The HbPlaystation Saga: New Moon 
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Boy fuck the druggie girl! despite me liking her looks(plus quebec accent) and despite my immense desire to do some kinky shit to her with you, I say its better be on a safe side and just erase her from your life. you never know what to expect from this kinda lunatics( i am very judgmental to druggies,I am fine with it). There is plenty of other women out there who won't put a needle full of heroin into your scrotum while you are banging them;-)
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But I think in the end you slowly phase out seeing her, and move on to healthier relationships. You don't need negativity in your life of any form. You're an amazing person and though I agree her looks, personality, and wit are attractive, her drug usage, compulsion to hide things, to manipulate, to lie... It's just bad news..
I love how this sounds like an intervention, "Kiz_n, we're not here to judge, we're here because we love you and that girl is no good!" haha. In all seriousness this is really constructive feedback and you guys are right, there is no need for that kind of negativity in my life and there are plenty of other non-substance abusing women out there.
I will add this though, after that night I actually did decide to slowly phase her out of my life. If it were any other girl, I would have probably just cut her off but this was a unique situation, why? Partially because my "PU" brain (a.k.a. my penis) still wanted me to seal the deal, partially because (as Tess said) I had allowed myself to be vulnerable with her but primarily because she had been vulnerable with me. She's good at hiding it (most of the time lol) but she's a highly emotionally unstable person, she has abandonment issues caused by her father dropping out her life as a little girl, being an engineer she deals with all this male attention and as she put it, "she gets propositioned out by so many guys she gets overwhelmed at times." At the same time and rather ironically, she finds security in male attention I think it fills the void her father has left in her and I'm certain that's why she takes drugs as well. On top of this she just started being an escort which overtime will cause her more emotional trauma. Now having all this knowledge coupled with the fact that she shared her innermost self with me, I felt I had an ethical obligation to not add to her abandonment issues by dropping her so frivolously. Maybe that's just the "nice guy" in me talking but my conscience would never allow it. As for the games I don't mind them, in fact I enjoy advancing past each level, it's just kind of sad for her really, because she can never have a truly genuine connection with someone as long she keeps playing them.
Keep in mind that night happened over a month ago, a lot has changed since then, one of the best things about this whole experience is how quickly I was able to suppress any feelings I had for her. I think this was for a number of reasons:
1. Through "PU" I've been able to develop very excellent control over my emotions.
2. I always had options as she wasn't the only girl I was seeing.
3. I never stopped going out to meet new women.
4. My past experiences with women would never allow me get so emotionally attached that quickly.
5. I'm not an AFC.
After the Fact
After that weekend, I became pretty detached, within a week my attraction to her was now mainly physical, I stopped being as open as I was before and our communication became more infrequent. Of course I still felt like we had unfinished business but whether it happened or not I was gradually letting the relationship wane. After some sporadic contact, we hadn't seen each other for a couple of weeks and she sensed what was happening, ordinarily that wouldn't matter but she also knows BK. So one day she called him while he was at work and asked if anyone was home because she had to pick up a book she left at our place. BK told her he wasn't sure if I was back from class yet but, she could go and check. Funny enough, that day my class got cancelled so while I was dancing to, "I'm Every Woman" in my undies haha (don't get excited guys I was actually, just making breakfast) HbPS randomly showed up at the door. She claimed she was picking up a book from a friend who lived close to my building (hmmm) and hadn't seen me in so long, so she decided to stop by. It was hilarious, she kind of gave me a report card on her life, explaining how she'd stopped being an escort, she had reduced her drug usage, planned to eventually stop entirely and how she was more focused on school now. lol
I remained unresponsive, for me, this changed nothing, I wasn't buying it and I still wanted to let the relationship fade. She was relentless she knows I'm interested in BDSM so she talked to me about her interest in that, I was also being pushed by outside influences to keep in contact with her, I understood where they were coming from but at this point I wasn't even sure if she wanted a physical relationship or just emotional support from a stable male. In the intervening weeks, she came to see me twice, the last time being a couple of weeks ago when I was out at The Thompson with Footy and TheShowman but nothing ever happened. That night at The Thompson she showed up late, hung out with me until closing and then said she couldn't come back with me because she was in an anti-social mood. To me this was just more of a reason to cut off communication with her completely. She texted me afterwards to apologize for not coming home with me, she texted me during last week, she texted me on Fri at 7am and that evening but I didn't reply to any of them. She then tried to call me a couple times and I thought, "Fine, I'll see what she wants but I'm not inviting her out." Naturally, she wanted to come and see me but I opted not to tell her where we were going until I could confirm with that if she came to see me, we were going to hook up, she complied but after that text I was doing approaches, took long too reply and in the end she couldn't come. Which leads me to Saturday.
Sat - 10/03/12
That morning she sent me a couple of texts and told me to call her when I could, because texting me was hard these days (which was no mistake). BK's in Norway this month and I knew TheShowman had a Day 2 so I figured why not give it one last shot and if nothing happened that night then it would be transparent that it was never going to happen. I had nothing to lose if it worked out great if it didn't then I wouldn't play the, "what if" game for the rest my life. :-p
That night I got a text saying she was going to be 20mins late and she hoped it didn't ruin anything, at first I saw this in a negative light but then I remembered an anecdote from Yarbles (Vancouver lair) about always turning negative situations into positive ones. So I used this as leverage:
Me: Yeah, don't bother coming
HbPlaystation: Yeah right!
Me: Well, I'm going to punish you for being late
HbPlaystation: It would be my pleasure. Lol!
Again, because I made dinner we didn't have to go anywhere (so much cheaper). While we drank and chatted over dinner, she tested me. For example:
HbPlaystation: How much of why you like me is because of my looks?
Me: (smiling coyly) I am physically attracted to you and you know that, but I guarantee you if that was all it was, I would not invite you to my place before 2am! I actually enjoy spending time with you, you're intelligent and challenging so we have stimulating conversations, you're witty and optimistic which makes you fun to be around, your looks come secondary to that.
After that she began to flirt, at some point she mentioned that she's always wanted to give a guy a striptease and lap dance but has always been too shy to, even with her boyfriends. Then she asked if I think she has what it takes to become a stripper, I responded with, "You have the body for it but I haven't seen your moves yet, I don't know if you can turn me on in that way. You know what? Forget your shyness, you're going to strip for me tonight..." She seemed a little apprehensive but determined to overcome the challenge. A while later I put on some "stripper music" and told her to go for it. She hesitantly started dancing and shortly got into it, she asked if her moves were sexy or turning me on. Fuck yeah they were! but I opted to challenge her, I teased her moves and told her how to improve in certain areas at which point I noticed her get even more determined, she stripped down to her bra and panties and started to give me a lap dance. Now I complimented her and told her she was turning me on and she teasingly reached underneath my shirt and tugged at my belt so I took them off. She danced a little while longer and then then wanted to take some shots of Tequila.
We started off with the standard salt on the hands shot, then I decided to lick the salt of her hand and she returned the favour, then I brushed her hair aside and licked the salt off of her neck and she returned the favour, then I licked the salt off of her stomach and she kissed my neck, it was time for her punishment...I led her to one of the beds, handcuffed her, grabbed my whip and "punished" her for a bit before I unshackled her and peeled off her panties. She told me to stick my dick in her ass because she was just coming off her period, I stuck it in her ass and whispered in her ear, "I don't give a fuck, if you're on your period, I'd still fuck the shit out of you..." After a while she couldn't resist anymore and moaned, "Put it my pussy" I did, excitedly :-p, we eventually moved to the bathroom and I turned on the shower but we didn't make it in, the room was steamy, I lifted her onto the sink and started fucking her, she came on the sink and we moved into to the shower. We were fucking for four hours and after we woke up the in afternoon we went at it again.
Lessons Learned
HbPlaystation lied to BK and I about the book as an excuse to randomly show up to see us, when she noticed our relationship was dwindling. She knew this avenue was closing and made an attempt to keep it open (Credit to TheShowman). What made it even more obvious was how she basically pointed out all the things I don't condone about her and said she was improving on them. It was almost like when a little girl goes up her parents as says "Look at me, look at me! I'm a good girl now!" The reason why I didn't believe her is because you can't change years of learned behavior in a few weeks and knowing that she plays games, this could have all just been a ploy to suck me back in (As Tess said). Although in the end her persistence paid off. lol
Almost all of the men in her life are unstable, they're really superficial, "players", immature, controlling, AFC or all of the above. So for a while she had put me into a certain frame, "the stable one." She knew that while I am a high value male and I'm seeing other women, I'm not a "player" because I'm honest to women about what I want from them. Being "the stable one" is a double-edged sword, of course she trusts me, she feels like I understand her, she wants me in her present/future, when I'm not around she misses me and most importantly I'm unique, I stand out from the pack of guys she has in her life. On the other side she sees a future with me, meaning I qualify to be her potential boyfriend (not good) and she was depending on me for her emotional support. Now, a boyfriend can provide emotional support and still gets the sexual part of a relationship, if I'm not her boyfriend but I'm providing her with emotional support what does that make me, just a friend. I saw this frame being set and as I pulled away I literally told her, "I can never be anyone's therapist." I think this was beneficial because she realized that without the sexual part of our relationship, I would not stick around.
There is no such thing as getting lucky...Successfully seducing women is basically completing a series of meticulous steps that lead to your favourable outcome (sex) and of course some women require less effort than others. AFCs say they "got lucky" but that just means they completed all those steps without being conscious about them, that's why they can't replicate their success. In "PU" we're constantly monitoring what we say/do through a journal and improving through self reflection or the advice of others, therefore once we experience success we know exactly why it worked and should be able to replicate that favourable outcome in a similar situation. It has nothing to do with luck... (Credit to Fable)
One crucial move I did, (albeit I didn't know I was doing it at the time) was a more advanced version of "push pull" by becoming more detached, ignoring her texts and not seeing or meeting her for weeks on end, I made her want me more. Plus I also let her know that I wouldn't fall into her frame of "the stable one." This was down to some friends telling to pull away from her and some friends pushing me to keep in touch with her.
Another vital move I made (consciously this time) was to establish a sexual frame before she came to see me, that way I had no doubt it was going to happen and I wasn't wasting my time. On top of that when we were taking the Tequila shots we could have easily just done the standard shots and moved on but there was an opportunity to escalate and I took it.
Make no mistake sleeping with her has not changed my opinion about her, this is still the same emotionally unstable girl from my previous posts. I enjoy my time with her but I feel almost no attachment towards her. We're fwbs at this point which is perfect for me because whatever she does when she's not with me is her own business and this will not affect my development whatsoever. She knows not to involve me in those activities. Because of her instability, I'm going to allow her to choose when she wants to meet up with, I'm not going to be calling or hooking up with her on a regular basis.
Conclusion
Man, this was my most memorable night of the year so far, not just because of how good she was in bed but because of the validation. In the past if I ran into a situation like this I would have probably not been able to advance it or I would have given up and said, "On to the Next One". Sometimes we give up too easily, I've said this before, I want to be able to seduce any woman, I want to be able to navigate through scenarios that most men would give up on, you can't achieve that with an "On to the Next One" attitude...
Almost forgot...
Red Ranger Out!
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