08/03/13
Turning the Screw
Life has a tendency towards an internal chaos which can explode on a person. Life can be fruitful and exciting if a person takes it by the reigns, but unmercifully complex if a person has good intentions but a slack grip on the steering. For the last two weeks I have been working hard academically, and playing hard in clubs. My club game is now at a point of comfort wherein I can create sexual tension with most girls –I am still working on forming a good mechanism for opening, but I’ve now escalated twice and gotten kiss closes. Upon reflection against the goals set December ’12, I have achieved the targets of opening 10 girls a night and getting a kiss! This is a source of much pleasure to me and has contributed to a more concrete inner game which I have been building.
I have been doing club game exclusively for the last two weeks. Nothing in the day, and nothing in bars. Whilst my club game has strengthened, the rest of the picture has become more dull and grey. Notwithstanding, there is still a very interesting thing that has occurred. Despite this fact, my inner game has truly gone up a notch. I will illustrate with an example: this time last year, I had to give a presentation for a class, and had to get drunk to be able to do it. It was an experience that was shackled with nerves and felt quite bad. I just wasn’t a confident guy, I just couldn’t do it. My entire academic year was spent like this, and it sucked. This year, I’m a new man. I gave a presentation last week, I was confident, comfortable, and performed well. I answered all the questions for my group (of 4), and all of them came up to me at the end to shake my hand and tell me I was brilliant! One of them texted me to specifically say how well I answered all the questions given the grilling they gave us. I was rather proud of this. I’m also on the board of a large business related student-led group now. I felt amazing sitting in the meeting with the rest of the board and discussing the running of the charity. I cannot believe I have come this far. My heart was broken first year when I couldn’t’ do these sorts of things due to lack of confidence. Life has been so kind to me for allowing me to develop myself. I have been given a second chance at a young age, and I can now create the reality I want to live in. Jackal truly has re-built me.
Jackal is a man I respect, and I am proud to call him a friend and a mentor. I was lucky to be able to meet up with him this week socially, just to catch up. No real pick up was done on this day, we just talked. I shared my worries and apprehensions with regard to my recent quietude on the day & bar game front, but Jackal tells me the morphogenetic cycle of PUAs, the peaks and troughs, the off-periods are just normal. He likens it to working out at the gym – you take days off, expect to be punished for it. But no matter how hard you try, there will be days when the iron feels heavier than it should. Jackal tells me what I’m going through is normal. I immediately feel at ease. Jackal also showed me some of his stand-up…I was fucking impressed. His ability to be perform was first rate. This is a man who studiously engages with social-psychology and observes with a masterful eye from all angles, and the end result is a pleasure to see. I tell Jackal I want him to keep doing what he’s doing. He says he has not done a gig for some time, so I feel the need to encourage him, but I am not worried at the moment as he is doing the right thing in taking up the gig he’s about to do. Jackal taught for some time today also, he taught me practical theory on pattern interrupts and their usage for dealing with stressful or emotionally charged scenarios.
Fast forward to Friday. Pimping night. We roll up to our usual spot. Jackal is in set with Dave, who I’ve not met before. I stand around for a while.
I feel appalling. I want to go home. I look around at the women, and I do not fancy any of them. I do not want to be here. I do not want to do this. I don’t feel good.
A few minutes pass of me aimlessly standing there. Jackal materialises, and he begins to put me under his spell. I begin warming up, I open sets, straight up sit down which was an interesting thing Jackal made me do tonight (did it twice, worked both times) and had a great deal of fun. I am now warm and feeling good! It was great to meet other PUAs, met Joe and Dave tonight, Dolphin appeared later and was cool to touch base with him. We progressed to the next place. Jackal had me stop three girls in the street and kiss them all on the cheek. Done with ease. One of them asked me if it was for a bet afterwards, and said I should have just told them cause they would have let me do it straight away! Such a nice compliment. Opened set after set in new venue again. Dave winged me for one set, and it was such a fucking pleasure to be winged by a real PUA. We opened a two set and spoke to a girl each, my girl wasn’t really hooking, so Dave swapped us around! He did it masterfully, he kinda walked around behind me and physically moved my girl to him, and put the other girl in my space. It was all done so naturally and fluidly. I was impressed and also appreciated that he winged me! Now I’m talking to a hot girl…Interaction is going amazing, IOIs, lots of eye contact (Note: I learned this recently. It’s a fucking game winner) and this girl was very interesting. After some intense eye contact and putting our bodies real close to one another, it got really quite heated. We were looking into each other’s eyes longingly and she looked at my lips, then at my eyes, and then again at my lips a few times. She wanted me to kiss her! First time I’ve got this lol. So, I knew a kiss close was on. Continued the interaction with my dress sense story:
Me: (story about gay guys hitting on me etc etc)
Her: (in response to me saying I’m not gay, and said while high sexual tension) Prove it.
Me: (Go for k-close!)
Her: (moves off and giggles)
No dice! But we kept talking right after this happened. After a few minutes, the girls say they need to go on, but the girl I was talking to said she wants to see me later on in the night. Interesting….Hah

I had a fucking hardon during this set. The sexual tension grew too high between us, which is why the kiss closed failed. I went in a bit slow too, you can’t let em think about it – Jackal says do it while they’re talking! Jackal explained the concept of Push/Pull to me. You must push to create tension, and they pull away to demonstrate higher value and increase your chances of success. I was pushing and pushing and got us both hot under the collar, but given I did not pull, it did not work in this case. Happy that I do now go for the kiss close! I remember a time when that was impossible haha! I am glad to have properly learned about Push/Pull anyway, it clicked tonight.
So it’s now me and Dave, we’re zipping around, opening sets her and there. Dave is a cool guy and I like his company, so it’s a pleasure to spend time with him. We continue opening sets, and then we bounce to a new bar. As expected, many sets were opened here. I got a lot of IOIs, one group of girls were discussing how to open me, they commented on my cheek bones lol. I went outside for a while, and they came over. However, I was on my way out – I heard one of them say ‘oh no he’s finished’ in reference to the fact they thought I was smoking. I’m used to getting female attention now but it’s fucking bullcrap. My approach to it now is to ride it and just be holistic about it, if I want to approach, I can, but I also want to experiment and find the girl who will open me from it. This way I can find a girl with real confidence.
ANYWAY, me and Jackal convene outside. He inspires me with his heroics tonight, and I’m told to open two more sets before I can leave, as I have to write an essay tonight. Opened both sets and stayed in there for as long as I wanted, both sets were pretty girls who were cool as hell. Asked me lots of questions, and were really pleased to meet me. Interestingly, upon asking for my age (to which I made them guess) these girls thought I was 18 lol! I’m 21, but I was quite flattered because before I lost weight girls used to think I was in my thirties…Also, concerning where I’m from, all girls guessed at my being from Oxford or Cambridge. Last year, people used to think I was from Bolton or other such places. No disrespect to Bolton and the North, my SPAM is a Leeds man and is basically a legend, but I find it quite unbelievable that my voice has changed so much.
I’m happy to be back on the horse.
I am only a student PUA, I’m not the real deal yet. I will openly admit, that right now, if it was not for Jackal, I could not do this right now. I couldn’t. In a different life, had the man’s story been somewhat altered and another path been chosen for him, this man would be a professional PUA and teacher, and probably one of the best in the UK. I am very confident in this statement, and anyone who doubts it should spent one night with Jackal. The enthusiasm, passion, energy, drive, desire to see his students do well, constructive and well-thought-out encouragement, professional and confidence-inspiring leadership – the man really does have the full package. He does what he does for free, I want to use this post to thank him. Tonight made very clear that Jackal is a Stallion among mere foals. With him in my life, I believe I really can succeed in my career and personal life.
‘To me one man is worth ten thousand if he is first-rate’ – Heraclitus
Enroute back home, given I left at 11 to write an essay, I walked through one of the bars we were at previous. The girl I tried to kiss close saw me, and her friend shouted out for me. I ignored and walked on. I do this a lot, I punish girls for missing their chance with me. I suppose I do this due to the fact that I put a lot of work into myself, I am hard working, academic, studious, and without sounding arrogant, am told my dress sense is great…physical appearance seems to allow me to get by too. I truly consider myself high quality, and I believe girls know this, I wouldn't get IOIs daily if it was not for this, hence, I am always willing to weed out the weak. I don’t need you. I am truly progressing with escalation and am becoming more outwardly sexual, a girl kissed me on the cheek in the library today which was totes random...lol.
Peace & Love,
R
NOTES:
*OBEY THE LAW OF PUSH/PULL.