Update that nobody asked for on my story but I feel like giving either way: Just told my ex that I'm not interested in friendship, and wont settle for less than what I want. Told her I'm not 100% sure I want a relationship either, because I'm not sure she's what I'm looking for anymore, and my values have changed (last bits a lie but I didnt wanna lick ass too much) and to give me a call if (and only if) she wants to meet up, take things slow and see where it goes. Then I blocked and deleted her.

That bit about the job, really put things where they needed to be in my head.

This oneitis stuff is hard, but it's fucking doable. Fuck this shit! The relationship was mediocre, the breakup happened through fucking TYPING (literally couldnt even get a call) and we barley saw eachother. I just got oneitis and put her on a pedestal when I "lost" her lol.

Fuck mediocrity & settling for less than what you want. Plenty of other potentially lucky girls who could receive the pork sword. In a year you won't give a shit. In 1 million years there won't even be any evidence that you, this girl, or any other girl you're banging actually existed. So do whatever the fuck will benefit you the most in the long run, and make the most of it. Don't try and keep somebody who is too stupid to want to keep you.

Sorry for the rant, had to let off some steam.

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I grew out of the dumb shit I used to say on here. Most of my posts don't represent who I am today at all.

This.