please dont judge me, I am not a bad person, I am just a guy who is tired of playing this game and not getting anywhere. It's like there is a switch in my brain that just won't turn on, no matter how much I try.

how can I find a college student that needs "help" if you know what I mean? I dont want to go to craigslist because it's all scams and disgusting people that have AIDS and gonorrhea. I want a real, clean college student.

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I have not failed 10,000 times. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work. - Edison

What? What do you mean by "help"? You mean someone who's damaged and would be easy to pick up? Or someone that just wants the ride and no strings attached? And why do they have to be college students...?

And what do you mean it's not working for you? You've been on these forums since 2011 surely you've picked something up? Perhaps you need to take a crash course, get some field experience then report back on what happened so people can critique your experience to help improve your rights and wrongs...

no, I haven't. That just goes to show how much post count does not mean experience. my conversations never last more than 20 seconds because I bail out. I am not confident enough to continue. my major problem, which i have mentioned before, is "negative interpretation of ambiguous events"
if a girl looks at the floor, I feel like she doesn't like me and doesn't want me talking to her
if a girl scratches her head, I feel like she doesn't like me
if a girl doesn't scratch her head, I feel like she doesn't like me
if a girl laughs, I feel like she is making fun of me.
if a girl doesn't laugh, I feel like she doesn't like me.
I try to find the most negative interpretation for everything. of course, it's all subconscious, I dont do it intentionally.

when talking to a girl, I also feel like I am way too focused on myself.

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I have not failed 10,000 times. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work. - Edison

Just ignore whatever vibes you're picking up and keep talking unless she specifically tells you to shut up. You're too self conscious.

And yeah, people typically like talking about themselves.

Why do you want a girl?

^^Your answer to that question, will be a big clue to why you haven't got anywhere