My 3 month Journal

This pick-up journal will hopefully go for 3 months, with my dreams for this time in my life:

- As respectfully as possible meet and pickup a large quantity of quality girls. In doing this, remember that its not the end result, but what I learn from trying that will help me improve. And fuck it, I want to try and get a lot. Thats mainly what im in this for at this stage in my life. That would be my dream, so whats to hold me back but myself.

- Start day gaming more. (predominantly my success has come from bars at night and SNL's or facebook gaming friends of friends who I flirt with online and eventually meet up and have sex with) My dream is to be able to see a woman anywhere, and have the confidence to approach her and organise some form of second contact whether it be phone, email, facebook or a day 2. I will only live once. So why not start doing it the way I always dreamed of.

In all honesty, where Im at in my life right now, I just want lots of sex. Ive decided im not in a position to be in a relationship as I am 21 years old and I have a round the world plane ticket March 2012 for 6 months, so there is no point committing to one girl now.

Im currently in love with a girl from Germany who I will see when I travel, but we arent dating because of the distance which in one way breaks my heart, but in the other makes me so happy to make the most of the freedom I have while I still can. At least I know when I get over the whole repetition of meaningless sex there is a girl I truly want out there for me. (yes probably fucking around aswell, but I wont have double standards)

Im hoping chief will give me some guidance so Ill be trying to update it a couple of times a week with whats new.

Also Ive got an apocalypse opener blog going here too, but that will sort of exist in a separate identity as theres not really any advice one can give to that.

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Good luck!

Day 1

Ive always loved night game, where I go out and get drunk and meet girls, and take one home. But my day game is lacking. Ive been out of pickup for about 3 months where Ive only focused on my girl from Germany. However now that im only just getting the ball rolling again, I feel like I need to work my way up again.
Today I was at the gym, which has a big glass window overlooking a sunny park. I was lifting weights when I saw a nice girl sit down on the grass outside by herself.

OK im going to approach this girl when Im done in here.

I worked out for another 10 minutes the whole time thinking of what to open with. It was ridiculous. I went through the scenario in my head (where it worked great). This was some aggressive mental masturbation and it wasnt doing me any favours. ^ this is something I need to get rid of starting now.

I finished in the gym and wanted to go over to talk. I stood there for 1 minute. My opener was going to be "hey is there any ants around here that will bite me if I sit down?" But truth was I didnt really want to sit down. so it didnt feel right and I pussied out. damn man. (Ive been out of the game for about 3 months, but had I really gone back this far?)

Fuck, so I couldnt man up enough to open this girl. I was shattered. So I went and brought a protein shake and thought to myself: OK so now i actually did need somewhere to sit down and drink. Perfect now I can open her how I planned and it will be real. Theres no hidden intentions or fake opener, I simply want to sit down and drink and say hi to her in doing so. I walked back over there with purpose!

And I did it She was a bit reclusive in the small but short conversation, but that was fine, I had done what I told myself I had come to do. (this is still mental masturbation as its only the first step, nothing to boast about, but it was a start)

I feel like I just overcame a massive inner demon. Like I was given a big sword and slayed that motherfucker. the sword was my desire to succeed in reaching my dreams. On the whole walk back home I was looking for more girls to open because I felt fearless now. I said Hi to another. thats all though. cool. Progress is being made.

I learnt: right now when day gaming, AA is still around me. But I am able to get the better of it. I never thought Id have to make a post about simply opening a girl! lmao but here I am. and im on the way up

Quick Update - New logistics
OK so today Im moving back home with my parents (im 21) for the next 3 months, to work and save money for overseas.

Attractive lifestyle
This will mean reuniting with old friends,
Joining a new gym,
Improving my looks - I threw out lots of old clothes for the move, and did some online shopping for some new gear. (I will try upload a picture here soon of my look and style)
And begin finding a whole new network of different girls to meet.

So I feel like the new chapter begins today with no more interruptions. And Im starting from scratch on a clean, new slate.

Refreshing with old material
In the meantime Ive just been reading lots of material and pick up books, and get a real sense of excitement that Im preparing myself well. 60YOC, shock and awe, and chiefs outgame guide mainly. Im not sure If I need much more at this stage because I dont want to overcomplicate things. I want to stay as natural as I can and rely on improvement mainly from practice, not theory.

What Ive learned
Its important I make my lifestyle attractive first, before I can expect girls to be attracted to it.

Manage expectations - Tell her what Im looking for, or tell her what Im not looking for - not a relationship.

And to always leave her better than I found her.

While this may be true in a general sense, in practice it's unwise to hold something off just because you feel like you haven't yet fully met what you perceive to be the prerequisites for it. Just make sure you don't let yourself use this as an excuse to not approach girls and shit.

Day 2 - Flight Pickup
Ich Spreche deutsch

Seat next to a hot girl
I actually planned to read pickup material on the flight. But as fate would have it I was seated next to a hot girl!! That put reading material out the window, but what a blessing in disguise! now I could actually practice it instead. And like Chief mentioned above (I dont have to put off shit just because I dont feel Ive met the prerequsities) Like in this example. I wasnt finished reading the pick up book, but that should never stop me from talking to the girl.

My first reaction is ok cool, but then once I sat down and didnt say anything I sorta thought... oh fuck Im gonna either pretend im busy and not talk to this girl, or have to make small talk for 2 hours (I hate small talk)

But both were wrong.

I did a bit of a cold read on her and knew she had to be a backpacker. Well great, because I LOVE travelling. I waited for the host to ask us for our meal orders about 10 minutes in to the flight to hear her accent. It was european but I couldnt recognise it exactly. Bingo, had my opener! Hey, so I noticed your shoes arent something most girls wear here and then your accent just then! so where are you from?" She was from Austria! Und ich spreche kleine deutsch!!!

So for the next 2 hours of the flight she taught me to speak deutsch, we talked about travelling and shared experiences, and we made plans of what we should do this week and ill show her around the city! And it wasnt small talk! It was very interesting and fun!!

So once the flight landed we got our luggage and swapped numbers (My mum who was picking me up saw this haha)

Baby steps on the compliance ladder
It was also the first time I consciously used the compliance ladder. obviously I could only climb as high as a #close because of logistics, but I had asked her to watch my luggage, pass me the headphones, previously. finally I put my phone in her hand and said whats your digits and that id call her about a date to show her around.

Some sticking points
Once again I found myself contemplating whether to even open or not. And it turns out it was one of the funnest conversations Ive had with a girl in ages. And to think I would have missed this if I didnt open...... Ill now use this as inspiration to not pussy out of opening.

I didnt do as much as usual to escalate the vibe. I did pull off some nice teasing that got her laughing, but overall it was leaning on the friendly side of conversation. Sure, this could be great to set up a more likely day 2, although I would be required to step up the sexual state to make sex more likely.

I learned
Dont try to avoid conversations. Just dont.

Find interesting topics and its actually really fun!

Saw an Old Flame
gave a warm feeling

I was at the shops today and saw a girl I used to have a fling with, with her new boyfriend.

Me and this girl had really clicked, the sex was great and we had spent a couple of great nights together getting to know eachother well, where she would stay over my house.

But we had a fairly abrupt end, where I told her I wouldnt see her anymore because when I moved away for a few weeks while we were still in the lustful stage she told me she slept with another guy (her new boyfriend) so I told her she can have him and I wasnt interested anymore. This left us with some unresolved emotions. My hope of purity & affection had been ruined lol, so I gave up pursuit. We broke contact until one night when I was drunk 2 months ago I had tried to add her on facebook but she declined it lol. I got the impression that out of all of this she thought I was the dick because I told her first to stop talking. Of course.

We hadnt spoken since then, but today was a nice feeling where we both smiled at eachother and waved as we caught eachothers eye. Like we had an understanding for eachother. I miss her but Im happy for her and I could tell she felt the same. We did this without her boyfriend noticing which was well executed. I didnt feel the need to go and talk to her. The eye contact we made said more than any words couldve. Just from this I think I got to show her Im not a dick like she would have thought, Im actually the nice person she first met.

I wont pursue this. If she feels like she wants to contact me again Id be happy to be friends but as long as she has a boyfriend it probably wont happen - its too much of a risk to her relationship. I get the feeling when she breaks up with him Ill be the one she goes to, but if that's the case I wont let her have everything she wants.

What I took from it
The chance for nice moments like this would never happen if you stay at home all day so its important to get out.

If you can handle yourself maturely, politely and respectfully around old flames you get a nice feeling from it.

Drunk Game
Relentless Opening

Last night was my first night out with my friends. I opened alot of sets. My friends all watched me in respect as I went up to an older family with a hot daughter, a mother and daughter set, and a group of 6 women aged 26. All at a local beach bar. It was a fun night. I couldve got laid but didnt.

0 approach anxiety
I learned alot about myself. I have 0 AA when Im drunk. I mean 0. I just open relentlessly and I feel like im in the zone and im fearless. I escalate like its 2nd nature and am yet to have any resistance from girls. I think its a few reasons.

- I am completely comfortable running a 60YOC style game that I adapted to suit me, along with 3 or so years of experience on what works and what doesnt at night in a bar, because it just feels right in that setting and this is where I have all my experience.
-Alcohol takes away any of those pre opener doubts I had been getting and just makes shit more fun, honestly. I love my beer and I can control myself when I drink.
-At night in a bar, it is expected that guys and girls approach and talk to each other. It is expected that people will get hit on. Girls are drunk and looking to get laid. So are guys.

The issue is my inconsistency between night and day game, where night is extremely direct and its working, and day is very indirect and its not working.

The Low Down
The hot girl (HB7.9) who was with her family, I got her number. Shes in town for the next week. Her family loved me too and got photos of me and her singing karaoke together. After she left with her family I texted her saying I thought she was attractive and I wanted her to come back to mine. She said she couldn't because her family was there, but she wants to a night this week. I honestly dont know if Ill pursue it.

Once I went home, about midnight.. I got a text from another drunk girl I had been texting, telling me to come see her for drunk sex. But in a less upfront message. It woulda cost me about $25 in a taxi to go there so I turned her down. She didnt have enough to get to mine either. lol.

Questions moving on
Does it matter that theres a difference between my night and day? How am I going to improve my day game so I can start being like I was last night, ALL THE TIME.

I had a chance for sex but didnt take it. I have another chance this week but dont know if Ill do it... why not? I thought this was my dream? so is it really or not? I think Im beginning to realise more, before Ive even been laid once in this journal, that maybe this isnt for me. But if this can take me to realising where my happiness truly lies, then great. Im all for it. Or maybe its because I haven't been laid in a while that I just forget what Im missing out on.

Why did I actually want lots of sex to begin? I hope to find this answer after/during my first lay. I think I just need reminding.

I liked having sex with meaning and purpose with emotions. The whole idea of easy sex for a number (that I could have got) isnt that appealing to me at the moment..
I know I just gotta try plough through this I guess ill text that girl tomorrow

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I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly, and all those who look down on me I'm tearin down your balcony, no if ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he

I don't know if anyone's told you this yet, but DO NOT DRINK AND GAME.

Alcohol has a lot worse long term downsides to your game than it does the short term benefits. If you start realizing things like "alcohol lets me open relentlessly," that's a bad thing because you actually end up getting WORSE when you DON'T drink. It's one of those comfort zone things.

Drink to have fun, but don't mix it with your progress in pickup.

I have heard it, but I thought it wouldnt do much harm to do it once a week, but I already see the difference in comfort & mindsets I have created for the two.

This week ill make sure I go out and open more sets to make up for the difference

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I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly, and all those who look down on me I'm tearin down your balcony, no if ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he

So just a little over a week of starting my journal I have my first date tomorrow! =)

Im taking a girl to the bungee jump. Shes jumping, not me haha I'm too scared. Sounds like its gonna be fun!

I dont think this will be ending in sex but I wont rule any possibility out - Itll be just good to get to know eachother.

Goals
I just want to make it a fun date and keep it flirty so that she will want to have a 2nd date which I can arrange at a 'more likely to get laid location'

Ill suggest something else we can do another day while on this first date. Thats if I like her =)

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I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly, and all those who look down on me I'm tearin down your balcony, no if ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he

Oh man Im REALLY happy I read this post by the chief man himself
ego-problems-fucking-read-this-vt30361.html

and one by stormy

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Im gonna fess up. My ego wants lots of sex. My ego NEEDS approval. It NEEDS people to like me. It NEEDS sex.

I want it for other reasons too. But right now ive noticed, not as badly as my ego.

Become the best man you could possibly be while humbling yourself to the fact that you currently are not at that level. - Chief

I need to get myself into the mindset where I want sex and dont even feel the need to post about it in a journal as a way of validating myself. To whoever is reading this, although mainly me and my EGO.

OK, so if your ego isn't going to be your motivation, WHAT IS? What is going to fuel your desire for practicing this wonderful hobby? Whatever happened to becoming the best man you can be? Doesn't "best" kinda imply ego-driven goals? Sure, you should be driven by a desire to sincerely improve yourself, and yes that is a necessary component (after you remove the ego, of course), but there is something else...

a genuine love for women

You should be in this whole pickup thing because you want that girl you're looking at when you're out. Not for status or approval or to prove to yourself that you're a player. NO. You should want her. You want to ravish her. You want to throw her against a wall, pin her arms above her head, and make out with her.

Those girls that you see when you're out, in their short little dresses that end just above their nipples and just below their asses, WANT you to feel what you're feeling right now. They're deliberately tapping into the emotions of all the guys around them. They want a guy to come up and talk to them, and they want that guy to be consumed by them. They don't want a guy who's talking to them to brag to his friends later. They want a guy who finds them so irresistible, so enticing, that he can't stop himself from walking up to her.


Those 2 threads have cleared my head so fucking much and I feel like I am about to revolutionize my own game because of it!

dam I feel good now

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I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly, and all those who look down on me I'm tearin down your balcony, no if ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he

So.... your journal has nothing to do with Heisenberg's 98% pure blue ice? Damn..

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Some people are like slinkys, not really good for anything but make you smile when you push them down the stairs.

First Night Out In The Clubs
3 kiss closes

Ok so now im done with shootin the shit of getting all my groundwork sorted out I felt ready to go out for a night at the clubs, and now I can start posting some in field reports.

I woke up this morning with 4 stamps on my arm so we went to a few different places.

Kiss 1
First club we went to is a good backpacker spot, and in the first minute of going in I found myself the hottest 3 set of Swedish girls. The hottest one made eye contact as I walked past her so bingo I was straight in. This club was LOUD by the way. so we didnt really say much. most the time we were just saying WHAT? in eachothers ears. its so annoying. But I just used that as a perfect way to get close and amp up the kino.

I just said hello and I knew this wouldnt be much about what I say... Just how I present myself. She spoke english well so i just asked her how she was enjoying her travels. after a bit of talk and nice close touching, bodys pressed against eachother and my first attempt at stealth seduction I thought I should just back it up for a little bit. So I talked to her friend and I think this got her a little jealous and I caught her looking at me.

I went back to her talked a little more, resumed the touchy feely and then asked her...

Me: Do you want to kiss? (lol i shouldnt of asked this but oh well)
Her: what?? (I didnt know if she didnt hear or she was a bit shocked)
There was no way I was gonna ask that stupid question again so I just moved her hair behind her ear with my hand, held eye contact and slowly moved in for a lovely swedish kiss! yummmmmmmm

After that she was changing clubs but I wasnt gonna leave my friends yet as it was only 10pm.

She didnt have a Phone. I promised Id go find her at the other club. But i never saw her again and she leaves the city today. god fucking dam it

Next time what should I do in that situation.... ?

Kiss 2
Ok so at club 2 I saw an alright looking 2 set sitting down next to eachother at a table and opened, bit of small talk but just ran my 60 on one of them with my foot on her leg under the table as I small talked. Small talk is fun when you are secretly being seductive. Its great fun because no one else knows Then about after a couple of minutes of chit chat I APOCALYPSE OPENER'd her.. But not as an opener lol. I just threw it in there and stared her down. people heard it. I didnt care. She got extremely shocked and said "I dont think so". But I just held my frame and it was great, then she gave a smile back as if she had enjoyed that moment I just gave her. Nice.

Anyway she swore she was lesbian... So then I asked if I find a girl for us to share would she have a 3 way? She said maybe.. But I kept calling bullshit on her being a lesbian so I thought Id do a photo routine and tried to make out with her for the photo and she didnt stop me, she stuck her tounge in my mouth and loved it... then tried to kiss me herself again later.... She was still claiming to be lesbian and said she wouldnt go home and fuck just me but I know it was just a pretty good shit test... Fine if she has sex with women but I know she wouldve still loved some cock... anyway she went off to dance and I left her with my name to add me on facebook...

Kiss 3
3rd club. Theres not much to this one. It was on the dance floor of a Loud club! I small talked a girl while dancing with her and touching her then just started kissing her. Not much to it. My friend even tried to wing me with her friend but failed to get anything from her. I was proud of him though, hes starting to try aswell so they did the girl look at eachother which is never a good thing then left...


Learning about the vibe
So now Im starting to see its ALL ABOUT THE VIBE. they will feel what you feel!! its great!! And its very easy

There was one really hot girl I spoke to, but we just had small talk. The vibe wasnt there... So nothing happened. I didnt get that feeling that if I kiss her right now she will be fine with it... every other time I had got that....

So I need to work on being able to create this vibe... by better framing... Which I think I lose around REALLy hot girls.. like the 10s.

What to improve on
Kiss closes mean shit. Its not my goal to catch the most cold-saws in town. I want sex. I need to learn to step it up past a kiss.

Questions that need answers!
If I escalate smoothly and quickly up to getting a kiss (like im talking 5-10 minutes).. What do I do after to make it become sex?? I feel like I cant possibly keep escalating it because that would just lead to sex in 20 minutes in the club bathroom... which is cool but I think it would just trigger a girls ASD. HOWEVER, if I just tone it down to comfort after a kiss I feel like it will get boring for her again and maybe some buyers remorse will come out, because she loses those sexual emotions that got me the kiss. Do I need to hold back on the speed of my escalating and get to know them better? < I think its this but I would like someones input...

It seems like this is some fools mate game I am running up until the kiss.... So its ruining my chances of sex... What do I need to do to turn it into sex after just a kiss?

How come sometimes the vibe is just magically there and sometimes it isnt?

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I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly, and all those who look down on me I'm tearin down your balcony, no if ands or buts, don't try to ask him why or how can he

This journal isn't even 2 pages long and it ended up on the second page of the FR board! Don't give up now!