Kinda super shit week ... fuck it everyone has them..
Basically to cut a shit story short.. I have a frozen shoulder.. gym injury apparently
So I woke up sunday with shoulder pain.. which grew throughout the day by night fall I was in agony..
come monday morning I was completely unable to move my arm, so i went to the GP who diagnosed frozen shoulder then I went to the hospital blah blah blah it's boring.. according to NHS.uk
"Frozen shoulder is a condition that leads to pain and stiffness of the shoulder. It is also known as adhesive capsulitis or shoulder contracture.
The symptoms tend to gradually get worse over a number of months or years. You will typically experience shoulder pain for the first two to nine months, which can be severe, followed by increasing stiffness.
The stiffness may affect your ability to carry out everyday activities and, in particularly severe cases, you may not be able to move your shoulder at all."

Doc said it was frozen shoulder.. but I don't think it is.. it's already getting better.. nothing else matters

Good things about this week.. Doing fuck all exercise has made it easy for me to start eating clean.. and not being able to move right arm has made masurbation agony..

So, after a week.. Your fr update is, "I've masturbated so profusely that I've injured my shoulder temporarily."

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Without being offensive I want to say one thing which is you shouldn't use relationship as a silver bullet solution to all the problems you have.

It seems that you have a lot of concerns about your life, and you want a girl so that you could forget about them!

In my opinion, you should do your best to fix your problems. Once you fix most of your problems, you become happier then before. Once you become happy, getting a girl will be far easier for you.

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It's been 5 or 8 weeks since my last post.. so I'm apologizing for not keeping my word.. not sure who I'm apologizing to.. Anyways I'm the one losing for not posting... nothing positive to post really.. Christmas was good haven't got laid in almost a year... which means I f-closed once in 2 years... I hardly care though.. no pussy is better than the wrong pussy in my opinion..
Fucking up my shoulder didn't help things ..I don't wanna make excuses.. I've fucked up.... but I kinda been thinking..

I've been thinking I haven't been approaching shit in the right way.. I was just hitting the gym and kinda not thinking about my core issues.. I was just trying to get hench- ripped- buff- shredded- whatever you call it.. and yeah it's one way of dealing with low self esteem and general lack of love and pussy.
But this, what I'm doing here is about fear of failure.. this is more important
And well.. I don't need to in perfect shape to learn to deal with rejection and cold hearted attention whoring.. and I don't have to be perfect to deal with failure..

I guess there's two ways I'm thinking of taking this path..
I)improve yourself become alpha.. pull all the top totty..
II)Go out there as you are.. find a great gal who loves you as you are..

Someone(Rugby7) inferred an opinion like this

Put simply.. I don't need to change anything about my physique or situation in life, I don't need to change anything to learn to fail..
writing this shit out scares me.. I don't know how I'm gonna change my emotions towards failure.. the emotions I feel around the prospect of failure are crippling...I'm gonna try to explain why.. at some point.

"It is called a life changing day, the day you say enough is enough – Powerful!" - Jim Rohn

Even if you were to get super buff and all that, your brain will always make excuses why now is not the right time. It wants to protect you from what it PERCEIVES as failure. It doesn't know that there are no failures, only experiments and learning experiences. Courage means feeling the fear and taking action IN SPITE of the fear. U can do this mate.

I hope I inspired confidence and not fear mate (your last post wasn't entirely clear). Now as you can see I just failed No-fap. I was at 7 days. It's not a big deal. I ain't gonna beat myself up about it. Now with that being said I am going to do my best to improve.

Long story short, don't focus on changing yourself, just be your best self.

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ummm, I'll get to that ummm yeah failure without trying must therefore be different to failure when you do try...

welcoming/embracing failure, am I.. I guess in a way you're right.. but the model in my head(we model the world in different ways), failure is only failure if you try to do something then don't achieve.. but I get what you're saying
(If one doesn't try, you fail anyways) You Miss 100% of The Shots You Don't Take - Wayne Gretzky
But I'm thinking I am stopping myself for some reason or in someway protecting myself whether it be from the pain of failure, rejection, social embarrassment, or whatever.. A lot of this is born of ISSUES
So many fucking years.. urghh! I'm trying to get to the bottom of this so I can move on with life
Dammit!! Woo hoo! Then can I sleep with Keira Knightley?! FUCK THIS SHIT! yes I get that repetition builds confidence.. nice analogy
YES, baby steps... that's.. er what I'm thinking... I'm with you..

what ?! I'm not doing that
that there that's deep end stuff... and I cant even frigging swim.. ok ok shallow end stuff but still I'm afraid of the water. there's sharks in the water, lady sharks and they bite. Fuck...
I totally see why this would be seen as a baby step to some..
AFC This to me is a football team, the greatest.. And I'm not a chump.. seriously this acronym needs to go..
Everybody reading this fudge_88 says he's gonna give me a badge.. I'll hold you to that and.. and anyways I wasn't saying I wanna screw Keira Knightley.. ffs I don't even fancy Keira Knightley .. was saying my moobs outweigh her boobs. I was gonna reply to this ages ago .. but then I was not sure if you were kinda trolling .. I don't even care ... thanks for posting Dude

so...what have you done? I can't tell if you were mocking the advice or you were being genuine. I haven't read one approach since you started this in October.

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extraordinary individuals do that’s different from everybody else, and then emulate
them.

Not mocking that post.. just being light hearted with it

As for approaches well there haven't been any..

Nah mate … not offended, I totally hear what you're saying.. getting laid or even finding a HB10 super sweet nurturing girlfriend isn't a silver bullet for my crazy shit.. but it solves at least one problem.. and maybe help with my social anxieties and fears of failure(depending on how I approach the issue)
And what I meant there's is a subconscious part me which is fucking screaming YOU NEED TO DEAL WITH THIS NOW!!!!!!!!! and I'm lonely all the time and I can't concentrate- on anything!
Cos there's this part of me, just saying GET A GIRL GET A GIRL GET A GIRL I want a girl I want a girl I want a girl

I don't feel the option of sorting my life, being happier, then trying to approach, is right for me.. it would work if I could concentrate on other shit, and if I wasn't 35 having spent 2 decades trying to sort my head out..
Also with the “sort your life – take your pick of women” way of thinking.. I think I may end up succeeding with women I'd be better off failing with.. does that make sense?? I want a woman who is deep and caring not the goldiggery type.
(I dunno)

I've been trying to find happiness for decades, there has been progress, I am still kinda crazy but happiness seem to be a decision, an acceptance, a state of mind, a self love without conditions.. anyways it gets philisophical from here... hard to explain.. anyways thanks

The "I dunno" part says everything. I was once in the same analysis stage you are in now. Take it from me your brain will continue to spin in circles until the day comes when the pain of not approaching exceeds the perceived pain of approaching and you approach.