Day 43: 31st March 2013
The almost kiss

Goals: (same as above post)
- Make 5 approaches (5/5)
- Own the room
- Apply sexual desires (read FR)
- Have an amazing night

Field report (+):
Alright. I wasn't really planning to go out, but friends wanted to meet-up at some local bar for the 3rd time around 20:30 (it's a good hanging place I guess ). I didn't want to drink beers actually, but 2 of my friends are college buds, and well I didnt want to stay behind.

One of best friends joined around 21:30 after his work and asked me to go with him to local club. It was free entrance. I thought to myself, aaah why not, let's do it, don't have to go anywhere tomorrow. He and one of my friends went darting so it was me and my 2 college buds at the table (note: they both have GF's). At some point we started talking about sex, and I became jealous at some point. When they started talking about sex with their GF's, their experiences and telling everything in detail, I started to get a little bit 'paranoid'. I couldn't sit still, kept playing with stuff on the table and I couldn't stop myself. The images of their GF's naked in front of me (in my mind offcourse) drove me crazy. I was craving, and got incredibly horny. As if a wild creature sex beast was trying to tear up my body. I went to the toilet to cool off a bit, but it was some intense moment. The energy was flowing through my body, I wanted to go out and express the sexual desire.

I managed to handle it at some point and around 12 o'clock me and 2 friends went to the local club (don't forget it's a 16+ club). They were having quite a busy day actually. When I was ordering beer for my friends, some random girl really happy almost screamed at me, congratulate my friend!! it's her birthday!!! Her friend was happy but ashamed when I looked her in the eye. THough I didn't care at all that it was her birthday, I still congratulated her, and her friend was like; Ah come on, KISS HER! My god, only 1 minute in the club and already girls craving for attention. I didn't kiss her, just asked her name, gave a kiss on the cheek and left with the beer.

At some we started dancing around and then I saw one of my friends GF. She's a fun girl to hang around with and she doesn't mind to kino when her BF isn't around. No really, you can just grind on her and still she wouldn't even mind a bit. There was a friend standing next to her. I didn't know her yet, and at that point I thought; hmmm...do-able. She was wearing braces, something I don't see much at this age. I teased her with sexual eye contact, and danced with her. At some point in the music when certain lyrics came up that involved a hot girl, I pointed my finger at her with strong sexual eye-contact. Those were the moments when she didn't lose eye contact.

She came really close to me, like 4 inches were her lips away from mine. And I couldn't do it. Anxiety struck me. I also wasn't too interested in this girl, she wasn't that much attractive. A little bit crazy in my opinion. Yet I was horny so kino'ing all over her body (except the sexual parts). Then at some moment there was another close almost kiss moment, and I felt a rush through my body. As if I froze for a second. After that I wanted to do the same with the last girl, put my hand on her cheek, and make out. But she danced back before I could do anything and my hand slipped from her cheek and slighty touched her neck. The eye-contact broke. That was the moment I didn't want to try anymore, this girl was interested, but lost the interest.

She wanted to show me a picture of her and her motorcycle. That was when I realised that I totally didn't like her. I'm not fond of motorcycle girls. But I made a joke before she showed the picture. She wanted to take her phone and I said: "Oh you want to give me your number? WHy didn't you tell me earlier!" I took my phone and give it to her, to put in the number. No hesitation, she gave it, and I made a misscall so she had mine.

Then a classmate showed up (which I hooked up with my friend, but didn't work out) and he started talking with me first, then her. I knew that I was shot-out then, cause he's a motorcycle fan. When they weren't talking, she couldn't let her eyes off him, and that's the point when I left (also it was 3.00 am). My friends' GF walked home with me and she asked before we left; "are they gonna kiss"? I didn't have to think for a second, I knew they would. I sent a SPAM with him next morning and he said he did kiss her, big time! No hard feelings for me, I can do better girls. She wasn't thát attractive.

What have I learnt today?:
- Stop wasting time with girls that are not worth your time
- When I have crazy horny feelings, every interaction with girls goes amazingly well. Wallie

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Day 44: 5th April 2013
5-minute kiss close

Goals:
- Make 5 approaches (5/5)
- Work on the k-close sticking point: Field report +(+):
Last night, undescribable. I see myself growing every day, every night out. This night is a good example of how much I have changed the last 9 months. I've taking risk into getting rejected, and I'm glad I did.

It's carnival in town, which means lot of people going out. We went to our same local bar like every Friday. There was a tent outside for a band playing (approximately 40 people, all old at 21:00 o'clock). When the band played, the music was so loud that you had to scream and still couldn't understand each other. So the 3 of us went inside where there was a totally empty bar and totally quiet. Compared to the band playing, it was good.

A friend of us joined. Then, 30 minutes, a 5-set of good-looking girls came into the bar. We had a table next to us which was against our table. For some reason (even though there was room enough) they all sat next to us. When they passed by, I layed eye-contact with one of them, the tall girl. Unfortunately, I was a bit afraid of talking, AA kicked in. One of my brothers' friends passed by and I asked him something about the guitar (yes that's right, i'm planning to play electric guitar again). I quickly looked next to me and one of my friends started talking to the girls, but he was crashing and burning hard. So I said to my brother's friend: hey thanks, you will hear soon of me, but I gotta help my friend out, he's not doing well with the ladies.

I then started talking with one of the girls. She was very egoïstic and wanted me to buy her a drink. I kept denying it, f*ck off, I'm not gonna buy you a drink if I don't know you and certainly not if you have a BF. At some point one of the girls asked if we stayed all night. I said we would go to the club a couple of feet further. She was like; awwwww.... Me: "Oh you don't want us to go?". Her: Nooo.... I noticed an empty seat next to her and I stood up, walked to the chair and sat next to her. Now I was totally in the middle of 4 gorgeous girl, looking at me talking (one was away or something). Unfortunately 3 of the 4 had BF's, but the ultimate hotty was single. I didn't give attention to her, and only the 3 girls with BF's. Asked their names, guessed their ages. At some point the hot girl asked: "How old do you think I am?" (IOI?). I made a joke about her age, wayy to young. She laughed about it a bit. My god, she was 15 years old and already had tits bigger then 99% of the girls I had. A totally hot cutie.

Unfortunately, some guy friends came, and they wanted to go into the club. Well, 2 mins later they were back (which I knew that would happen). I sat back at the same seat and engaged them again. We talking and teased a bit. Hot cutie didn't say much unfortunately. We went to the club at 12 o'clock, and asked them to join us, trying it once more. They followed, but there was something strange. 1 went inside, hot cutie stood next to me to hang her coat (it was outside that time) but couldn't pay. I payed, and she then searched to pay me back. Missed opportunity to kiss or number close. After they couldnt get in, I said; come back to the same bar as tonight next Friday. I got 1 number, but not from hottie cutie. Facebooked her today and added her.

After me and my friend went inside, my friend's GF saw me and literally just jumped ON me. Wow, talk about drunk much! I wanted to order her drinks and when doing that, a cute blonde (small) girl sat next to me, staring a bit lonely. My friend knew her friends. I talked to the blonde a bit, but she had a BF too (showed me picture of him). She had relationship troubles and he didn't treat her right. I said: "You need a guy who treats you right (with kino). Not a really positive response. I signed my friend to go further.

After a bit of roaming, and small approaches (nothing special) I noticed my classmate who made out with the girl from last week. He had a petite blond talking to him, and next to the blonde was a gorgeous brunette, same height. She was looking around the room, and I saw my chance. I talked to her with a situational opener (god I love my natural game) and she kept responding positively. My classmate saw me talking to her and said something positive about me. (thanked him for that) We danced opposite of each other. I reached my hands to grab mine which she did. Made some crazy shaking move and she smiled and said: "Lol, what do you want actually". I asked her to repeat that, and when she asked again I said: "I want this." And BAM! I kissed her! She pulled back after 3 kisses and said; "Let's go somewhere more quiet" (it was middle of dance room). Without hesitation I took her hand and led her to some benches in the corner. We talked a bit, and I noticed that what she really wanted was to kiss me. I made eye-contact and we started making out. At first she stopped when I stopped, talked a bit and then made out once more. After 20 seconds of kissing I wanted to pull back, but she kept kissing me, wow! She loved every second of it! I said that I had to go, and she was dissappointed, she didn't want me to go yet. But I had to get up early, so I said to give her number, and made a misscall. After that, one more make-out. Same thing: I wanted to stop it earlier then she did, and we kept going until I pulled back. Then I brought her back to her friends and said goodbye.
It was a solid 3-minute kiss close.

What have I learnt today:
- Force yourself to work on your sticking points
- Early kiss-closing is good, the girls don't want to wait all night. But beware of the environment. You might wanna take them to a dark corner.
- I got to work on both the hot cutie from the bar (through facebook) as well as the girl I made out with.

All in all, a good night, that I can look back to once my game is going to a rough time.

Wallie

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This is awesome man. Good job!

Day 45: 6th April 2013
Give it back next time you see me

Goals:
- Make 5 approaches (3/5)
- Find girl from day 44 (she said she would be at the club again)

Field report:
Well, things worked out just fine, after all. Not a flake at all, she immediatly wanted to add me on facebook the next day. And when I looked at her pictures it was cool, she looked good. I was eager to meet her again.

At first I went for drinks at a friend. It was very crowded, 15 guys and 5 girls. I sat next to the girls and talked with them about her (bad thing, I couldn't leave it AGAIN). I made clear that whatever they knew, would not be spreaded. But I guess that's not smart, I don't know if I can trust them, you know women.

When we wanted to go, some drama kicked in between my friends because someone didn't tell that he would show up, blabla. I had no interest in staying with all the drama, so I left with a few others. At some point there were a few more friends waiting in front of the club in my street, and couldn't decide where to go. It was 12:30 already, and I had already made up my mind so I said: "I'm going to club X, anybody who wants to join, come now". Only 1 friend joined initially, but that's ok. We found the rest of my friends at the club and the host told me what happened after I left (not interesting though).

We were inside, and it was f*cking BUSY AS HELL! Everywhere was crowded, no room to walk normally, not even at the quiet parts. Since I knew that the girl was there, I wanted to search. After 3 times of walking around the club and still not finding her, I thought to myself; "Dude, wtf are you doing, searching desperately for this one girl?" So I stopped looking around and stayed with my friends. But one of them kept asking; "did you find her yet?". I told him that if she wants to see me, she will look around. In the meantime to forget thinking about her the whole time, I made a few approaches. Though it didn't work out, I was still distracted. I only told 2 friends that if they saw her, they should point her towards me.

Suddenly my friends wanted to move in the middle of the dance room (which was the most crowded). I didn't want to stay behind, so I joined them. It was around 2 o'clock. But what is this? I look at my right, and 2 pretty eyes meet mine. It was her, and she smiled warmly. I walked up to her and said; "Hey, do you know how good you are at hide and seek? It's nearly impossible to find you". She laughed and said: "Why didn't you SPAM me?". Me: "Because I knew you would be here to see me". She took it positively. Though I didn't want to hung around too much, I rejoined my friends (they were 3 feet away, so still in sight distance). However most of them left, the ones that stayed told me: "Pretty girl:)!"

Then the girl that kissed my classmate was 2 feet away from me and I said hi. She had a friend next to her which was OK looking. She wanted to introduce me to her, but in my mind I knew that my girl could easily see me if I made a move. That's why I only talked and kino'ed a bit, but left it at that. Nothing sneaky, this girl was not worth my time.

Suddenly another girl from Friday (day 44) walked past me, and didn't see me. When I greeted her she smiled warmly (with the teeth) and I told her to come again next Friday to the same bar. She didn't hesitate and said: "Sure, it was a great night ". When talking to her, some random dude smirked black jizz on my shirt, and I ignored. My friend though wanted to stand up for me. Even though I appreciate it, I still could handle myself if that guy would be annoying. I just hardly noticed he was doing that. In between she told me what she did when I couldn't find her for her friends, but that's ok. She was eager to come again, and I will ask for certainty on Facebook.

At some point the girl I wanted to see all night came up to me and said: "Come, let's go and find a more quiet space again". No hesitation from me, I took her hand and took the lead. She followed. However it was too crowded, not a single place in the club was actually 'quiet'. Eventually we found a 'not so' crowded place and started making out. She was between the wall and me. I was still holding her hand, and wanted to pin her down against the wall, but she resisted. I guess that the people walking by or standing near us made her a bit uncomfortable. Nevertheless she sure didn't resisted making out. It was good and passionate. When I wanted to smoothly use some tongue she laughed. I had to laugh too and said: "What's wrong:P". Her: "You're like a washing machine" (I guess I twisted a bit too much haha). Me: "Naah, more like tongue tornado". She laughed. In between there was a bit of talking, and in my mind I was thinking; "Can I get this girl home?" Since she is only 16, and already uncomfortable with people walking by, I thought to myself that it was not an option, not this night.

After one more make-out she noticed my necklace. I showed it to her and she noticed the sign on it, asking what I meant (it looks like 2 flames). I couldn't think of anything and just said: "It's for good luck, no matter what happens, it will provide you the strength to continue life". She looked intrigued. I took my chances and said: "Here (taking my necklace of), take it. The next time we meet again, I want it back (this is from Style of The Game)". She thought tonight and I had to make clear that I meant some other day/night. No hesitation from her, she smiled, and kissed me again. My god, it was good, I loved every second of it.

Then I said (we were alone together for around 7-10 minutes, maybe longer); come, let's grab a drink (remember her moving around the club?). I sat at one of the barstool, and accidently my foot touched the girl's foot on the left of me. She kicked it away and looked angry at my face. I was unfazed and looked my girl in the eyes, smiling. The girl next to me noticed this and suddenly didn't look that angry anymore. Preselection? Then we went back to our friend and hers. I'm not gonna stick around alone with her, in a crowded club. After a few classmates wanted to go eat, I joined them, and said my girl goodbye. She wanted to take my necklace of, but I said: "No, not tonight". We agreed to text each other the next day.

At the food place they were curious about the girls I had. When I told them I had kissed 14 girls, they were amazed. They couldn't believe it. Since we had to wait, I named every girl that I had. Some were good, some were bad but hey; it has made me who I am right now (a good kisser if you believe the girl from day 44).

What have I learnt today?
- If you search around for 1 particular girl, it f*cks up your mind when you can't find her (this is similar with the situation 2 months ago
- Since she wanted to make out with me, I should have taken the lead, instead of her asking to find a quiet place.
- This girl is not comfortable with many people watching me and her together being close (i.e. kissing), so I gotta watch that.

We've agreed to meet up the next Sunday. Text game will follow. It's a rather boring one, and not sexual, so don't follow this one too much. I wanted to practice "the straight to the point" kind of asking.

Wallie

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Date #3: Girl from day 44 (14th April 2013)
More intimacy between each other

Goals:
- Express my sexual desire e.g. Kissing, 2nd Base, more...?

Field report:
Never mind the text game, it's rather boring. Let's just say that the straight to the point approach worked, we had a bit of teasing through SPAM, in which she sometimes said: "Do you dare to come here upcoming Sunday?" in which I teasingly replied no and stuff like that. We kept it light and fun.

We agreed to meet-up at 7 pm at HER place, so I had to drive for 15 mins, but it was easy to find luckily. Once I went inside I greeted her mother and introduced myself (unfortunately I forgot mother's name), also her little brother was in the kitchen (forgot name too, dumbass me...) and her father (Sjaak, luckily I did remember his). I haven't met her younger sister (14 years old) and her older brother (18 years and gay). We went upstairs to her room, and she forgot some drinks. When she came in her room back again, her mother had said that I was very spontaneous. I said why? Her: "Well immediatly when you entered our house and saw our mother, there was no hesitation to introduce yourself." So that's well done by me I guess .

I downloaded American Pie movies to watch, and we took the first one since she hasn't seen it (weird tbh, almost everybody I know has at least seen it once). During the movie we did some small talk, to get to know each other. She grabbed my hand and rubbed her finger over mine, which felt really nice. Note: during kissing and sex scenes we didn't make out yet. Around 9 pm the movie ended. She turned off the laptop and I told her to turn off the lights. She put up some music and we started making out. At first we were sitting on the bed, but then I pushed her down slowly until I was lying on top of her. At first the kissing was bit well... not on the same line. But slowly as we kissed more and more, we were on the same page. And it felt GREAT.

If there are words to describe this, then it would be passionate, intimate, enjoyment etc... Then suddenly her mother came in to bring some snacks, at which she a little bit frightened. We turned the lights on again, and sat next to each other, because I had to make her feel more comfortable again. She locked the door and we got to know each other a bit. I asked questions about how her first kiss was, how her past experiences with guys was, and she also asked mine. I knew that I couldn't hide the truth so I said: "Promise me you won't freak out". I then told her that she was the 14th girl I've ever kissed and she was totally OK with it. She herself had her first kiss only 10 months ago or something, and I was the 5th guy I believe. I told her that I understood how hard it must have been for her that some girls told her she was a slut, but that I actually was impressed by that.

She was comfortable again, and I made strong, deep eye contact. We started making out again, and once again I had to push her a little bit down. This time, she kissed better and better with every minute passing by. There were also a lot of moments were we had to laugh because I made some strange kissing noise, or she had to swallow and made funny noise. Then I remember something about kissing girls in the neck, so I started doing that, and peeked at her face with my left eye. It definately looked like she enjoyed it, and she wispered; "That tickles..hihi..". My hands now started slowly rubbing her breasts (and they are suprisingly bigger then I thought) on the outside of her clothes. She was OK with it when I asked, but I couldn't get under her shirt because she was wearing something that she tucked down in her pants. Too bad. I tried it differently a few minutes later, by going from the mouth, to her front neck, to her upper chest, and slowly in between her tits (while giving little kisses), to the point where I was kissing her inner side of her boobs. She said (in a laughing tone): "Where are we going?" There were a lot of noises from family members walking upstairs, so I didn't want to risk her getting caught naked. We stopped the kissing for a while and started talking again.

Then after some talking it suddenly was already 22:45. I wasn't sure how long I could stay, and I had 23:00 in mind. Just some light kissing now, and I peeked at the clock. She saw that and made a joke about it. Funny girl, I like that. When the clock hit 23:00, I stood up, ready to go, in which she grabbed my hand, pulled me back, and kissed me again. I guess no time to go yet. Then around 23:15 I said; "Hey, it's all cool, but I gotta go now". (I didn't want to wait her saying, you have to go)". We went downstairs, I talked a bit with her parents. Then outside to my car, she gave me a strong hug, few kisses and she said: "I had a good time with you tonight". I nodded and we agreed to text each other again. Once I was home, I could still smell her lovely scent in my shirt, and I fell asleep happily.

What have I learnt today:
- These are the dates I want; intimacy, slightly sexual (perhaps more sexual in the future)
- Going to her place first is good, my place might be uncomfortable at first.

Hopefully I will see her soon, she was quite a cool girl.

Wallie

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Date #3.2 Girl from day 44 (19th April 2013)
Home alone

Goal:
- No particular goal this time, I just let it coming this time

Field report:
She before hand texted me that her parents wouldn't be home. I went to her place again (next time at mine). They was at a soccermatch which is like 2 hours travelling. I arrived at her place around 21:15 pm. Her brother and sister were still at home. I met her sister when coming in, the brother introduced himself when he and her sister went out. So now I have met her brothers and sister at least.

We didn't really know what to do (and to immediatly make-out didn't come across my mind), and since I still had the american pie movies on my USB-drive, we started watching American pie #5. In between there was some talking. Her mother called at 10:00 pm from Amsterdam that they were going home. It's a one and a half hour travel with train, so I figured they would be home around 23:30 - 23:45. The movie ended around 22:30, so that gave us one hour of time left to do some 'stuff'. After I drank some cola, we started making out and I got even more passionate then last time, as if we get more on the same line the more we kiss.

Suddenly she said: "Aren't you gonna do what you did last time"? (which was kissing between her tits). That was my cue (perhaps something I could have done way earlier) to start kissing from her chest down. I tried to pull her clothes to the side so that her nipple would reveal itself, but dumb me forgot that she was wearing a bra. Since she was lying down on the bed, it was nearly impossible to open it. But I have to say, that during this time, I was pretty nervous. Like this is something that I haven't experienced for YEARS!. She then grabbed my hand, and put it right under her shirt on her boob. No better indication to start massaging it. Though her bra was on so it wasn't very sexual. She could feel my arm shake a little bit (I couldn't control it). And I can tell that she has quite some large breasts, nothing I've ever seen.

We took our shirts off, and WOW, I could feel my pupils dilate, what an amazing view, even though her bra was on. I believe it was around 23:20 or so that we were half naked in front of each other. When we kissed she gently stroke her nails over my back and because it tickled so much, I felt amazing. It came up in my mind to take her bra off, BUT I had a nagging feeling that her parents were home (maybe a sound) so I said; "We gotta take our shirts back on." She was a bit confused so I said: "Just do it, I think your parents are home" (and from last FR, you can read that sometimes she just walks in) Like 2 seconds after our shirts were back on her mother shouted from downstairs: "Honey, we're home!" She looked at me with a 'thank you!' eyes. Pfew.

We went downstairs, I talked a bit with her mom and dad, but I had to go for sure since the next day of works was getting up early. When I walked to the car I kind of sat on the drivers chair, tired, and I looked at her. She looked at me like: "What's this, no kiss?" So I stood up, made a joke: "Oh man, it would have totally ruïned the night if I didn't kiss you goodbye" (with a smile). She laughed and kissed me goodbye.

What have I learnt today?
- I have to become more confident when things start to become more sexual
- Lead her more instead of letting her do it. '
- I just gotta do it and not be so nervous.

Wallie

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Day 46: 20th April 2013
Is that your girlfriend?

Goals:
- I have no idea why but I went to the club the next day to see her. I guess my goal now was winning over friends.

Field report:
Had to work very long that day, from 7:30 am till 18:45 pm. When home I immediatly ate and went to sleep. Went to club around 12.00 pm and told friends at SPAM I was heading to that club. At first they didn't say that they would go, but I think afterwards they wanted to meet the date I've been seeing so often.

The club was totally not packed AT ALL. Maybe 60-80 people were there. I noticed her sitting on a couch with 2 friends (1 I didn't know so I immediatly introduced). Talked a bit and some drunk guy was annoying one of her friends. She saw this and wanted me to tell him something to let him back off. I said my girl that it's ok, her friend can take care of herself. If the guy would be all harassing of stuff, then I would have intervened.

15 minutes later 4 of my friends walked in (gladly because I was bored). I introduced her to the girls and one of my friends immediatly started talking with one of her friends. I could notice that her friend was annoyed or not amused by his presence. This might have lowered my value a bit. She couldn't recognise the names but that's ok, I have that problem as well sometimes.

We went off the dancefloor and I noticed the same friend of mine starting to flirt with my girl. Or at least trying to because it looked like totally nothing. One of my other friends asked why I didn't do anything. Me: "Come on, just look at him, he doesn't stand a single chance on my girl". My friend laughed: "Haha, good point". Though it still concerned my that if have a friend to acts all fake alpha.

Some classmates were also present and they asked questions like: "Why aren't you dancing with your girl", "If you don't dance with your girl then I will", stuff like that. But it didn't trigger any emotions in me, I was always about 5-10 feet near her, so I wouldn't be both clingy or ignoring her. Sometimes making eye contact, once in a while a little dancing, but overall just having fun. Then some tall guy, apparently a teammate of one of my classmates, kind off looking threatening in my opinion, asked me if she was my girlfriend. I said: "We're dating, it's not sure". He looked at her, then at me and said: "Well she keeps looking at you, it seems that she's attracted to you". I just nodded and said, you're right. My girl walked up to me when he was gone and asked what he said. I told his question and she said: "You didn't say yes, did you?". I repeated what I said to the guy and it was all fine. Damn annoying curious people....

I took her once again to a more private place, made out a little bit, until some guys sat next to us. We weren't too comfortable since they looked bored and a bit angry. I took her back to her friends, and about half an hour later they had to go. I walked with her, kissed her goodbye and she asked: "When will I see you again?". Me: "Well i'm not sure, next weekend I'm busy, Ill SPAM you". Her: "Alright, Ill hold you on that!". She then left, and I went home about 15 mins later. The club was nearly empty and it was 3:30 pm already.

What have I learned today:
- Keep your cool with guys asking (serious) questions, or giving advice.
- Don't get jealous (not that I did but still)

Wallie

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Hey Wallie, great job on making progress. Read a couple of your reports, and you've come a long way.
You have to push for the F-close harder though. The girls seem all over you, but your reports always end there.
Just keep the goal of F-closing in mind during the interaction, and you'll see that it's easier to full close.

Also try to get logistics fixed. Invite the girl over when your parents aren't home etc/ go somewhere in your/ her car.

Hope this helps out.

*Quick note*
It's official now

Yep, that's right. Since last week Sunday (28th April 2013), the girl I've been on a few dates is my girlfriend now. And I have to say that I'm very happy about it. It's actually strange because I wasn't intentionally looking for a relationship, but she turned out to be someone who likes me for who I am and when you find someone like that it's amazing.

So far the times we spent together were passionate and lovable, though I haven't told the 3 words offcourse. Not sure when it's gonna cross my mind but that's ok

This means that I'm not gonna be posting a lot anymore in this journal, for the time being. Perhaps some special nights I don't want to forget and share it here, but not much stuff on learning. Since she's a virgin, and because of the fact that I'm totally not sexually experienced, this could be a good thing. I'm gonna do whatever I can to sexually give her an amazing time she will never forget. If this relationships, won't work out then no big deal, GFTOW.

I'm out of the picture for a while, but I will return as the time asks for it.

Wallie

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Awesome! I will pm you one more thing!

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*Quick note*
I have ended the relationship at 24-07-2013 (so the relationship was almost 3 months)

It was unavoidable. I had to end the relationship. And offcourse I'm gonna explain why:

First of all, my girlfriend was quite insecure, something that I didn't notice at first because I was on a pink cloud. Everything was good at first, at least I thought, but as weeks past by, I noticed that the more I got the know her, my love for her slowly dissappeared. When she was on vacation for a week, I didn't really miss her. I wasn't even thát happy to see her when she returned.

Then, when we did have sex, I started to notice that I didn't really get turned on by her. Sure she could kiss well, but when she was sitting butt naked in front of me, she always covered her tits, because she was THAT insecure. She also wouldn't let me lick her pussy, and neither did she give any blowjobs, because she said it was disgusting. I didn't really like that, because I like it to turn a woman slowly on by eating her out. Also when we DID have sex, she was completely silent. So that's also a factor I couldn't enjoy the sex with. I made noise but even then she didn't want to give any sound. And it made me feel very uncomfortable. Nevertheless this isn't the whole reason.

Then after 1 week when she returned, I went to Spain on vacation myself with 3 other friends. And that's when my doubts were the highest. I saw my 2 friends who have a relationship texting their girlfriends quite a lot, while I on the other hand did not feel any need to speak to my own GF. I couldn't sleep at nights, because I was doubting so much. So after 4 days, I made the decision (while still in Spain) that I just HAD to break up with her. And it wasn't easy.

On the day in the bus when we were driving back home, I got a few texts from her. She really wanted me to sleep over, because she hadn't seen me in over 2 weeks. And the more <3, I love you's, and XXX's i got, the more shittier I felt. I was going to break up with a girl that missed me SO much, that was looking forward to see me SO much, it was horrible.

I returned in the afternoon last Wednesday, and agreed to meet up at her place that night. At 10 pm I arrived, and immediatly told her that we had to talk. Her first reaction was: "You cheated on me, didn't you?! . But i'm glad I didn't. That's the truth. I couldn't have it on my mind that I cheated a cute girl like her. But she wasn't good for me. I told her that I hadn't missed her and that my feelings for her were gone. She was mad, VERY mad, and told me to leave. I was on a point to leave when her dad came in. He was also happy to see me, but I immediatly said: "I'm sorry, but I'm afraid I have to go" (my fingers are shivering while typing this, I still feel the horror from that day). When I tried to explain I broke in tears, and her dad said: "You're not gonna drive in this state, sit down and Ill give you some water". Then I started to explain to him what happened, about my doubts (but not about the sex thing). I thought he would be mad, but he nodded at everything, understood what I said and was calm, not mad at all. He said: "you're young, and these things happen. I'm glad you came over to tell this, even though it's horrible news quickly after a vacation". He asked me: "Did or did you not cheat on her?". I said: "Look me in the eyes, (and when I said it), I did NOT cheat on her". He could see that I told the truth. At the room next to me I could hear my (now ex-GF) scream and cry. I felt like an asshole. At the moment I told her dad about the final texts she sent I spoke like this: "And with every ..... every.... (i broke again in tears).....final texts........she sended........ I felt more..... and more shittier....." I couldn't even really speak to him. He saw that it hurt me a lot.

When I calmed down agian, I thanked her dad for being so calm and respectfull. Then I spoke to my ex-GF again when she was calm too. SHe asked me things like: "Did you cheat on me?" No. "For how long did you know this?" The past couple of weeks. "Did you miss me when I was on vacation?" Not really. "Did you miss me in Spain" No. I answered everything with only the truth. When everything was explained I was ready to leave. She wanted a final hug, which I obviously gave her. And I said to her: "I wish you find someone that will make you smile every time you see him, that will make your heart skip a beat when he says you lovely things, that will give you the love you deserve (and I meant it, because she is worth it), BUT i'm not that guy..". I give her a kiss on the forehead and said goodbye. A final hug I gave to her parents and her father said: "Talk to her in a week or 2, and know this; you will always be welcome here, because you're a good guy, I've seen that." I respected that.

After that when I returned home, I felt relieved. I felt relieved by being able to tell the truth, and that I've confessed everything. And she will understand, I know that. I think we will talk soon enough. And after that I slept good. My mind is cleared, and calm. No more doubts. I simply went into the relationship too fast. I hope she will find someone soon, and she will because she's a good looking, attractive cute girl, but not for me. I wish her the best!

What have I learnt from this?
- I will not go into a relationship for the next year(s) and develop myself more into the seduction of women.
- Next time I find a girl from who I THINK she is GF-material, I will at least date her for several MONTHS, maybe even half a year. Only to avoid hurtful nights like this, or for her.
- Relationships are hard for me, I'm too much fond of flirting with many girls.
- I have to develop my skills on f-closing more. The sex wasn't satisfactory yet, so I have to make myself more comfortable with it.

Wallie

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I thought it was a horrible idea from the beginning, i try to tell you...

You had what is called NRE:

anyways, on another note, it was YOUR JOB, to make her into a secure, sexual women and lead, you fail at that cause of your lack of experience....

Anyways live and learned back to square 1.

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Day 47: 9th August 2013
Starting over

Goals:
- Make 5 approaches (0/5)

Field report:
Hmm well, I knew that the lack of approaches from the past few months would somehow weaken my game, but that my game would be tótally killed was a little bit of a suprise.

When we went to an open air party where there were about 1000 people I think, I'd thought that a few approaches would have been possible. But the only thing that happened was approach anxiety kicking in hard, and not really been able to approach. All the night I've been enjoying the music and nothing really happened.

So this made me realise that I have a long road to go, but also that I don't want a relationship for the next couple of years. There is also the fact that because I will be a college student in 2 weeks. I've got my own room with 4 other housemates (2 girls and 2 guys, from which 1 girl is very attractive and single) and a whole new city where I know only a very few people. It's gonna be a jump in the deep, but I like it because I don't want to live with my parents anymore.

In 2 weeks I'm on my own, where I can live the way I want (to a certain degree offcourse) and this also makes it possible for me to go out more often. My city has about 180.000 habitants (which is way more than my 10.000 own village I used to live in) and got quite a lot of bars and a sufficient amount of college students. There is also the fact that I might find new friends, which are of more value than those I have now. I'm very excited to start a new chapter of my life !

What have I learnt today:
- The fact that I haven't made any approaches on strangers the past 3 months have made me sloppy, I have to start over again.
- A new city, a new home and this means a new start.

Wallie

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Day 48: 17th Augusut 2013
It feels like I forgot everything

Goals:
- Make 5 approaches (5/5)
- Eye-contact

Field report:
As the title says, it feels like I've forgot everything what I've learnt. We've first got a few beers at a friends place and then went to club (which has been like 2 months ago for the last time for me). I was pretty eager to approach but they didn't go well at all.

There was sort of a beach party in the club. The floor was covered in sand and on the main stage there were some bikini people dancing (hired dancers offcourse). At first there were quite some (cute) girls, and I made a few approaches. But none of them went well at all. It was always one or 2 lines, and then I could notice interest gone. Maybe because I'd give them the wrong intention? I think that my sexuality didn't come off at all. Which is possible because I didn't feel like it that night. I was eager to approach, but wasn't necessarily thinking sexual of the girls.

From what I remember before my 3 months of GF, I was always IMMEDIATLY thinking of kissing the girl(s) if they were attractive enough. Perhaps that will return soon enough. I'm curious.

What have I learnt today:
- Practice to become what I was before, and to develop even further.
- My intentions have to be made clear (in a subcommunicating way, such as body language and intonality)

Wallie

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Day 49: 20th August 2013
Female roommate and me going out 1st time

Goals:
- No real goals, just getting used of a new environment, and just have fun.

Field report:
It was my first time at my new room, and I had to stay because next day was introduction from my school. One of the female roommates wanted to go out but 2 of the guys had introductions themselves that day, and the other female girl had to go home. So that left me and my female roommate left. She really wanted to go, and I was kinda curious myself. At 10:30 pm we headed towards the city. She was talking quite a lot, but also smoking a few cigarettes.

Once we were in the city we started searching for some bars. She started asking where to go and I made the mistake but not taking the lead. I could've decided for a bar but was just a bit nervous that night. We went inside the 1st bar and it was quite calm. We were heading for some drinks and we talked a bit. At some point I noticed that this girl is crazy but crazy in a fun way, which I thought was quite attractive. The problem in my opinion is that she smoked quite a few cigarettes there as well. When it was still a bit calm after half an hour we went to the next bar. No approaches so far.

We went inside the 2nd bar and it was quite crowded. After some drinks, we went outside because she had to smoke another cigarette, because inside was forbidden. I don't know how but at some point we were talking about work in the city and some guy had been eavesdropping, opening us with: "I heard you 2 were searching work?" But it was a lame excuse to open up our set. He didn't involve me at all in their conversation, which was quite annoying. I observed this guy and noticed that his eyes were wandering around the street as if he was looking for someone. This made him not so strong because I could notice that my roommate enjoyed the convo but wasn't attracted. I went inside to head for the toilet, and made 1 approach. It was direct and short but nothing really happened more. When I returned, both my roommate and the guy were sitting down. I sat with them and soon my roommate had to go to the toilet. Now this guy was talking towards me about fliriting and how to do everything and man he was full off bullsh*t. 2 blonde girls were slowly walking towards the entrance and he said that I should approach them. I was totally not in state, but said to myself: "F*ck it, show this guy at least something". I stood up, said: "Hey, I just wanted to say that you look very cute tonight". She reacted neutral. I invited the girls to sit with me and that fake alpha so that he would shift his attention towards the girls. My female roommate came back and just talked with everyone. I wasn't interested in the girls but now I could hangout with my roommate again. At some point the guy left, and soon the girls too.

I had to go to the toilet again, made 1 approach at the way in. When I was walking back I made eye-contact with a nice blonde girl. I didn't hesitate and walked towards here, saying: "Hey, you have very smiley eyes". She smiled with the teeth showing (real smile). But I don't know why, and I left (maybe still nervous) to go outside. My 1 small approach. She opened up warm, but I was approaching just for the sake of getting used of approaching again. Now my roommate had 2 Indonesian guys sitting next to her. Offcourse the same happened, though this time I was done with it and just interfered with the flirting of this guy, sort of cockblocking him, in a way that he still thought I was a nice guy. He was that buffed up guy, not really nice imo, so I cockblocked this guy. At 2 am, the bar closed and me and my roommate went to the next bar.

This bar was also very crowded. We started walking to the 'dancefloor' (after getting drinks) and it was quite busy. Hard to walk through. I made a few approaches in this bar, and 1 girl tried to get me into a frat society. I said I would think about it, but in the back of my head I had a big NO. I don't need a student society to make friends. My female roommate was surrounded by guys again. I just had fun goofing around, making a few approaches. After 1 hour she asked me to walk with her to the smoking room, and once she was done smoking for the I-don't-know-how-many time, we agreed to go home. At the way back we talked again, she had her arm around my waist (she was sitting on the back of my bicycle) and we were talking about the good night we had. She wasn't attracted to any those guys, but was just happy of the attention she had. Once home, I was thinking of kissing her, but doubted too much and didn't do it. I went to my room and went to sleep.

What have I learnt today:
- Expect guys/AFC's to approach your female companion
- My direct approaches are not much of a succes, I need to think of something better (not in the way of better lines, just better approaches).
- I'm slowly feeling the vibe again. It will only be a matter of time until I'm back into my old self.

Wallie

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