why dont girls just do what they want to do for free

I never liked the idea of paying for it, I figured I know girls like to have sex. Channing tatum, twilight and 50 shades of grey are all popular for a reason. So why dont girls just do what they want to do for free? Dont ask me they dont make sense to me, but reguardless, it seems to me like Ill be paying one way or another, whether in time or money or both. Looking over the posts here... I guess im gonna do it but maybe restrict myself, try to push myself to go out more.
Well, yea I have been getting out of the house lately. I was desperate enough to go to a gay bar and let gay guys hit on me just so I could get some attention. But usually when I am out at a bar or something it just seems like such a waste of time, I sit there, I have a drink, I look at some people, no one talks to me. What am I even doing? I can't open. What am I going to say? Who wants to hear it. If people were interested in talking to me, wouldnt they open me? I wonder if guys ever get opened at all, or if its something only guys do to girls.

Oh I did stop playing video games btw, been about two months now cold turkey. Still been looking at porn sometimes. I am going crazy without something to occupy my mind, but I have been going out more.
See when I dont jerk off I just start feeling lonely and desperate, I dont feel aggressive at all. I just feel like I need a hug, like its been so long since I have had human contact. I get desperate, and then I start feeling like I wanna kill myself or pay for it.
Ok, but like what though? What should I do that people will find interesting? Especially girls, what do they wanna talk about... what should I do that will be interesting to them.
Well this is how I see it: I want to enjoy my life. I enjoy having sex. I dont enjoy talking. I spent lots of time already doing things I dont want to do, I dont want to do MORE of things I dont want to do, I dont have the time for it! And just like you say, if I should be spending time doing interesting things, why would I want to waste time talking to girls? They make horrible friends. Guys like video games and boxing and dirt bikes and all that, and they pay for themselves, what the fuck do girls do besides sit around talking, avoiding talking to guys and waiting for guys to just spend money on them? Its simple cost to benefit ratio analysis, if I am gonna talk to anyone, I would talk to a guy because I know I would enjoy myself with them. Girls have nothing to offer me but sex. God forbid they open me and prove otherwise.
Would you expect me to just start liking stabbing myself too? Am I gonna have to learn to enjoy stabbing myself? Thats about how painful this talking stuff is to me, especially when it goes wrong. Girls dont deserve the chance to hurt me like that.
I dont even know what it is you expect me to fix. I feel like I have come to a very logical conclusion. It seems others are in agreement with paying for it, but working on it too.
THAT is what I want. I have never seen it or felt it though, never felt like a girl liked me. I dont know if I ever will feel that way, or if anyone will actually like me for anything but my money. I mean, if someone liked me, they would talk to me right?

As the male it is your role in society to open the girls, to lead things from start to finish. Never in recorded history has some dude been sitting in the basement and some random chik came up to the window, opened it, crawled in and gave him a blowjob. Ok it's probably happened once or twice but u get the idea.


They do. U don't need to take them out to a bunch of dates or whatever. Meet-chill-fuck.

I almost never recommend this but how about online/app dating (Tinder POF etc). That way u could do the up front communicating by typing, even screen out the ones may be DTF.

Dude, you're defeatist attitude is worse than Elliott Rodgers. I don't even feel sorry for you because you haven't even tried yet.

The reason nobody talks to you at bars because you hope people will talk to you at the bar, don't you get it?

And if girls DO meet-chill-fuck, well, thats what I am here to learn! How does that happen?

So, for about the past... 6 years? Longer? What I have mostly been doing is online college, video games and porn. I havent talked to anyone except my family really. I dont have any friends. I dont know how to talk to people, and honestly, I dont enjoy doing it.

I dont see how people have so much to say. How do people think anything coming out of their mouth is so important that other people wanna hear it? Every time I open my mouth I already know nobody wants to hear anything I have to say, and its never proven wrong. If people wanted to talk to me they would, but of course no one wants to.

So I see this, and I see nothing but work ahead of me. So much practice talking, and failing, and hurting from it, I dont even know if its worth all the pain and time.

How long do I even have to talk to a girl before she will sleep with me? I dont like talking to people. Im not sure if I can even figure this out. So I am thinking of saying screw all this, all the time I would spend learning to game is time I could be spending making money to pay for it.