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I've been dating this girl for around 6 months now. She started acting weird today, As I expected it's because she had enough of me being emotionally cold and she's seen my tendencies to be manipulative. Really the PUA game has always been somewhat intuitive to me, I never suplicate, I never give more than I get in return. I've been told I'm very charming and as years progressed I realise I possess many psychopathic traits.
Essentially she's started get crying because she feels that all the emotions I show her are fake, and that I'm ultimately lying to her. I did so in the beginning but this girl is quite special, her love and understanding has won me over. I still do play games and I guess I always will, but not the malicious shit I used to. I opened up to her, and explained how my father was an alcoholic sociopath. He would use anger and guilt to manipulate others, from watching him I learned that attachment = weakness. Really you win in life by not caring, to fulfil your own needs even if it others get hurt along the way. After the realisation dawned on(for the first time in my entire life, all at once) I couldn't help but cry.. I can't even remember crying in the past 5 years.
I was craddled in her arms, and she says that she loves me more now she understands why I am the way I am. That I don't do it because I don't love her, but because of the abuse I suffered.
I can't help feel like I've fucked up, never open up, never show weakness. Should I just chuck her before the tables turn and it's me being her lapdog?
Just pass it off as a once off thing. If she starts changing or trying to be manipulative and take control just ditch her. Who knows, she might be one of few women who will actually take it to heart and treat the knowledge she came across as careful as possible.
I do know if you give most people an inch they'll run a mile with it... But that's MOST people, not everyone, and this applies to both men and women. Just act like you usually would and if she starts trying to push your buttons or do things she normally wouldn't have then drop her, it will be clear she's taking advantage of your vulnerability if she starts acting up.