Through my time with women i've always found it easy to get girls but the ones i actually wanted, i never ended up getting. I would never make that end move. The last girl i really like we slept together, spent weeks together but i would ALWAYS act cocky funny, never say i actually liked her. And in the end a dorky guy came along and did all the dinner n movie stuff i didnt want to. Her words were "Sometimes a girl just wants to be treated that way"

The other girl i really liked i spent 6 months following her push pull pattern. Never giving more than she gave me. I managed to sleep with her but it was such a tightrope that eventually it fizzled n she married the next guy. In hindsight i think she was worried that i was a player and i did nothing to re assure her on this by being cocky funny.

I met a girl a week ago who is personality wise exactly the same as me. I haven't really felt an instant attraction like that ever. That i liked personality wise, not just physical. Here is what happened....
The second night we hung out i was kind of hitting on her. Saying i was going to find her a BF. She ends up dragging me into the bathroom and we got down til we got kicked out! Just a huge surge or attraction.
We hang out again saturday. Kiss etc. Sunday we hung out and end up fucking at mine. It was wild sex. She was into slapping, choking, and i laid it DOWN. Two orgasms. 3 hours and she knows what's up.

Next day we talk a bit by text, i get the small inclination that she was holding back so went back to blanking. And i KNOW that she is exactly the same as me. If she likes someone she won't chase. If i like someone, i wont chase. I dont think u can ever win by chasing. BUT, all those other times i lost out by not actually saying i had genuine feelings.

She leaves in a week for another country but is back in 3 months. We are hanging tomorrow and the night after due to work commitments. I know i can fuck her again ,but do i want to? I feel like if a hot girl wants a guy to like her they just presume if they fuck the shit out of him it will work. I've done that but i'm not 100% sure where it stands still.
She told me that she will never tell someone her feelings. I am exactly the same. But i think its def backfired over the years.

Im gonna be really natural. Still cocky funny, do all the things i haev been doing that made her want to sleep with me in the first place. BUT. if it goes the whole week and she doesnt say she wants something more, which i do. Do i be honest with her?
Or wait until she's back. I mean there is a huge chance we will never see each other again. So i either do tell her, or i play the hard to get guy that fucked her and left an imprint. She also has a bf at home that they agreed on an open relationship while they travel. Which she said she regrets now and is looking to break it off.

I have zero clue with relationships. I have slept with so many women but really have no idea how to hold down a proper relationship.

Stop overthinking.
Continue seeing her.
Let things naturally evolve into something more. Or don't.

Why do you have to complicate everything that's simple?

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