Called her last night.
We had a laugh on the phone...good vibe. I asked her what she was doing sunday, before I could arrange something she said she might be coming along to the rave for a while now after all, but is still out with her girlfriends who want to go elsewhere.
So...I sort of let sunday slide
This was our conversation via text after the phone calll
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Me: God damn you. Sexual ideals keeping me awake. You are a pest
Her: I suppose your sexual ideals would be actually having sex and not just yknow...think about it:?
Me: Ofcourse. You dont think about getting a wash do you? You get on in the shower
Her: Just try think of other stuff then *******. Like...your dad's facebook (we'd laughed about it the other day...him getting facebook)
Me: I'll do my best but my mind is wandering.
Her: I thought you liked sex dreams? Isnt this exactly the frame of mind you hoped for?
Me: Ha. And the real thing is fun. What is your favourite position? (**Dont think I should have said that :S in hindsight...what do you guys think?)
Her: Striker (referring to the soccer position... IOD?)
Me: haha. I smiled. see you soon
Her: Sure xxx
I really wish I cared less at times. How am I doing based on those texts/the call/ the texts that followed the call?[/b]
Stupid fucking anxiety over this situation...I've k-closed her 6 or 7 times...shes held my hand at a gig... shes been zaney and said her friends brother said were a 'good looking couple' (despite me never asking her out).... I really wont handle this well if I screw up and get put into that F zone.