| I realized this while headed to the gym today. My goal is to just ask 2 women for there numbers today. I had a perfect opportunity and didn't follow my gut instinct. I'm now back home from the gym regretting NOT saying anything. However I still have to go to work so I still have time....but I feel like immediately after stepping out of my home and into the world I gotta get my game face on, and follow through every opportunity I get...On the train, the bus, outside, and forget what the surrounding people think because if I go in and fail I keep it moving to my next destination knowing I did what I could....but the REALITY OF WHAT IVE BEEN DOING SO FAR IS doubting myself....and and when thats done, especially early on, it starts the day off wrong, and sets a nervous/anxiety tone. The earlier I get it out my system the easier natural game is through out the day while at work...........I DONT KNOW WHY, BUT IT FEELS LIKE I CARE WHAT EVERY PERSON THINKS...(I DON'T, BUT I ACT AS I DO). I think subconsciously I care about saving face socially. Example, I'm on a cab, with two other guys, one hot girl......and I FAILED TO EVEN TALK 2 THE GIRL IN FEAR OF BEING REJECTED IN FRONT OF 2 GUYS ILL NEVER SEE AGAIN even though my gut told me 2........I DONT GET WHY I GIVE A FUCK....THE world is small, but NOT THAT SMALL! Yet I act like it is, and everyone is watching me and knows me. I want 2 set fire every place I go...fire as in-building up my female contacts through being blunt with my intentions and getting girls numbers who are interested. If I game every hot girl I see even if most are no's it'll make me feel good cause I'm proactively on a mission doing something about it...This brings me 2 my question of how I can forget my self image, and fuck my reputation and just get out of the box I feel stuck in....If I'm wearing someone elses face I wouldn't care if I failed and would have fun and get better results....but I got my own face and just need a way 2 detatch myself from my self. Perhaps an alter ego??? If so what could I do 2 get in the state of my alter ego? Maybe just a name change....any ideas?
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