I am heterosexual, in case my post might confuse you.

My love in womens is so deep that I just hate the way men looks. I don't hate Johnny Deep and Mr. Tatum, I think they look pretty good. Still, I think they can't even come close to my view of a 8.

I hate the men dress code. I hate that wearing a robe makes me looks bad, I hate that wearing fuzzy cat ears makes me feel bad and looks terrible. I just wish I could fully express myself wearing colofurl and sexy clothes. I hate everything about manhood.

I really wish I could be a sexy women and be a huge bisexual whore. Or better, a elf, or a princess, or a dark elf. Whatever suits my fantasy is absolutely impossible.

Now what, I hate myself for looking bad to me, that makes me feel bad and eventually leads other people to feel bad around me. My therapist said look at the people around you, look at these ugly old person, do that stop them from being happy? No, it dosen't stop them, that's right but still, that's not what I feel on the deeper level.

Cross dress... Don't know much about it but do what makes you happy man.

You say that you want to be a bisexual girl.

A bisexual girl is still in to guys.

If I was to be completely honest, it sounds like you are still denying what you are really interested in. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's the impression I get. Maybe you have alot of confusion here because you are interested in guys and are just really fighting yourself not to admit it?

Keep seeing a therapist and really sit down and figure out what would make you happy and then figure out how to get that done.

Crossdress would make me look stupid.

I am 100% sure I love women. I tryed out with men, its not the same, I don't feel entitled at all. I like it to being rub by a men... But i like it too to being rub by a shampoo bottle. I could never lick a man the way I do and feel it with a women. I know alright, I just know I love their bodies. No ego, no bullshit. Honestly, the closest I could be gay is like 90% hetero 10% bi.

What shakes me is that I can't, to my man eyes, look as sexy and beautiful as a women. Theres just no way. I dont understand why i have to wear all those shitty tshirts and pants because i think it looks so bad, so standart. If i could wear a robe without looking stupid to myself damn i would. It seems everything cool and sexy is reserved for womens... For a good reason too but i cant understand it... Maybe the real answer is just too live out of my head and date a beautiful cosplayer...?

are you kidding me?
so glad to be a man.
can you imagine having to prepare 8 hours for a stupid party?
can you imagine bleeding 7 days a month? and being bitchy?
can you imagine wearing high heels? ouch.
can you imagine every time you have sex, you are worried about getting pregnant?
can you imagine waiting around and nobody approach you? us men are lucky because we have the choice of approaching. a woman has no choice. if she doesn't get approached, there is nothing she can do, she is scrwed.

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I have not failed 10,000 times. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work. - Edison

If you were a man, you wouldn't cry like this.

Get over it.

And wear a robe if you want to. Hef wears a robe all the time.