I met this girl on the street. I talked to her and built enough rapport, so that she wanted to give me her number. At first we met at my place after a date I organized via text. I touched her, her breasts, her ass, but when I tried to kiss her she moved her head away. This head movement also happened when I was with her before when we were walking around. So no kissing on the mouth as it seems. My problem is, that I built kissing on the mouth into my routine of having sex. So as she didn't want to be kissed, I thought, that sex was not going to happen.

After that we exchanged a few more text messages and I went to her place. As always I remembered that you escalate till she is blocking you. This is what I did, she was blocking me having circled around her nipples(they were puffy) through her blouse for about 5 minutes and she was blocking me when coming close to her vagina(this could have been enjoyment, though). She even said "You don't really care if I say no, you just stop and try again a few minutes later.". It was dark and she was not looking at my face, I had to smile a little.

I said "Yes, until you say stop".

So this went on and I managed to actually kiss her on the lips(we are still both fully dressed minus shoes, partly spooning on her bed and partly standing up, hugging and stroking), which she first seemed to accept but then she literally ...

... moved over her lips with the back of her hand

as if she wanted to say "Away with the poison by this guy on my mouth". I ignored it and talked about something different.

Later on, I, having no filters said: "You know, when you don't want to be kissed by me it tells me all kinds of negative things about you. For instance that you could have some disease that you don't want to transmit or similar."

We hugged and kissed some more, and she actually got turned on more and more. Something I did not realize back then. The only thing I realized was enormous pain in my stomach because I unconsciously suppressed my farts when I was with her. That shit collected itself itself in my stomach and at this moment I wanted nothing more than get it all out. I thought to myself, that I cannot do this in front of her. So I actually said that I have to leave because of stomach pain.

Well, I left on a high note at least.

Since then getting a hold of her was hard. Even though she replied to my texts, it was always like "well, today I have to run errands" or "on day X I don't know when I'll be home from work" - could be true but could also be excuses.

Yes, I do talk to other women so this does not fuck me up that bad. But still, I really would like to fuck and kiss her. And she knows that based on the way I touched her.

I sometimes wonder if I stop too soon when escalating, seeing a block when there is none.

How could I proceed?

Shoulda just played off the stomach pain until your dick was inside her. I'd ignore her a little bit at this point and let her come back to you.

Yes. I set a date for sunday. After that I will wait.

Do you think texts like "BTW: Recently you said that ... Is it really ...." are detrimental? Currently it's all like "let's meet at X" -> "Sorry, I can't because of Z" -> "Okay, let's meet at Y".

I don't want to call cause if I call and she does not pick up the phone I should leave a message. And she will listen to that message over and over. If I reach her, a quivering voice could ruin it.

You are thinking way too much. You need to get your mind off of all of this or you'll screw it up. She's just some smelly bitch who farts just like you. Stop in eating too much in her and then act as you see fit,

I realized this, too.

I am serious about this: can you tell me, why I gave in to stomach pain that was not even serious to blow that once-in-a-lifetime experience with that woman? Please give me your assumptions.