Hey guys - long time eh?
A hell of a lot has happened with this girl since I was last on here..
My last post was what? September 19th? Crazy. Hope you all had a good holiday and what-not.
So.. Where do I start? September 19th I was in a bit of a situation about everything with this girl.. but I shook off any of that doubt by getting with her again later that same week
Everything was going great for a while! We were seeing each-other on and off and I was in an extremely happy place. We even went away together for a weekend in November.. which was brilliant. Little did I know the day I got back I was told "you know she's been fucking (enter name here) for the past month right?"... wow.
It all went to shit. Me and her fell out, I confessed that I liked her.. she said that she HAD liked me but I never showed enough interest etc.. such a load of bollocks. I really got played like a fool with this girl.. overall I spent like £250 on her, which is like $280 to you US folk. I even got her a birthday present. Me and her really fell out.. we didn't stop talking, but we stopped everything we did that made us close. Which was really gutting for me.. It fucked me up real-good.
Then we get to the new year - I had a great night New Year's Eve out with mates.. but woke up to "(enter name) is in a relationship with (guy she'd been fucking behind my back)". I was absolutely gutted. I sent her the worst text I could possibly imagine sending to ANYONE ever. It was soul-destroying.. literally - I threw everything I had at her.. just lost it completely. She never replied.
Then it all stopped. For a month exactly we never said a word, it was awkward as hell at work... I gave her dirty looks constantly, until one evening she text me.. it said how she missed me and how we needed to sort it all out. I guess you could say I gave in.. We met up to talk and she must have cried the whole time.. it was pretty painful.. she denied everything, she said she hadn't been fucking this guy for a month whilst she was seeing me and that she only started things with him once she had stopped with me. Bullshit.
Right now? We're still talking. She's still with this guy. I still want her (like the fool I am). And I'm going to dinner with her in a few nights... I'm not really sure what I'm doing anymore. This girl has a boyfriend yet I'm still meeting her.. she's still flirting with me and trying to impress me.. Who knows?
Sorry for the long post.. it should really be longer as there is SO MUCH more happened, but I wanted to keep it as short as I could. So yeah - she screwed me over pretty good. You guys were totally right - I built her up far too much. And she's still built up now... I just can't seem to get over it!