Went full on beta today guys. Quite ashamed to write this .

I said congrats on her results.

Her: "yess I was quite happy tbh that was for my nameday as well what are you doing today??"

Me: "aww I'm happy for you!"

Her: ":D so what are your plans today mister? "

Me: "Okay I admit it you are quite clever

I'm back in {our uni town} for the evening!

How are you celebrating?"

Her: "by coming to {my country} -_-

theres actually a concert i might go to tonight, but now sure yet

I actually went to the airport this mornign to get my brother and I saw the singers arriving there and i thought to myself i dont need to go tonight then ;p"

Me: hahaha
Good logic

Her: naah its just that I try to fit too many things in my schedule, and I tried to convince myself to not go, but didnt succeed ;p

Me: oh shit
{her friend} just shouted hey at me
And I completely missed it
That's your fault miss

Her: hahahah aalways my fault ;p

Me: What's going on next week then?

Her: God knows ;p ill keep you updated, my mum has a two page (until today ;p) plan haha

Me: haha {her country} families

Her: tell me about it!! ;p so are you going on your spontanteous trip?

Me: I'm not sure. I may just do a weekend in Marseille at some point instead

Her: sounds fun im taking this which two friends characters are you most alike (dont ask why- its so unlike me ;p) and theres this question which gf/bf character did you hate the most and theres a janice option, guess which one {confusedkid} would choose ;p

Me: <evil face>

Her : hahaha it says im joey and monica, i want to be phoebe -.-
#10yearold #firstworldproblems

Me: Monica's hot, I can live with that

Her: hahaha okay ;p

Me: Have you lost a bit of interest in us recently?

Her: no :/ why do you say that??

Me: You just seemed a bit distant recently

Pardon the pun

Are you okay?

Her: yes, is just that im barely in the house and bcz I have not 4g here, maybe thats why :/

Me: it's not that

I just feel like if we don't see eachother when you're back, we're quite likely to lose interest in eachother

~I try to call her~

Her: i really want to see you when I come back, but its quite difficult, most of the days I wont even be in {uni town#, if thats how you feel, then I don't know what to say... :/

Me: Can we talk quickly?

Her: shit I can't now sorry

Me: you know how I feel
I want to come and see you in {her country)
I love spending time with you

Her: i love spending time with you too! it's just thinking about this, im not sure if I can do this distance thing right now, i think its not good for us, if you want we can try again in September, im not asking you to wait for me or anything, im just saying if you are still up for us in a couple of months we can give it another try...

Me: How long have you felt that?

Her: just now, I didn't know that you felt that not meeting up will ruin this, so thinking about it now, and because I have bad memories with distance, I think thats the best solution..

Me: It's not that
I'm not losing interest in you
I was slightly worried you would lose interest in us
That's why I asked
I don't want us to take a break, I don't think it's necessary. I was just worried about you

Her: I don't know, tbh i havent thought about this until now and figured that will be the best solution

Me: Well madame I don't think we should
We both love the time we spend together
I've only had one proper long term relationship before
We have nothing to worry about
It's just been a crap we haven't been able to SPAM as there's lots of things I would like to have told you that can only be conveyed personally

Her: ook then, if you are sure this will be fine, ill trust you!!


Me : I'd never let you get hurt silly :p
Who else is gonna iron my shirts next year?

Her : p.s. i don't iron ahhahaha ;p

Me: We'll find something you're good at ;p

Her: excuse me? im good at ironing i just avoid it. hahahha

anyway im leaving the house so ill speak to you tomorrow have a great rest of the night x

Me: Hahaa okay, have a good night! I've got typical {me} story to tell you tomorrow! X

Her: ook


So I realise that was more beta than a lone electron. Have I fucked it up? I really want to turn this around guys. I'm sorry for not taking your advice, the uncertainty in the 'relationship' was killing me. Is it a relationship - she mentioned long distance?!

In other news, a waitress stopped and talked to me while I ordered my meal earlier with some friends. Stopped to talk to me again and asked what I was doing in town do wrote down her Facebook for me. Bit of a confidence boost.

Every day....

I'm done wasting my time giving you advice.

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You are one needy desperate fuck. If there was any attraction left whatsoever, you killed it completely.

R.C, I'm sorry. I really, really want to save this. How can I turn this around? Yesterday, one of my friends part convinced me to ask her those questions. I realise I'm still responsible. Please mate.

You've been here since 2011? Wow man... I don't know why on earth you'd send those texts.

Holey shit, you have got to be the world's biggest pussy! Women don't want a pussy, they already have one.

You are desperate, clingy, needy, thirsty, and fucking lazy. You are the poster child for girly men that don't get laid.

You are investing everything into a girl you hardly know, that's light-years away from your dick, because it's safe.

What's the goal? SPAM a picture of a titty to jack off at? How are you even gonna do that, you NEVER get sexual with her.

You don't need to fix your delusional imaginary 'relationship'! You need to fix YOURSELF!

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so not too long ago i was like you, i was completely infactuated with a girl that i was in a relationship with but i also knew the relationship had no real chance of working out. When i saw it falling apart i was needy, clingyand always wanting to talk to her about our relationship. At times it felt like it worked and that i'd made some sort of breakthrough with her but in reality i think she just pitied me and was too nice to tell me to fuck off. i knew all this in the back of my head but i kept it there and refused to achknowledge it.

I eventually had a wake up call though, not sure what triggered it but i realised i had to take some action, stop being a pussy and pining over a girl because im too scared to sack up and go and find another. i can tell you now no matter how much time you spend reading about relationships and girls etc nothing will improve it. you need to focus on yourself, improving your life and just generally enjoying yourself and not depending on anyone else to enjoy yourself. keep putting yourself out there trying to meet new people.. thats not to say start approaching girls in bars but talk to classmates.. talk to colleagues.. friends invite you out then go out.

dont even keep in contact with this girl because i promise you that you will half ass everything you should be doing in the hope you and this girl will sort things out, throw yourself in the deep end.. find another girl.. then find another.. and another. once you lose the fear of not being able to find another girl you wont have this same needy attitude towards girls that give you attention.

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