Urgh... First post in this section...
Background... I work in a male dominant entertainment field, met a girl in the same field at a show, we have a lot of mutual friends (over 100), we got talking, I asked her out, we went on about 12 dates, slept together after maybe 2 and a half weeks and became exclusive a couple of weeks after that. A few more weeks after that we were out in the open as a couple.
Dates are always fun, sex is good, she's very affectionate in person. I've met and spent time with her best friends (outside of out mutual field) and they tell me I make her very happy. Communication is so so, we text each other in the morning, before bed and a bit in between when we're not busy.
I have been insecure and needy in the past which I can internalise and handle.
Yesterday however, I got very irritated by her reaction to something. I found out that an elderly family member, who I am very close to is in very bad health. Confided in girlfriend about this in reply to her text, she asked what's wrong, I thought I'd just call her instead, as texting wasn't appropriate. She didn't answer. Figured she was away from her phone or whatever. I browsed twitter while waiting for her to call back and she's tweeting about an upcoming show. I called her again, she answered this time, we spoke about what's bothering me, she was very understanding and listened then we spoke about her work which was bothering her. Soon after we said goodnight as it was late and we both were tired.
I then had a bizarre dream about calling her out on twitter being more important than our relationship and it leading to a violent argument and now I want to confront her about it.
If I address it, I'm going to wait until I see her in person, it's not the end of the world but I'd like to think my girlfriend is going to be there for me when I need her, rather than social media.
Her behaviour stimulated your abandonment fears, and your wanting to bring it up is more a form of protest about what you think she's doing to you.
In short you're having some 'suicidal' thoughts, and i hope you recognize this is your issue, not hers.
"I have been insecure and needy in the past which I can internalise and handle. " <= so basically you've learned to cope, but not really deal with the underlying problem. This can be ineffectual if you keep getting triggered - 1) its exhausting, and 2) it'll only be a matter of time before you can no longer contain your own experience and it bleeds over into the relationship.
What are you DOING to resolve the insecurity?