Special thanks to @CharlesFinley , @TheMajikalMethod.com , and @dtrak for the help so far! I really appreciate it.
Quick Story:
I am 18 years old. Last night i kissed a girl (who i have known off and on for 3 years, but is now a good friend) at the end of a small kickback at my house. She then texts me in the morning saying that we should talk about it, and asks me when a good time would be. I said in like 5 hours.
She comes to my house at 3:00 and i walk her to my room and sit on my bed. She sits by me. We talk for about 2 hours. Conversation is about fun talk and story's like the whole time, for instance a time a few weeks ago when her best friend wanted to have sex with her and almost did.
I am terribly mad at myself because i acted like a complete pussy, even though i stayed by her on the bed, and did a few escalations i never went any farther then simple touches.
At 5:00ish she is sitting at the end of my bed(My bed is on the floor) and SHE iniciates some kino by saying that i still owe her a massage. I sat behind her, and went to work. Kino got strong during this.
I still was still TOO NERVIOUS to do shit

. Lucky she push's it even more, and said, "Hey you never rated that kiss." then i said, "That's because i forgot what it was like, remind me, and went in for the kiss."
We were on the floor kissing all of the sudden, then i let go of the kiss every once in a while, to throw in some fun banter and talking. For instance, how the kiss was about a 6, then i gave her tips, and she would want to kiss again to try them, and i slowly kept bring up the score. Eventually i said it was about a 9, but a more comfortable place would bring the score to a 10.
After that, we both stood up kissing, and collapsed on my bed. I had my hand on her butt at first and slowly worked my way to her V with her pants on and rubbed it a bit. After a few mins, i started to go inside her pants with my hand.
BOOM
Right after that, she said something along the lines of, "Not yet." Then she said he had to go, which was honest because her mom had been texting her. As i walked her out, she went in again for the kiss with me.
I am seeing her again tonight at another one of my kickbacks.
WHAT HAPPENED? =\ I am lost.
Also, how should i act tonight?