Im back. Fuck my life.
I didnt want to leave so soon. I will definitely be returning next year for a few months next time. it was hands down, the best thing ive ever done with my life.
Ive fallen in love with the world and its people. I cant stay in Australia after doing that. I honestly dont even want to go out here anymore or bother trying to meet new girls. Its just not as good and it wont compare.
I wont be truly happy til I am travelling the world again. Itll be soon. And itll be for a long time. Im still young, I need to do it at this age. I gotta get away from 21 years of the same culture. I thought moving from my home city was enough, but now I realise, Im not happy with my current city too. Its far from my family, and just as boring.
Fuck Uni commitments! or else there is no way in hell I wouldve come back. My parents would be disappointed if I took 6 months off to work and travel because they have thrown a lot of money at me to finish this bullshit.
I made some mates I will have for life on that trip. we still talk every day on facebook. There is no better way to truly be yourself and learn about yourself than to be thrown into a whole new environment with strangers to find yourself laughing and bonding with people you never would have usually met, exploring new places and experiencing new things together. fuck.
Im already planning my next holiday. Im going to Fiji and Bali in 4 months time. I cant really afford it, but I have a credit card. Eat dessert first, because you never know what life will throw at you.
On the girl side of things. I slept in my own bed 2 nights for the whole trip. The first few nights I was out meeting the locals. Man we got drunk 20 nights in a row, it was crazy. American girls loved us. Its so great there, theyre so good to us! In Australia if you say hello, half the time they will say, "what?"
In america it was "omg are you from australia??"
Vegas was unreal but thats a whole other story.
and ahh. I mightve fallen in love. I dont know.
The first day I couldnt keep my eyes off this german girl, and I caught her looking at me too, so I said gday. I love it when theres just that natural desire present between two people even when you dont even know eachother yet.
I was with my friend, she was with hers, so one night me and my mate tag teamed them. he took one I took the other. We had dinner together, and bonded. I didnt really see much in her at this stage other than a beautiful girl with a gorgeous accent.
I tried to kiss her on the first night, but she declined me. Whatever, I went and had sex with a portugese girl. Oh and then another girl straight after she left.
So day 2, I ignored the German girl all day. (now I wish I had spent the whole time with her

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Day 3 she asked me if I was angry at her... I told her I wasnt, and we were back to chatting and bonding again. Learning about her culture was so fun. Unlike Australian girls, with the same old shit stories. Its almost like youre meeting the same girl over and over just with a different name.
We ended up sleeping together 2 nights but didnt have sex. We would only kiss. At first I was convinced they were both 'sluts' but now I was realising she was a challenge. I fucking loved it. A girl who isnt prepared to just sleep with any guy she just meets. That's great, I respect that so much.
anyway, long story short, the third night we had sex. It wasnt my best performance, I was just gentle on her because I think it had been a while for her.
after that, we slept together every night. I would go out and drink with my mates, meet the locals, but I was happy to know I was going home to a girl I had an emotional connection with. Some nights I didnt even have sex with her, because I enjoyed talking to her so much that sex didnt matter. i told her this and she reacted so strongly and happily. It was true though.
We had some fucking great sex. one time she screamed german during the sex, it was fucking unreal, I loved it!
She told me my kissing and sex was different to any guy shes had before in Germany and I knew this was meant in a good way. It was so fucking passionate. No one does it like us aussies
We spent all day holding hands walking around seeing sites. Sometimes we wouldnt talk for a while and just cuddle up together on the bus, or look into each others eyes for ages. haha. if any other girl tries this with me I usually cringe and make up some excuse to leave straight away. its shit I never usually do!!
we said goodbye and it was the first time I'd seen her cry. But it was a beautiful thing. I was trying my hardest to hold back the tears too. I gave her a bracelet to remember me by and she gave me a necklace charm that Im wearing right now. She promised me she would see me again in Australia, and Im going to Europe for their next summer.
I just dont know how long the feeling will last. I know all things die, and she will meet other guys and I will meet other girls. I think you miss someone the most at the start, like now. But after time you miss them less because you grow used to them being gone. Whereas at the moment Im still not used to sleeping without her. So I miss her lots.
I think the impact we both had on each other was strong enough that we will see each other again though. She even told me German guys dont do it like I do and how I was so different for them, whilst aussie girls dont cut it for me now either. So I think we will cross paths again sometime soon.
In America I kissed heaps of girls, had sex with a few, but theres only one worth writing about.