I agree with you on the adversarial and rude part, and I don't want to encourage this in the future.

The previous night she wanted me to tell her what was up after sex but I was tired. She said she felt annoying and needy by keeping asking me. I told her in the morning.

But the fact that she just said to me "I am glad you told me, now I want you on top of me. Seriously I am going to explode before sunday"

shows me she took this not in the way you are saying?

Right. So why care when she says you're not arnold?

Are you seriously saying that you cared about the size of the dude's she fucked and you're not insecure? Come on...

Why would you care?

You have given THOUGHT to how big the guys she fucked are. That's insecurity or gayness. It's nothing else.

You would dump a girl if she THINKS you have a small dick? Really? And you're not insecure? If her perception of you makes you want to dump her then what is that?

Whenever a guy is THAT curious about something, he's being insecure. If you didn't care, why ask?

And to your last post, yes, doesn't seem like she is seeing it as insecure. As I said, you're very lucky. But don't think that this is something the majority of girls wont see through and lose attraction for you over it. She sounds like she has a lot of growing up to do. You both do. If she was a normal 21 yr old she'd put 2+2 together and think "why is he bringing up dicks so much...he must be insecure. And now he's acting pissed over this shit. Not manly." But just because you're getting away with it doesn't mean it's good. The next girl will be smarter and will lose attraction for you when you keep asking them about who they fucked.

Why ask? WEll I would bet that since I shared details of my past, and we went one after another, that she saw it as being open and it was all posed as funny stuff. She was more like "I dont wanna hear this!" and I was more like I dont give a shit just tell me a funny experience like I am telling you. Then the convo naturally progressed from her stories and mine to tit size, dick shape ect all stupid stuff that were mentioned off the cuff.

From a few of these stories I kinda had a window into her past like that. And fuck yes im insecure but now I know I can just relax.

What would you reccommend I do from here to never appear insecure? So I got lucky, but just never mention the past again? What should I say if she mentions that convo again? Should I just play it off like I was being goofy, or play it off like I was fishing to see if she had an STD (which is a legitimate concern, not something that I would say is INSECURE)

Do you understand what I am saying tho? As hurtful as it might have been in the moment, I misdirected her with stories of my past. For every dick comment about her experience, there was an equal and opposite tit comment. For instance I mentioned size of girls in my past and she would comment, then she did the same and we'd sort of step back and give our thoughts on whatever subject it might have been.

So penis size or shape was just one topic we candidly spoke of. We spoke of things people said in bed and laughed a bit.

Do you see how the dynamic wasn't as obvious as you might think