get out of my comfort zone. What better way to ease anxiety?

I was nervous before she got here. I thought she would think I was weird, etc.

My dick doesn't work because of ED until my surgery. She knew this before she got here. Otherwise, I probably would have fucked her and maybe some of her friends. Anyway... During the first 3 days, we became friends and talked about all kinds of stuff. Every topic you can think of. I took her out to dinner one night. I was kind of in "trying to impress mode."

I had ample opportunity to ask to do oral on her, but I just didn't want to. I get nothing out of that and I don't know her all that well.

After 3-4 days, it got old and I wanted my house back, but I did tell her a week. She babysits at her friends house during the day to save up to move. We barely talked after that. We would each just go do our separate things during the day, then sleep. Kind of like an old sex-less married couple.

One thing that stuck out was my addiction to alcohol and cigars. I drank the first two days and smoked almost the whole time, but trying to quit. Obviously, this is a display of low value. I also started working out. I heard that it takes 8 weeks to become noticeably muscular.

At the time when my mood changed and I wanted my house back, it would have been a great time to ask for some head in exchange for a few more days. Lol. But my dick doesn't work.

Hopefully, after living with a girl, my anxiety when I go out will be greatly reduced. It's one thing to see them in a bar, but another to see them in their natural habitat when they're just being a person.

I'm glad I did this because it was definitely out of my comfort zone and hopefully will make me more comfortable with women in bars.

Also, she did not pass my standards for any girlfriend material and this got me thinking about what Eddie says about having standards.

I grew up with 4 brothers and no sisters so I don't have a lot of experience with girls in their natural habitat of just existing around the house. (Sweats, using the restroom, etc.)

Btw, I didn't pay her anything other than free rent.

It seems that you did not even practice escalation with this woman. Stop wasting your time on things that don't matter. Go out. Approach and open 5 women everyday face-to-face. Learn to escalate. Learn to isolate.

If you're doing nice things for women with the goal of seducing them, you're only shooting yourself right at the foot. Learn how to make women DO nice things for you. Once, you've learned that, you have effectively seduced women.

Hockey look this up - Tyler Durden - The Secret Society.