So this girl is well into me talking on facebook an that iv saw her in person before shes always initiating converstation first to write to me an that.
Im playing it cocky and funny and a little disintrested, by the way i wanted a LTR with this girl, shes my type of girl iv fclosed atleast 50 women in my time, i forget my exact number though most when i was afc which is strange.

So 1 day this girl says im upset, i say why shes says she got attacked by some man about a year ago an hes had his release date so shes upset.
i just go with the you only live once fuck him an also add a few jokes in to make her laugh an that (im not sure what i should of said here)

So that day i go round to my friends house after a 12 hour drinking session i go back home an log on facebook and like a FUCKING IDIOT! send her a message on chat like this hey iv been thinking an i dont think i can carry on my ex gf got raped (which is true) an its just brought to many memories up an i aint a soppy lad who can say all this stuff an i dont no how to deal with it lets just remain friends. theres abit more but iv forgot but thats the gist of it.

So i fall asleep an think OH shit what have i done when i wake send her a message sayin im glad you came to me with a problem iv been a bit of a dick an ill speak to you tommorow.
So were talking an i say you still want to meet up an shes like i think its best if we leave it, i text back saying i understand an then we have left it at that this was yesterday .

Now i feel like a heartless dick i can not get it out of my mind i do rather deal with problems on my own but i need advice on this do i freeze her out considering she has loads of lads after her an before this stupid text she well wanted a LTR with me to.
I am devastated an i want her back in my life if i have done to much damage i understand and i will leave it.
But any advice guys an i will truely appreciate it. but i think iv messed up bigtime an i have only myself to blame ):

anyone can help me out this is realy getting me down as im clueless what to do

Freezing her out won't exactly do much . . . Contact her. Say you wanna talk about this.

Is an LTR still what you want with this girl? Meet her up and talk about what happened. Apologize for what you said and say you didn't mean it. You were just drunk.

Start hanging out with her again and make something happen this time.

If she shows interest (as she's been doing all this time!) - you're not supposed to continue acting disinterested. If she shows interest - DO SOMETHING. Make a move.

Good luck for next time.

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thanks for the advice but i dont want to sound to needy to her i will contact her but i dont want to come off as desperate an yes i still want a LTR with her.
She said i think its best if we leave it , so i dont want to be annoying an start pecking her head but your right what have i got to lose.
But wouldnt it be best if i left it for a bit so she could miss me i aint to sure
but cheers for your advice much appreciated