| She moved 6 months ago which broke up her 2 years relationship with her 21 years old boyfriend (she is 17 and i am 20). While we hang out, each time we talk about sex, she was saying how much it drives her nuts, when she gets horny and she misses making love with somebody (happened lots of times).
I asked her multiple times to be together but most of the times she said LJBF and see where it goes. I did so much for this girl, which i know its a AFC move, but i can't help it, i love her too much.
The other day, i was telling her how much i care for her, and she said that i did so many things for her that only a best friend or a boyfriend would do, and its what brought her closer to me. I feel each time she is implying that because i help her she loves me, and of course how much happier is gonna make her if a do certain things for her.
I asked her if she has feelings for me like a friend or more than a friend, and she said more than a friend, but she told me she loves 2 guys in the same time, me and her ex.
Yesterday we were supposed both to go to my work Xmas party (her job also from January) which made her really excited, but then my boss said that she can't come, she has to work from before. I told her that I am not gonna go, just hang out with her, and she was saying that is not gonna come because i wanted this party so much ( which was true) and she doesn't want me to miss the fun because of her. I told her, the party is not gonna mean anything for me is she is not there, she kept saying no, and felt like begging for her to go out with me that night. I got pissed and asked her if she loves me that much that she is gonna be my girlfriend and she said yes. After that i said i am not gonna attend the party at all, and is she wants to meet with me I am gonna w8 for her call (wanted to prove her how much i care for her, not sure if i did the right thing), which she started laughing and called me crazy.
We ended up going to a movie, and of course because i am an AFC and never had a girlfriend i had no idea what to do. I figured out i will kiss her during the movie, which i couldn't get myself together to do it. When we got in the car i asked her if she ever had a 3D kiss before (we had the 3d gases one, and i know its kinda lame), then i told her to get closer, which made her back up and started smocking. I w8ted for her to give me a kiss for about 10 sec, then she blew smoke in my face ( the "you aint gonna get shit" move, and she knows i hate smoke). At her house i was like i am gonna do this shit, she hug me, kissed me on the chick and when she was about to leave i asked her for a good night kiss. The first thing she said was if i had gum ( did not pay attention to what she said), i asked again for the kiss, and she told me "Next time when u have gum". After that she left and started asking myself wtf just happened, was my breath smelling, was her's or was just so that she won't have to kiss me.
After what happened last night i don't know what to think about her, don't believe she love me that much, I think its a need for her to feel loved and eventually somebody to have sex with her when she is horny. I am pretty much her only friend and it feels like she has to give something so i don't leave, which she is not gonna get attention, love and eventually somebody to calm her sex drive.
Just because she was in a relationship for 2 years it makes me feel that she is so experienced and i am not at all. This makes me feel like shit sometimes, i keep thinking that i am not good enough for her and can't please her the way she was used to. Was thinking to ask her to help me a little bit by initiating things ( which i know its lame), and also give me some tips, but then i am afraid she is gonna see me even lower. I don't know how to deal with this relationship (don't even know if its at all a relationship), i need help how to handle it and make her really want me.
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