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How have I given her all the power if that situation comes to fruition?
Ok.
1) you're seeking comfort in maintaining the attachment by settling for sex
2) you're looking for validation from guys here that the chance can occur, you're clinging at this point
3) the sex isn't what you want, you want to keep her feminine energy exclusive to you which likely won't happen sex or no
You're kidding yourself. This will hurt a lot more until you learn to accept its over and move on. Remaning in the past, or trying to cling to shards of it will only keep you locked in the cycle, and in that sense render you powerless - which in and of itself is the illusion because the choice has been and always will be on you to make that final decision to let the past remain in the past and begin to live your life again, freeing up energy for something new, whatever that 'new' is.