| Ok so I've been off these forums for a very long time because of a long-distance relationship that I have sort of been in. And I am desperately needing some overdue advice. My background: I am 22, had sex less than 10 times, travelled to many countries, and had my journal stickied while making alot of progress in self development.
Backstory: While I was overseas I met an amazing girl during my travels, very cute and we talked a lot but were only together for 3 days, did not have sex. We kissed and I fingered her but that was it. I did however make a huge impression on her when I fingered her because I found her gspot almost instantly and it was all done in a public lit side street of a big city at night within 24hrs of meeting her. She only ever has had sex with one guy which was a LTR and only ever kissed 3 guys.
When I was with this girl or had just seen her I would get butterflies in my stomach and be overflowing with happiness! Everything about her attracted me.
We spoke everyday by messaging for about a month while I was still travelling. And soon as I got back home we SPAM. Our contacting slowly died down over the next few months (because of me not her) and I became depressed for a while due to traveling withdrawal and back to reality not knowing if I would see my overseas friends again.. It got to a point where she was always messaging me first saying things like I miss you, thinking about you all things that show how much she cared about me. During this time of my life I was lost, no job, didn't know what I wanted to do in the future, bored out of my mind, and basically faked wanting to be social whenever I was out. I probably should have seeked help but I managed to get over it by myself and am now motivated again in most aspects of my life, reasonably happy and have an idea of what I want to do in the future.
ANYWAY .. just recently, I decided to message her seeing if she wanted to SPAM. She responded feeling ecstatic that I had finally messaged her! We talked for over 3 hours. I explained to her how I had closed myself off and she was saying how much she liked me and didn't think I felt the same and that she felt she was wasting her time. I was a little tipsy but completely serious and suggested we meet somewhere halfway between australia and america it had been a year since we were together. But she had already planned a trip somewhere else and now.. in reality it could be another year before I see her!
After our SPAM talk, it was like all the feelings I felt from when I first met her were back. We have been talking by messaging everyday for the past week. I got to know her a lot better even though I already knew her really well and now feel like I am in love with her. This is the first girl I have ever opened myself up to.. however, I have not told her the L word yet.. but really want to or something similar as it is weighing on my mind a lot! Only being with her in person for a few days I am not 100% sure about this love and don't want to be stupid in saying it so early.
But I am going crazy not knowing when I will see her again!!!
I feel like my only option right now is to cut off contact with her because it is too hard talking to her and living a life without her, she is so distracting as we message all the time. I have not met a girl anything like her since I have been back and although I could definitely go for some pointless sex right now, thinking about her and talking to her makes it so hard to separate my 'in love' side from lets get my dick wet with a stranger.
I think about her all the time and how I will probably never meet someone so loyal, so loving and have the complete package again. But we live on opposite points of the world.
Telling her I love her is that a bad idea? And what should I do with this situation.. Long distance relationships really suck. _________________ My Journal here-vp590119.html#590119
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