Open women by dancing, and dance with them...

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um... right...
That's a little less vague than what you normally say, I guess.
Anyhow, thinking about it, it reminds me of college when I went to parties all the time and just danced with girls and that generally seemed to work as an opener. HOWEVER there seems to be a bit of a different mechanic to dancing in a goth club.

Doesn't seem like that would be as effective. On the other hand... there are a few places, other than the goth club, where they dance pretty much the same way they dance at the house parties I recall in college. And in those places I just dance with chicks and it works out. And while dancing I try to proceed to making out, but taking small steps towards that... blah blah blah, there's a whole system behind it and I can't exactly explain it since most of it is running on intuition.

I guess that might at the goth club, I'm just not sure how to dance with girls there since they do less grinding and up close and personal dancing and more spinning around and moving wildly.
DEMF [detroit electronic music fest] you can just grind and it works out
A few of the bars [when they're crowded enough and play the right kind of music] same shit
City Club... eh... It's a bit different.

So. Giving that in City club they tend to do less grinding and more swaying and moving around wildly, how would you go about it?

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If I were you, I'd focus my efforts on first finding a job. You aren't in good spirits at all from the sounds of it. A job, even if it were at McDonald's, would give your life more structure and purpose.

Once you have a job, figure out what you're doing that's so wrong. You've spent a lot of time trying. Really trying. Really really really trying hard. Clearly something's wrong in your game big time... And I couldn't tell you what exactly because there's just so much in your thread.

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chime you are totally right i did not read it was a goth club, though in my experience goth girls are freaks sexually... Opening by dancing may not work with them well, they are more the social circle type game... That is why i would recommend other type of parties/clubs other than goth...Gothic dancing not good for escalation either...

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At the present moment I have no car and my options of venues are fairly limited.
I work Friday and Saturday nights. Upon leaving work I can.
A. Go to this shitty bar down the street that has old ugly bitches [and I don't use the term loosely] I'm not very attracted to, yet on rare occasions there are attractive girls there [like 5 at the most and that was a very rare occasion]. As far as a numbers game this is not where I care to be.

B. Walk a little further and go to Ultimate bar and grill. A place with about ten security guards every night and a $10 cover. Usually packed to the brim with ghetto black chicks [which I'm not so interested in]. They do dance, but most of them are more interested in learning how to dance than just grinding away. So a higher level of skill is required to obtain a girl I'm not interested in to begin with, plus a $10 cover. I usually pass this place by, not my thing.

C. Head towards home and go to a smaller version of Ultimate bar that's significantly less violent. The only upside to this place is that it's across the street from my house.

D. Continue to walk past Ultimate towards DownTown Detroit. There are still places I have yet to check out in the Greek town Casino Area... Almost all of them have cover charges and ghetto black chicks. More exploring is needed.

D.1. Grand Trunk bar. There isn't much dancing going on there. No ghetto chicks either [thank god, but still it's about a 30 min walk from my job and the busses stop running after 12]. The issue I had with this place is that by the time I get there there's no place to sit, it's crowded and most girls are there with their boyfriends or in some group that's rather closed off. I have initiated a few convo's outside smoking and then gone inside and chatted more at times, but it's rare. And the drinks are expensive.

D.2. Hard rock Cafe: See Grand Trunk bar.

D.X pretty much just exploring that area for whatever else happens to be around... Eventually I'll check that out.

E. City Club. The Goth bar. They do the goth dancing and shit and there's a smoking room downstairs where people just stand around and chat. I've been going here the past three weeks and getting in practice. So far I've yet to have any more success than making out with a girl or getting their facebook.

F. I generally don't do this cause it's too far a distance to walk and it's cold out and I don't have a car and the busses stop running after 12 [around the time I get out of work]. There's Comet bar and Temple bar. Both are generally quiet and have cheaper drinks, and girls are rather rare in these places. So I don't always bother. But Temple sometimes throws parties for things like halloween and the like. Usually on the day of the holiday. It get's pretty packed and you can dance to your hearts content on those days.

G. Old Miami. Still rather far away. Very far. They have bands playing a lot at this place and usually a $10 cover. I don't feel jipped like I would at Ultimate since I'm actually into the girls there. There's also a bon fire in the back yard going on. And a hula hoop and a pond. They have a lot of events and I have their facebook page so I can see when somethings going on there.

H. The Bronx. This is a coin flip. One bartender is a cock blocking asshole. One is a pretty cool guy. I've fucked up a few opportunities here. The drinks are cheap. It's mostly the asshole bartender I'm annoyed with. I'll go up to a chick at the bar and start talking to her and he'll get pissed and say "hey, leave my customers alone!!" as if a guy talking to a girl in a bar is some odd phenomenon that never fucking happens. I never bother to tip that bastard.

I. Still pretty far away. 3rd street bar. I haven't been there enough to know much about it. One night it was packed [not much dancing]. Other nights it was dead as hell. I've only been there on a friday.

J. Magic Stick. This has lots of shows and I've been meaning to go there more often. I assume the dancing thing would work there. It's jsut so fucking far from my house. Money for a cab is an issue and walking in the cold is another one.


So....... I've been debating scrapping the whole going out and trying to meet girls and get practice in idea and just saving up for a fucking car. Cause most places I've gone to in Detroit are either too far away or suck ass. The ones closest to where I'm living suck ass.

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1. Did you ever instantly know you were going to like and trust someone for a long, long time?

Maybe you only knew them for a short while but it seemed that you had known them your whole life, as if there were a timeless connection between you.

As you read these words and remember those amazing feelings, it’s good to know that sometimes life has a way of making us remember those things, right prior to discovering that we can experience those feelings again.

With me… in my experience, it’s the kind of thing that can’t be forced and no essays or words can create it.

Check out my profile to see a little more about me.

options...

And you said you received 600+ messages...you must be joking? Prove it to me lol, take a screenshot and send it over?

(20:00:04) Chime: I've fucked one girl so far since then

(20:00:10) lagron: Pahaha...yea your appearance means a lot, that's understandable...so you already know I think you're attractive...BUT, you can't expect me to easily sleep with for a night we know would be great for the both of us, even if just once, though I am hoping you're a lady that actually wants someone who knows more about them, and is connected on a whole other level?

(20:00:17) lagron: I don't know whether we'll have an incredibly exciting and fun time when we go out to meet up but it sure is fun to think about all the endless possibilities isn't it? Maybe a bunch of rollercoaster rides, fancy dinners and such would suit your appetite...if that is the way you want to go. But since you already know just by your looks you'd pass...

(20:00:18) Chime: hmm... pause time(

20:00:23) lagron: BUT and this is a big butt...I need to know that there is something more to you...most girls message me and say something along the lines of "Well I'm pretty...or I have blonde hair...or I have a sexy ass".... Uhhhh I do hope you tell me something more about yourself lol....

(20:00:29) lagron: And you're a Taurus! ME TOO, Was born on May 2nd..hbu?

Thanks and hope to talk to you in a bit..maybe just text me at 201-800-0414 to answer some of my questions, its soo much easier that way.

(20:00:34) lagron: that was a great lady i got(20:00:40) lagron: she texted me asap



Just so I have it saved away somewhere... Yanked from the chat room.

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conversation from OKCupid.

Me: Did you ever instantly know you were going to like and trust someone for a long, long time?

Maybe you only knew them for a short while but it seemed that you had known them your whole life, as if there were a timeless connection between you.

As you read these words and remember those amazing feelings, it’s good to know that sometimes life has a way of making us remember those things, right prior to discovering that we can experience those feelings again.

With me… in my experience, it’s the kind of thing that can’t be forced and no essays or words can create it.

Check out my profile to see a little more about me.

her: I am going to attempt to not come off as bitter...I am a realist so I walk a fine line here...I have had those connections and just like that, they were gone.

So...I am not nearly as trusting as you. I read the bulk, but not all, of your profile and I am actually surprised you'd be interested in talking to me...lol I think we are polar opposites. But...

How are you?

~~~~~Watch this video before you read my next message to her~~~~~~~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_vtn_gv1QM

Me: haha, I'm actually not that trusting of anyone. I can see where you're coming from. When I was younger my father was always rough on me. He hit me to keep me in line BAM! Or sometimes I'd just be sitting there doing nothing. POW!

The only time I ever really saw dad happy was when he took me to the circus when I was 7. Ah... I remember it like it was yesterday. The clowns running around, dropping their pants. Dad laughed so hard I thought he'd have a heart attack.

So, the very next night I put on his very best pants and rant out to meet him after work and dropped them to my ankles. ZOOOOP!! "Hey dad! look at me!" I tripped and fell and tore the crotch right out of his pants. Hahahaha. Fun times.

Then he broke my nose.

I've got a few trust issues with people. But I try to stay hopeful that not everyone is so bad.


her: Wow. I have lost all words...*gathers words to make sentences*

I believe that not everyone is so bad. I believe that most people do not seek to be bad people...but sometimes shit happens.

I am very sorry about your childhood experience. My dad has not been the greatest but it was based on abandonment and not abuse.

Anywho, now that we've discussed our daddy issues...lol I have a weird sense of humor.

Why Ok Cupid?


me: Well, my dad favored the drink... So I can see how that had an effect on things.

I'm on OKC because I only have time to go out on friday and saturday nights really. Sometimes I get tired of girls who want to party all the time and never have time to just sit down and relax and take things slow. Watch a movie, cuddle, talk about life, enjoy the scenery. Things like that.

So, what sorts of things make you laugh? What's something you find funny?


her: I laugh at almost anything...seriously that lyric that says "I'm the type to laugh at a funeral" is me...I am incredibly awkward and I love everything about being awkward lol It's fun. I find certain racial humor to be funny...which is why I like Family Guy and I also think impersonations are funny.

What makes you laugh? What does it take to entertain you? You're high maintenance...


Me: Me! high maintenance!!! hahaha, that's the funniest thing I've heard all day! I used to be homeless and tend to appreciate the little things in life. Mostly I just like it when someone is straight forward and real. When people care about others sorta deal.

I won't exactly laugh at a funeral, doesn't mean I don't want to. Here's a video that I think has the greatest guitar solo I've ever seen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OqyjfnVZLXM


her: I was joking about the high maintenance thing. Being homeless must suck...apparently I have been homeless before according to some standards lol

I feel like I should have watched that youtube vid high but like I don't do drugs so...lol That was freaky...

What do you find funny? You are very upfront and honest...does that ever create problems for you?


~~~~~~~my next message is hinting at how bitter and pissed I am about how a guy has to talk to girls to get any sort of response at all. It's also hinting at the idea that my initial message was me bullshiting to get a response and that my 2nd message was a bold faced lie. I don't think she picked up on that hint though~~~~~~

Me: Being upfront and honest creates a lot of problems. It seems mostly with girls though. I've seen a lot of times a girl will fall head over heels for some guy who's feeding her lines of entertaining bs. Because she's emotionally drawn to what he's saying she eats it all up and ends up in a relationship she later finds out she's not happy in. While there was some other guy who was straight forward and honest about himself and how he felt about her.

But that guy, he was't very compelling. Nor was he entertaining. In the long run he may just be better for her and more of what she'd actually want, but she never gave him a chance cause the outside packaging wasn't flashy enough.

So, yes, honesty has it's down sides. Mostly in social interaction and sales. People who're good at bullshitting tend to excel at those things while those who're honest and upfront don't.


I think that video is hilarious. Archer is pretty funny.
I like to mess with people sometimes and laugh at their misfortune, granted it's not that big of a deal. E.g. fucking with people while playing videogames or something like that.


What's the wildest things you've done, as far as guys are involved?



her: Did I ask you what it takes to entertain you? Seems like it would take a lot..like a hand stand half naked or something...which I would not do FYI.

I am not really wild...I had sex with two different guys back to back the same night. That was unexpected...but it was interesting lol Not in the same room but like I saw one had sex then went to see the other one right after to just hang...and then I had sex with him. What about you?

What is your idea of fun? Like for real for real...what would an incredibly fun filled day look like for you?


~~~~~~note, there's another bold faced lie in the next message. my friend Jessica doesn't exist but otherwise what I said it 100% true~~~
Me: Well, That's not really that wild at all.. My friend Jessica went to a party with me once. We were on a road trip and she'd just broken up with her boyfriend. She was really upset and trying to get over him and she fucked 7 guys that night. Then, back at the camp grounds some guy from the party was there that she'd slept with and was calling her a slut and other stupid shit.

So, we had to "insist" he went away and left her alone. She was really upset and crying about it, but she was just having fun and trying to get over her boyfriend and be free. I guess some guys just don't get that.

I really wouldn't care if it was two guys are once or not, what you're doing is your business as long as you stay safe it's cool.


One night I had with a girl that was really fun.
She called me up and wanted to come over and drink wine and eat steak. she brought the wine and I had the steak. But she forgot the wine... So when she came over we ate some steak and then we went to the liquor store and she got some wine and jameson and on the way back we ran into the neighbors and started talking to them. They invited us over and we're hanging out with them.

We're just watching movies and mixing drinks and such and then we go back to my place and show the neighbors my apartment. After than we're hanging out and I'm having a fun convo with this girl and me and her went back to my place and cuddles and made out for a bit then had sex and went to sleep.

the next morning I woke up while she was still asleep and made some food. She woke up and we're eating and watching funny video's on youtube and laughing and joking the whole time. Then she was playing video games with me.

We both took a shower together and had sex in the shower and then afterwards we went to belle isle and walked around exploring for a bit just laughing and telling jokes and then she went home.

Nothing extremely wild happened. Just me hanging out with a really cool girl who's fun to talk to and easy to get along with. I had a lot of fun that day.



her: That sounds...normal. LOL That isn't wild at all...I thought you were going to have an orgy or something...or say you had sex with a chick and her mom LOL

That sounds chill...like something I would want to do with someone. But like I want that without the commitment...I am like sort of anti-commitment lately. Probably because I want to get out of here...I want to move somewhere else. I hate it here...I feel like I don't belong. I need to go somewhere where I can fit in a little easier because I never want to fit in. I wasn't made to fit in.

I am safe with sex but I have been celibate for about 2 1/2 months...and I am trying to avoid spending time with men at all costs because I am tempted to give in...at first I was celibate because of lack of available penis then it became a choice lol


Me: Oh, Well, that wasn't really the craziest thing I've done. Just a day I had that was really fun. Lol.

That's cool you're not trying to settle down. I know the feeling, not fitting in. I'm kinda weird myself, if you couldn't tell from my profile.

Where do you want to move to?

btw, here's my number, you seem pretty cool.
216-XXX-XXXX

Maybe we'll hang out sometime and chill watching movies or funny youtube videos.


her: DC and sure...my number 313-XXX-XXXX and my name is Lauren. What's yours?

And yes, us weirdos have to stick together


me: And maybe shower together
I'm Nick

Her: Hahaha...anything's possible I guess lol

Me: I like surprises. Like mysterious texts.

her: Is that supposed to be a hint? LOL Be a man...lol

Me: Take the initiative. I like that

her: I don't...it ends horribly for me. So with that, goodnight Nick!


So, then I texted her shortly after that saying; Hello, Lauren.
her: Hey there, Nick
Me: I figure, I know the feeling, things not always working out when you make the first move. But one of us had to say hello. ~~~~~more bitter hinting that shit's just as bad for guys as it is for girls~~~~

her: Yes and currently I am in a semi talking situation where I feel like I do the bulk of the whatever...asking to hang, etc so i'm over it. LOL I just want reciprocity

me: Ah. Lol. Yeah. You don't want a relationship and want something less serious. And you're into me. Same here. are you free tomorrow or thursday?

Her: No I'm not free thursday and I wont be free tomorrow util late... And I'm not coming over so don't ask that lol. Who said I was into you I barely know you lol.

~~~~yup... not looking to play any fucking games at this point and she's mostly just a guinea pig anyway. So I say~~~~~~
me: See what I mean about honesty
Her: Yep I'll give you all the honesty you can handle and more
me: You can say things to test and see what kind guy i am and play games. Or you could stop being coy and hang out. If you weren't interested you wouldn't've given me your number. Just saying, I'm not looking to play games.

Her: Hold up...yes I'm interesting but I'm just setting boundaries and believe it or not, I have a life. I am volunteering tomorrow as well as I have an interview...I have no reason to lie to you. If you wanna hang then yes you have to respect the fact that I have shit that I do and that shit falls and Wednesdays and thursdays... I didn't say never or not this week I just said those two days.

I babysit my niece Thursday evenings and I volunteer/work during the day. If you can't respect my schedule than you can go.

Me: I was referring to when you said "What makes you think I'm interested. I just met you." I work forty hours a week and only have tuesday to thursday off. I get that much. Most people aren't always free.

her: Ok. I said and I quote "who said I was into you I barely know you lol" I wasn't serious and I never said I was not interested. Clearly I'm interested... Being interested and liking someone are two different things in my book I'm just putting that out there.

me: I know. Where do you volunteer at?

I know. Interested/attracted to mean someone likes the surface enough to want to see more. They are drawn, or attracted, to something or someone.

her: blah blah blah and blah law line (CALL) so it's like a job but I don't get paid for doing it. I also have an interview with a temp agency in the morning.

Precisely. So being into you would imply more than surface...that's all I was saying. That's it. No where in there did I say I was not interested.

Me: Is that like a suicide hotline thing.

only for law.

her: No it's like a front door to legal aid.. people call in with a variety of legal issues and we blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

Me; What got you into that?

Her: Old bosses did it and it's great knowledge and blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
And FYI I'm guarded... I've never been good at this game playing which is why I'm single. Guarded is different than game playing.

me: Most girls are guarded. It's rather frustrating actually. I've had my share of heart break but the pressure is on men to make the first move and most girls... well most people are on guard. So it's tough out there to simply say hello. I assume you wanted to get into law to help people.

her: I don't mind it's just blah blah blah blah blah. And whatevs man I'm an introvert so I blame it on that lol. And yes you are correct. That's why I got into law... and if don't use this knowledge for that then I don't wanna be a lawyer seriously.

me: Introver. are you familiar with carl jung? The psychologist who created the term. Or mbti?

her: Yeah I took that myers briggs test I'm like an injf I think... I can't remember lol
~~~~note, it would be INFJ, not INJF~~~~~
what's mbti?
oh never mind lol

me: I was about to say myers briggs type indicator. The name of the test. Lol. I'm an INTJ. Like SPAM!

her: that personality type... and here I am lol.

I might be that one lol I took that test like my 2nd year of undergrad and I don't remember much aside from it saying law was an ideal career path for blah blah blah blah balh


I'm done writing this out. I'll write more later. But it's good I have somethign to evaluate and look at for reference.

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At work one day a pizza Randomly disappeared while I was working with said manager who asked me, rather accusingly, if I knew where it was. I just said no and that I have no idea figuring it's nothing I should care nor worry about since my job has Camera's in it and I didn't take said Pizza [let alone even touch it].

So, today while working with the same fucking manager another pizza goes missing and he asks me, again accusingly, if I knew where it went and pointed out that it's the 2nd time he's worked with me and a pizza went missing. I'm thinking the same thing, it's the 2nd time I worked with him, who doesn't seem to like me in the first place, and a pizza went missing. So I say "I'm sure they checked the camera's last time."

and it all reminds me of when I used to work at Toys R Us. The first time [and ONLY time] in my life my register came up short. It was $50 short while working with Shawn as manager. Shawn didn't like me. Coincidentally he didn't like any of the workers who had a bad case of too much melanin in their skin. I'm not saying he was racist... Just that I noticed he didn't like any of the black workers there at Toys R Us. Every night at the end of work we'd count our drawers and turn them in to the manager working who would recount them as we went home. If the drawer was short we heard about it the next time we worked.

My Drawer was short EVERY time I worked with Shawn. But ONLY when I worked with him. So, I fucking quit. On black Friday. After making an announcement on the overhead that all PS2's were 90% off for the next hour. While Shawn was the manager. I left and started work at T.G.I.Fridays.

But, fucking, whatever. Economy ain't what it used to be... Shit's still pissing me the fuck off.

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I had the exact same problem when i was working as a waiter at a restaurant. I don't know what it was all about, but every night my drawer was 2-5 euros short. And i kept tabs. It actually is pretty much (times 15-20 days, so in a month it is a lot). Finally i told him off and quit. No point in letting yourself be skimmed and pressured like that. This can actually help you with amog mentality as well. Don't let anyone sit on you.

And, don't dwell on it. It's in the past. You don't need it, now you've got a better job.

I never give a fuck about being the AMOG. I just know that growing up there was never anyone there looking out for me. Now a days there's no one looking out for me. There generally isn't anyone looking out for me. So I have to look out for me and I don't take people's fucking bull shit.

I don't have a desire to be the leader of the group. I have no desire to be a follower either. If something interesting is going on I'll check it out and all and follow the lead of whomever is showing where all the cool shit's going down. But once I get bored I'm gone and off to do my own thing. Once someone tries to take advantage of me I strike back and tell them to fuck the fuck off.

People who're trying really hard to be an AMOG tend to disgust me and we rarely get along. Cause they're not real or down to earth. They're fake pieces of shit who just wanna be in control all the time at the expense of controlling others and that sickens me. Subservient people are a bit sickening too but I realize they just don't know any better most of the time and will try to help them out.

But the worst of the worst is someone who's got no backbone that you helped out who turns around once they have it and try and stab you in the back and get one over on you. They're disloyal pieces of shit.

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I think you got a bit of a wrong idea of what i was trying to say. Basically you can call it whatever you like but what i meant with amog mentality is that it is important to be confident and not let anyone sit on you. Maybe i used the term a bit misleadingly, sorry about it then.

It's not about being the leader or "the controller", or pretend to be some pumped up muscle. It's about being confident and letting people know what you think. Don't like something, say it out and act on it.

No need to get all aggressive on it.

Cheers,

I was rather drunk last night and a tad bit angry about life in general. A lot of things happened that made me think of the past and how horrible life has been.

But that's pretty much how I am all the time anyway. I don't take people's shit and I do what I want. Though there are times when this isn't a good thing.

I used to just try and compromise with people and noticed a lot of people see someone who's trying to compromise as weak and they try to step all over you just for doing so. So these days I'm rather cold and distant when it comes to what others want and how they feel, cause in my experience no one ever really cared about me unless I had something they wanted. And it makes me feel like they don't actually care or give a shit about me at all as much as they notice I have something they want and they feel it's in their best interest to be nice to me.


and as I learn more and more about human nature and this whole dating and relating shit I start to feel like no one actually gives a fuck about anyone other than them self. As if the only reason someone is nice is because of a business deal sorta logic. The person they're being nice to has something they want. It's disturbing to me that the world seems to run like this. I makes me feel depressed knowing that a girl will never actually like me for me. She won't bother to talk to me unless I display I have whatever the fuck it is she wants in the first place.

the more I think about it the more depressed I feel and the less I want to talk to anyone or be a part of this world. And when I go out and see it all in action and have it confirmed that girls really are an unloyal superficial bunch I feel even worse. Like I don't want that sort've person in my life.

I think it's real fucked up that a girl will push you away and out of her life if you ever feel even remotely insecure and unconfident about yourself. That your personality doesn't matter as much as how you present yourself. It all sickens me and I grow to despise women and people in general more and more each day.


The person I am doesn't seem to belong in the world I live in.

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Maybe your looking in all the wrong places. I have friends who see the world somewhat similar to as you describe. But I know there are good people out there, there always have. There are also bad people though.

I promise you there are people that make your days brighter, your life more exciting and enjoy having a good time overall. Have you tried regular daygame? Thats usually the best place to find normal easy, fun loving people.

Now the whole prey on the weak concept....It is human nature sure, but thats why we have sites like these so we can learn how to communicate without having to resort to these kind of social pits. There is always that book how to win friends and influence people. It's free go download it!

I hate to say it, but you have serious issues. You have some great aspects to you, but you REALLY need to make a huge turn around. In terms of attitude, your emotional well being and direction in life. You have a lot to work on man. Focus on these issues. The happy thing you were doing before was really good..Keep in that direction of self improvement

I wish all the best man, you fucking got this..Don't let life get you down

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I know I'm crazy. And to an extent I even know the cause of it all.
However I've yet to find the cure.
At this point I feel like the only thing that actually matters if independent happiness.

However I'm not entirely sure how to get that. I understand the concept [mostly cause it's one I came around to myself]. That if a person is happy without relying on any external source for their happiness they really don't need any thing else in life. As long as external sources can't influence their happiness and it's internal that creates all the happiness what else do you need?

I just don't know how to get there yet. And so, I no longer feel I should be focusing on picking up chicks at all. Or field reports, or anything of that nature as much as focusing on how I feel and how to be happy instead. And not letting anything external influence my moods.


One thing I noticed is that when I listen to music I like it makes me happier. I shouldn't have to listen to music I like, I should be able to be in a room with nothing going on or at work with irritating people and still be happy.

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fuck.... I was writing earlier and... well, whatever.

Today is thursday.
Tuesday I biked 16 miles to hang out with this chick, Chelsea. We sat around and talk a lot about random stuff, but I never actually touched her. Then we went for a walk and I was helping her find a job and we went to some sushi place. She was broke so I got her some sushi there. And we're waiting for her ride home to show up and when ti comes she gave me a hug and I wasn't sure if I should kiss her or not. I didn't. Then I went home.

I'm not exactly sure how that went, but she said she wanted to hang out again.... and it's nto entirely fresh in my head everything we talked about.


Then there's Amy.... fucking Amy. She wants to come up and spend the night on Saturday and go to some show that's in Detroit. I don't think I'm going to have sex with her at all.... Non the less I said she can stay over.

And I've been playing video games and such and focusing on being happy.

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-Aceospades12