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I lost count of threads like these or similar where I have posted and yet the ops never took action at all to emulate or replicate the patterns of behavior that led to several lays.
To be on topic, but with some reservations and bitterness for the futility of this post, here they are:
1. Last Wednesday at the university canteen, a pharmacy student opened me and requested an old song by The Calling. She gave me a coin and eye fucked me throughout the song as I belted out my cover at the videoke machine. Before I left the canteen for my Capital Markets class, I took her number. After my Behavioral Finance class past 7 p.m., it was a great coincidence that on my way home via public transport, we were on the same vehicle. I invited her for dinner at a cheap restaurant shack along the street.
After dinner, I said "Let's go" and took her straight to my house. You know the rest.
2. Last Saturday, my classmate in corporate law, a transferee from another university, wanted to borrow my book in preparation for the midterm exams. I said, "I left it at home. Let's get it." Well, she went alone with me to my place. You know the rest.
3. The week after last, I went along with my buddy to the mall to help him get a new pair of eye glasses. After shopping for glasses, we went inside a designer jeans shop to look at some t-shirts. One of the sales crew was really cute, chubby and bubbly. I told her I dreamt about her flying up the sky and other emotional roller coaster ride stuff. She took my number. So I texted her I'm going to fetch her at closing time. She replied, "Sure."
We had dinner at a fastfood chain. I took her straight to a nearby motel before escorting her home.
Dude, it's not what I said. It's what I did; nonverbal stuff and all.
I'm not in college anymore. I don't think it will be that easy for me. I have trouble starting a conversation let alone maintaining it or showing any sexual interest because I'm pretty sure it would be rejected unless she's a stripper, escort, sugar baby, etc.
That being said, I do have about 100 different potential sugar babies I could meet. But I think that's kind of cheating.
Perhaps I'm really just not good at this. It doesn't help that I'm becoming an alcoholic, but without alcohol, I am silent.
And even when I do start a conversation, it's boring. I have severe anxiety. I don't even know what to do to help myself at this point. I'm too socially awkward to make anything happen. I hope it's something I can fix.