I have a problem. To say it consumes me would be an understatement. I spend more mental energy on this part of my life, than I do on every other part put together. My career and making money has been on the back burner since day dot, and even my leisurely pleasures are all based around this one topic. Girls. I go on holidays so that I can meet girls, I go to festivals so that I can meet girls, I go to events in the night for the same reason, I chose a profession that brings me in contact with meeting girls, and I spend my free time around malls day gaming girls. I drive my car trying to get a glimpse of the next hottie, and I walk around on the streets with the same mental clarity. I wake up in the morning and I immediately log on to Tinder, I go to sleep at night watching a hottie to masturbate to.

I've logged 1000+ hours the gym to build a hot body in order to attract hot girls. I have spent years reading seduction material to develop my ability. I have learned to cut my own hair and groom myself on a daily basis in order to attract hot girls. I do pretty much everything in my power to attract hot girls. I just came back from Ibiza having got action and sex on 2 consecutive nights, yet I find myself more frustrated than ever before. I have smashed 4 new chicks this year, that's more than my entire life preceding that. I am on the verge of accepting a job in a foreign country, paying the type of money acceptable for 18 year old's, just so that I can meet chicks and smash.

What the hell am I doing with myself? I have had this desire towards chicks right throughout my entire life, yet over the past 1.5 years where I have truly started to progress towards being consistently successful, my frustration has only increased, rather than satiating it.

Truth be told, I started this PUA journey before my LTR with the eventual goal of having my own harem of chicks. A rotation of 3 hot chicks at the very least, a fantasy sold to me or I bought into from the material I had read. A possibility I had thought was possible for me. I have long since given up on this fantasy. I just want a girlfriend again for a few years and enjoy some pair bonding. I nabbed my first hot GF after the first 6 PUA driven approaches of my life, I have since breaking up with her logged over 700 yet I find myself no closer to hot GF number 2. I am completely consumed by all of it. To even give up the hunt for a day would be like putting the breaks on at 190 mph.

I don't know what the hell to do.

Kepp it up bro!

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Too focused on outcome, no wonder you're miserable.

Live life, if you bump into a cutie talk to her. You're making way too much out of this and the expectation is way too high. Approaching girls with all that nervous energy will only scare them off.

Nothing wrong with enjoying women.

Having a few hot chicks in a rotation is definitely possible.

Goals and aspirations > getting women = Strong grounded man

Getting women > Goals and aspirations = Needy approval seeking

Your sense of validation and worth should not come from women.

Create a few goals and aspirations in your life. Have a larger sense of purpose and vision then just chasing women.
The more you actualize and embody your goals, the more good looking women will be drawn to you.

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It sounds like you're making up for lost time of the past when you weren't successful, and because you have this void. You won't be satisfied until you have conqured all. Or at least not until you feel that you have conquered all.

How acknowledged and accepted were you by your family when you were a kid? Mother related problems? Sorry for being so straightforward, but it's not uncommon for a man to seek so much validation from women after "rough" childhood, mostly of negligence from parents, or peers.

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Uncertainty is the root of all progress and all growth.

You need to learn how to be happy doing the things that are making you more attractive as a man than worrying so much about how much girls are going to like you after you're done or "the hours are logged."

Who gives a shit about how much time you've spent in the gym... Work out because you like working out. Or don't. But don't do it because girls are gonna like you for it. That's desperate as fuck.

You exert some VERY "thirsty" behavior which makes it no wonder to me that you're having problems with girls. I don't even know if I'd take your money and coach you cause you seem that desperate. It's creepy.

you have pussy fever