I'd like to thank all the guys who gave me a harsh wake up call on my other threads. You guys are the most necessary assholes ever...

I'm now ready to reset back to the very beginning. I'm now 18 years old, and I am currently in senior high school. As pathetic as it may sound, I've never been to a party before, ever... Virgin, never had a girlfriend, and never kissed a girl. It's a painful reality for me.

I really want to change my life...

What do you think are the first things I should do? Let's make this a step by step. I can't multi task so... Yeah...

Thanks.

p.s. I've talked to one of my friends. He said that if I could just find a place, he can get the necessary stuff to have to party... And then invite people.

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There's only one way under high heaven to make anybody do anything... Yes, just one way. That is, by making the other person wanna do it!

Some people here are even older and have never done any of those things. Its no big deal. Thats why we're learning this stuff so if you're 18 or 28, it doesn't matter.

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Back, starting over as of 2012.

Thank you guys for the encouragement and the help.

...I thought my oneitis is over but..........

I still feel stuff for this girl Victoria......

I started to actually "game" her FOR THE FIRST TIME after knowing her for several weeks. It didn't work. No IOIs. Just the usual, when we left school, she gave me a hug. That's it....

Back then, not only did I wanna POSSESS this girl and make her do what I wish, I really felt genuine love towards her. Both of those emotions, the evil possessive side and the true love side existed in my fucking mind. Their combinations hurt. I was crying the entire weekends, calling my friends for their sympathies and advice...

...For a while, it's as if the "dark side" disappeared, and I just kinda felt as if I just wanted her to be happy, and let her have a good life and I'll just move on...... As much as I felt satisfaction for feeling that way, I felt sad, and felt as if I lost something very precious..... It was okay. I prayed... Prayed to God that he will let her have a good life...

After that....... this icky-inlove-sweet feeling seems to start dissipating, while my dark side is starting to come back... but.......

.......

I still love Victoria... If I had the power to seduce her and have her suck my cock, I wouldn't do it. It's too much. I just want her to be happy...

...which is why I will be gaming other girls.

Let my journey..... BEGIN!!!!!

This thread will have lots of my lay updates. I'll buy Neil Strauss's book The Game, and Mr. L. Rx's book Dating to Relating A to Z.

We'll see what happens.

May God forgive my soul and give me another chance...

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There's only one way under high heaven to make anybody do anything... Yes, just one way. That is, by making the other person wanna do it!

Try this, walk down a street in a big city and count how many beautiful girls walk past. Then you realise how many there are in that town alone. This was a great way of getting over that for me. You don't need to approach (though I whole heartedly encourage it if you can) but just realise there are so many out there!

...Here's the thing though...

Out of all the girls that I have in ALL my classes in this semester, the only one who truly stuck with me is her, Victoria...

I've met a girl (Stevie) before in my other school who looks an awful lot like her and... oh boy... They turn me on...

The least thing that I want to happen is to find someone who turns me on as much (or better) as Stevie and Victoria.

I'll check to see if I can get a picture of Victoria. You be the judge.

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There's only one way under high heaven to make anybody do anything... Yes, just one way. That is, by making the other person wanna do it!

Put something nice on, go out and tell the first woman you see you think that dress looks hot.

after a few min into the convo tell her that she's not only sexy but also fun to talk to (Thats a juggler line if I recall correctly).

use some tact and you'll be amazed by the result.


then start reading, MM, The Game or whatever, most important part is to implement.

Sounds good...

I'm officially gonna be a pick-up artist. (It went from one of the top 20 things that I wanna be into the top 5 after meeting a really attractive girl.)

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There's only one way under high heaven to make anybody do anything... Yes, just one way. That is, by making the other person wanna do it!

I still couldn't get over Victoria. The more she ignores me, the more I get turned on.

(she started ignoring after I called her 6 times in a row for one day... sounds pretty expected...)

This is starting to suck. I don't feel that "inlove" feeling anymore, now I'm just fucking obsessed.

I think I'm also delusional. I think in a scale of 1-10, she's an 11 as far as looks AND personality. One of my friends think she's a 0... while some think she's "okay." Personality wise, I LOVE her. I love how she gets annoyed by certain things. I also love how socially savvy she is. (She's so socially savvy that it's almost CRAZY!!) It really really urges me to just... argghhhh. Too bad I can't do it.

So far... after her getting creeped out... I don't think I'll ever be able to hug her ever again...

...I'll post another thread about this.

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There's only one way under high heaven to make anybody do anything... Yes, just one way. That is, by making the other person wanna do it!