was dressed up in nice boots and jeans and sunglasses, but my shirt was kinda cheap and my shirt and baseball cap did not match the rest of my clothes. anyway, i went into a coffee shop, looked for where the women are through the window before walking in. in line for the cashier, two korean girls behind me and a punk man in front with a belt with bullets. i planted my feet, had my trunk not quite facing the girls, but not my full back to them either, i turned around smiled and said hi how are you briefly and turned right back. they just gave me a brief glance. i made small talk with the punk guy with the belt. then i sat down at a seat where there were two empty seats next to it so the korean girls maybe or another pair of gfs would take it i would hope. well the koreans chose those two seats next to me out of all places. i made conversation with them. just said hi how are you and smiled. they said hi back, the one closer to me turned her back toward me and continued talking to her friend kinda blocking me out. but then she started fidgeting and doing her hair and make up kind of like IOIs. i asked them how long they were here in the usa and looked at them and waited and listened while they talked. i told them the thing to do in this area is go dancing and told them a little about the dancing i do. they looked at me and their english was bad so i laughed with them about it, kinda using the flirting skills i learned during the social dancing. i asked them what they wanted to become when they were done with college. and then said that yes those are good jobs. i left at the same time as them, and the one who sat closer to me and gave me the IOIs, she was giving me a proximity IOIs standing near me while we were walking away, i said, "do you need someone to practice English with?" and she smiled and said "of course" i said "i will practice with you" with a playful look on my face and a smile, but i freaked out and just kept walking away putting my used plate back on my way out. they did not linger on to talk to me, they walked right out. before i walked away i asked where they were going and they said back to school. i could have at least email closed them, but i was feeling anxious and afraid of hitting on them too hard and chasing them. anyway, i am so avoidant of closing and dont actually believe any woman want to hook up with me and never believe that women are interested with me and so pessimistic, i dunno. i really have a lot of work to do.

also today i am going to sleep instead of going out to a bar, because i have to work tomorrow, and i really think i need to exercise in the mornign and work out to feel better and be more attractive to women.

bought new shoes. got dressed up and went around town doing errands. said hi to 10 women through out the day and got most of them to say hi back. talk to an elderly woman at starbucks. i was dressed up today. not sure why no women at starbucks sat next to me today.

started going to a Martial Arts class. i told them i am out of shape and don't want to pull or injury myself - i just want to warm up my body so i can start working out in a few weeks and feel good. it is like Tae Kwon Do but a little different martial arts class. they had me do breathing and stretching and also do poses where i kind of squat a little on my knees which is hard. i did not injury anything over the week that i did it and also i feel very good and my posture has improved. i feel stronger and taller on my feet and more confident. also when i went to the hip hop group class i started doing the at breathing/stretching exercise like tai chi before the class started and women noticed it right away. one woman said hi and tried to make small talk with me, then the class started. i hate yoga and this martial arts exercise is much more reasonable and better than aerobics or just traditional stretching. also a woman who i made small talk with a few months ago in the hip hop class who comes every week there (i come once every month or two) said hi and touched me and i touched her back and said hi and then i waled out with her and we were putting our shoes on and talking and then talked while we walked down the street. she is married i think and has a daughter, but it's good that i am making friends at the hip hop class. it paid off that i said hi to this woman several moths ago! also at the martial arts classes, many classes are all girls, and there is usually just one or two guys there. and i like how i come to the martial arts class and i am there to learn the poses and do the exercises and so is everyone else. the instructor tells me what to do and i tell him how i am doing. there is not pressure to become friends with people, we are all there to exercise and i do not try to make friends, but eventually i will. we are not there to socialize, but socializing is easier and less pressure and it is a more positive vibe if we do talk. and it is way easier and it brings up you up, rather than brings you down like at a bar. also i had a message from a girl on okcupid, i replied and never heard back. then a fat 19 yo girl messaged me and i messaged her back and she said she is still in high school. i am like 5 years older than she is. i am not sure it is safe for me to go on a date with her or see her because i cannot handle it socially. what if she comes to my house and harasses me where i live? also her okcupid profile says she goes to psychotherapy. maybe is should avoid her. i dunno. but i will try to get a date with her anyway - any experience is better than no experience.

I met a girl while social dancing. I invited her to a BBQ at some point over the summer at my house. She invited me to a party at her house and also a show that she is playing in a band. I went to the show. She keeps coming up and trying to talk to me and I feel like I am letting her down and just too shy and afraid to talk to her because I don't feel like I am her friend or know how to be friendly without being weird. Oh well. Maybe next time I will try to do something riskier like come up and talk to her about something and give her a hug.

So the girl who I met while social dancing and who invited me to her music show, is not replying anymore to my facebook message.

In the meantime, my aunt set me up with a 22 yo girl who is the daughter of a relative's gf. Nice girl, a little plump though. My family had a dinner at a restaurant where we were arranged to meet for the first time. I was supposed to meet her and talk to her in front of my whole family. I just made natural conversation when I met her, I said hi and we sat together (my family arranged it for us to sit next to each other) and at first I did not talk to her. She talked to my aunt most of the time. Then when I felt like I naturally had something to say or ask, I did and I mostly listened because she talks a lot. I told her about where I went to college after high school and where I worked and where I work now and how I went to a lot of nightclubs and how I went out dancing while I was out of work for a few months. She was dressed in a mini skirt and she played with her hair at one time during out conversation, but I did not get a sense that she likes me. I did not try to flirt with her and did not come on strong, but I did turn toward her with my chair at one time and also tried to be a little playful with my eyes and my smile when I talked to her when it came sort of naturally. I was afraid to hit on her or flirt with her in front of my family, because that might make her uncomfortable or offend her and make me look like a jerk/idiot in front of my family. My grandmother and my aunt said I did everything well during the dinner and that I talked with her and talked with everyone and did everything like you are supposed to do in that situation. When she was leaving, I asked if she has facebook and she gave me her name and I did not write it down I said I will remember it, and then my aunt says "do you have a cell phone [to take the girl's info] the girl took out a piece of paper and wrote down her name for me. I thought it would look too desperate and overzealous to jump and take down her info. So then I get home at midnight after the dinner and my cousin who was at the dinner too and he is still in high school says he already friended the girl over fb and he was asking why i did not friend her yet myself. my sister also sent the girl a fb request but she never accepted it lol. I waited 2-3 days and sent her a fb request. She accepted. I sent her a fb message a few days after that saying, "Hey. I had fun at the restaurant." and she never replied. My family says why can't I just date her for a little while and blames me for not pursuing this girl. I asked my aunt and my grandmother to set me up with other girls, but they say they dont know anyone else and that this girl is awesome and that I am unmotivated to date and too picky.

I have not been dressing up or going out much.I am thinking of getting a car, but don't want to go into debt or increase my expenses. I am still working at my job, and although I am not confident about my long term employment security, the money is good right now, but I am not building my savings fast enough to get a car any time soon.

I get really depressed on my days off and I don't meet women other than at social dancing sometimes and most of these women seem unavailable for friendship or dating. I have trouble getting up before 845am on days off. It helps to go outside when I woke up and do my martial arts poses/stretches which makes me feel better. Let me see if I can be more productive today, maybe even go to the mall and get some new clothes.

I was wearing new shoes, ironed shorts, and designer sun glasses that look good on me. A girl I've met three years ago who I am friends with (but we meet 1-3 times a year and never talk much), she sees me walking on the street and she calls me. I come and talk to her. She asks about girls. I was honest and told her I have not had dates since January and never get past 1-2nd date because if you don't fuck the girls on the first date, they lose interest. She says she does not know if she will ever find someone, she'd like a relationship, but she does not care if she is single for the rest of her life if she does not find someone she likes. She says she is leaving the country in a few months. She says I should find a girl who dances (like I do, and this one she does not dance) and when I meet a girl she will not tell me how many guys she slept with and I will have no idea. She tells me about her male friends and that she went on a few dinner dates. Then she says "hey do you wanna fuck?" and I thought she was asking if I wanted to fuck in general so I felt shy but wanted to say the word fuck back so i said "of course i wanna fuck who does not" I kept being shy and she was taking the lead the whole time. I asked if she was into guys or girls and she said definitely guys. She said "hey what do you say we should go on a date" and I said "yeah i wanna ask you out. lets go see a movie" and she said "oh no it would ruin our friendship" so I agreed that it would ruin our friendship. Then I was thinking I should kiss her, but I was too shy so I did not do it. I wanted this girl and never thought she liked me. I was surprised. I felt tense like we are on the verge of the nuclear war. I gave her a hug and got her number and said we should see a movie. She invited me to some events and said the movie will have to be in at least 2-3 weeks. I texted her the next day inviting her to a movie or to meet for a snack after she was free that night, but she replied at first then stopped replying. fuck my life lol.

talked to an older kind of ugly woman at a coffee shop. she really liked me. i got her number. we had a date. i kissed her which was good practice for me. she sent me a text reply two days later saying she does not think she will go out with me anymore.

Some results to report!

1)Got a date with an older kinda ugly woman who was nice and had a nice face so I kissed her and touched her leg on the date. It was kind of nice. She rejected me for a second date though. Here's the detail: I sat down at the local coffee shop (not a chain shop like Starbucks where people are unfriendly), next to a woman. I drank my tea. Then when I was getting up my body had to naturally open up and pass her face on in order for me to go to the trash can, so as I was going to the trash can I looked at her and smiled and said 'hi how are you?" and kept going. When I came back she said "i'm good how are you." I asked her questions whatever I was sincerely curious about and she was really nice and kept asking me questions too. My sister was at the same coffeeshop and happened to see me and texted me "she likes you. ask for her number!" so I said "what is your number?" and she gave me her number. She said I should dial it and I did. She began to leave so I said "hang out with you soon. see you soon" while smiling and she was smiling and left. I told her about the dancing while at the coffee shop do and then invited her to a dance over texting and she showed up. She was wearing lipstick and a dress and that's how I figured this was a date. She was weird. She got winded and dizzy while dancing so she could not dance lol but I wanted to keep dancing. She said she is going to go get something to eat on her own but that she wants me to keep dancing and while we were in line getting ice cream (i bailed out of the dance to hang out with her, even though she was trying to shake me off), she was not standing with me in line, but way ahead of me. I kept tagging along and we sat down and had ice cream together and she offered me hers and I tried hers to break the ice and get us closer together and advance things towards holding hands/kissing/hugging. We walked together and I bumped/rubbed by hand/shoulder against hers because we were walking side to side just naturally our arms brushing and she did not withdraw so i took that as compliance. Then i took her hand and she did not withdraw and kept smiling and kept holding my hand back and seemed to enjoy it and i enjoyed it too. then i walked her through my house to my car but we did not go into my apartment because i did not really offer and she kind of said she did not want to. (she did ask me if i lived alone before though which i took as indicator of interest in hooking up). i was just showing her my car. then we agreed i might as well give her a ride because she was going home as it was late. while i was driving her i was unsure of where to go even though the ride was simple ( i am a new driver, just got a car), and she said we can just ride around because she is enjoying it. then when i parked i turned on music. and we just sat together and i let my arm drop and touch her leg and looked at her at some points and she did not withdraw her leg from my arm. so i ended up kissing her neck and cheeck and kind of kissed her on the mouth (just sucked on her lip). she said she is shy. i dont know how to kiss and i dont want to drive away a girl by kissing her to awkwardly right away.. she also was not really letting me kiss her lips, but she said i was really good and asked if i read the game by neil strauss and i said yes and it does not work and the PUA guys are mostly not looking just for sex and acutally want gfs and that the PUA coaches dont date or get laid and dont have female friends. she said oh how interesting. she also asked if i took a class in kissing a girls neck because she really liked and it was giving her goosebumps she said. i am not sure if she was flirting or lying or saying the truth. anyway. that was my date. her leg was not really fresh shaven so i did not really enjoy it. i did enjoy the kissing and the conversation and overall it was the first time i kissed a girl in my car. i texted her to hang out after to days and she said i am an intriguing guy, but she will not go out with me again and also that she is much older than i am. i was disappointed but its ok i guess cuz she is not pretty enough for me and she dresses haphazardly.

2) met a woman at a social dance. i wasnt sure if we were friends or not, she bailed out from talking to me to go talk to her friend. but we kind of talked and seemed to enjoy each others dancing (i am a talented solo dancer) so i friended her on fb and she kept replying to my messages and said she wants me to invite her with me when i go dancing and eventually she invited me to go out dancing with her and her friends (4 females and one bf). i met her at the night club. i had a dinner and she sat and talked to me. i danced in the circle with them. also brushed and bumped and hugged her kind of at times and made eye contact and we talked mouth to ear and also face to face with our foreheads touching and eyes looking into each other which felt good. i did that by standing with my feet planted (not leaning 'pecking' into her) and her talking right into my ear. then i turned my head against her face and she kept talking and did not withdraw and then looked into her eyes while she was talking and we just kept talking like that a few times. also i have this problem. i am a jerk to other people in my group who dance. for example when dancing in the circle i think i make everyone else in the group feel bad because i show them how so much better i am at solo dancing then they are so they feel bad about themselves and dont have fun dancing anymore and then resent me. also i confuse people but dancing near them and looking at them but then not dancing with them. so they dont know if i am dancing with them or not and i keep avoid dancing with them but keep trying but not dancing with them. they probably hate me for that lol. also one of her friends gave me her hand to twirl her and instead of focusing on making the twirl the best for her, i twirled myself too at the same time and we collided and it was an awkward fail and she said thats not what she wanted and there was not enough space for us to do that there. i figured out what she wanted and kind of forced her to do it because after the first fail she was not interested anymore. i twirled her successfully after that too. but the girls were not very nice to me in the group. they did dance under my arms as i had my arms up in the air for a while. but at the end they went into the crowd to "dance with their friends" i bailed out after that. the girl who invited liked my fb pictures the next day so i am assuming she is still talking to me despite me being so hostile to people while dancing. also this woman is pretty, but she is three years older than i am. i keep dating older women. i think its like a low self esteem and confindence issue. my goal is to learn to get dates with younger women too. i think i have an issue with younger women - me imagining i am too old and awkward and feeling like i need an excuse to date a younger woman.

3) people keep saying i am a very talented dancer! i have not taken many formal classes since i only started dancing two years ago, but i wonder how i can get the most out of this talent of mine.

4) i joined the gym. i am just gonna do ellyptical/exercise bike/and my martial arts standing poses and stretching for now. lifting machines will make my muscles slow i think, despite i might injure myself if i start lifting right away

5) also a woman i know from dancing replied to my question by saying we should take the dance class i am signing up for together with her, i said 'dont you have stuff going on every day?" "she said yes so she will have to shuffle her priorities' and i said "Sounds good. Let me know when your schedule opens up and you have some free timeforawaltz lesson.I'm preparing for my dads bray thissu day but anytime after that I am all yours." she replied "ok!" and i have not heard in a couple of days and i am assuming she is just stringing me along and not really planning to take a class with me. a year ago, she invited me to a party and then never replied to my message asking her where it was. thats why this time i said she should let me know when she has time, other than asking her if she can go on a certain date. lets see if this works. this one is a very affectionate woman who dance and dresses well, but she is two or three years older than i am and a little on the plump. but still attractive.

Good news!

1. I kissed a girl for a while! That was my first real kiss. I did not like it at first, but I got better at it and could initiate it by the end She said she was glad I am a good kisser, but I am not sure if she was lying or not, cause I have like almost no experience with it.

2. A girl Ive kept running into for a year in mutual dance related events invited me to her house and showed me her bedroom. I did not make a move because I was not sure I would know how to kiss her lol. But we are meeting again next week, so now with the kissing experience with girl #1, I will be able to initiate a kiss and be more physical

3. Girl 1 and Girl #2 are still returning my messages.

4. I canceled the date when we kissed because I had a sore throat and runny nose from a cold virus and she said it is ok and I should go anyway. She was ok with catching the cold virus to kiss me! She gave me permission, I dont know what she was thinking!

This both happened after a dance lesson we went to together as a date (except I wasnt sure it was a date or not until afterward).

This means I can now initiate kissing with girls. Also I've been driving the used car I bought and driving is like a new life opening to me that I did not know about while taking public transportation all the time. I could not have had the dates with the two girls without a car. Both times we tagged along with me driving behind them from one place to another.

Also this month is two years after I started this blog in June 2010. A couple of things that have helped me start to find and kiss this girl were:

I got more comfortable with kino with women by doing hugs and kissing girls on the cheek with girls I was friendly or on a date with.
I met both girls through dancing, where I went to dance and enjoy myself and I never expected to get a date with either of them. I initiated with both girls - I facebook friended Girl 1 even though I talked to her for only a few minutes and she bailed out of the convo. We ended up talking on fb a lot. She said she wants to dance more. Both girls enjoy dancing and want to do it more. Also I dressed up. Also I did the group therapy, and I became a lot more pleasant to talk to and also less hostile/unfriendly to people, a little less of a jerk and less arogant (more aware of my arrogance which women dont like) and I got better at sharing my thoughts and trying to not fish for approval. Also I got a car! I have a job and make good money. Also I live on my own. Also I've been out to a lot of dance venues and shows and classes of different sorts so women know I have a social life (even though I dont have really any friends) and I have something interesting to offer that they can join in. Also I know I will keep meeting girls and getting a date once in a while (be it a few times a year even) so I am not as desperate for a girl as I used to be. Also I am better at figuring out if this is a date and if it is ok to get physical with a girl.

It's been four months since my last post. I have had sex with a girl basically we got naked, but no penetration (I did not want to take risk of stds and did not think I'd enjoy it so much that it'd be worth the risk). This was a girl I met at a social dance, she started acting like she was my gf, and I just went along with it and invited her to my place after the dance. Then I we went on a few dates , got naked again and kissed and she did everything (but no penetration, that was our agreement). Then she broke up with me, so now I am just shut down and I ignore her and just mumble whenever she says hi to me at a dance (we still go to the same dances).

Also, I went to a social event for people who went to this 6 wk acting class I took and I talked to a fatty there and got her number and we went on two dates (movie and then a pool at a cafe). She emailed me, but I never replied as I would feel uncomfortable doing sexual things with her but not wanting to see her naked (I'd want to kiss her or get bj, but I don't want to do anything else and I don't have the balls to tell her). Also, my dad's friend's gf set me up with a girl two years younger than me and we went on a blind date, I took her to a dive bar, we played pool, then we went to a social dance and just watched, then grabbed a slice of pizza and talked. I gave her a kiss on the cheeck and said thanks, bye, and she did not give me a kiss on the cheeck back. Four days later I left her a voicemail saying if she wants to go to this poetry event or do something some other day, she texted me back saying she is busy with work and that she wishes I will have fun at the poetry event, I replied "Is there a day during the next week or two when you'd have free time?" and she never replied. My sister says whenever someone says they are busy, it means they might go on a date with you but they are really not into you. This was also a chubby girl

I was really shut down and depressed lately, especially on my days off from work (I hate them), Yesterday I was just standing in my messy room watching minutes change on the clock. I found a book talk at a book store, ironed a shirt that matches my JCrew pants, dressed up in a nice coat and just went there. After the book talk I drove to a music band at a bar, it was a very old crowd, no one young. I had dinner. While going out by myself, I ended up talking to several people - a woman in her fourties talked to me about the weather outside, a girl on the bus stop with a wedding ring talked to me about waiting for the buses (I told her about the book talk I went to - see going to events gives you stuff to tell people!), and a guy maybe a few years older sat next to me at the bar and also got dinner and we had a conversation as he is a musician in a band - without really even trying other than just placing myself near people, being well dressed, and available to talk (not isolating myself from the crowd logistically).

I am kind of passive and depressed right now, barely wanting to date, not really wanting anything. I just live alone, sometimes see my family or talk on the phone, I have not made any friends other than one or two people at the social dances I talk to occasionally while at the dance. I am upset I am getting older and not really utilizing myself. Ive been making efforts to go to the gym, but only once a week, and just cannot get started exercising regularly. I don't know which exercise program to join. I've also been doing my CBT exercises on and off, cleaning my apartment on and letting it get messy, and going out to a show on and off.

I have felt shut down and pessimistic and worthless about dating, keeping a safe distance from women emotionally. And I have not talked to any new women, had not initiated with women (except smiling and saying 'hi how are you?' To a few women who sat next to me at a coffeeshop or out on the street) and had no dates since February.

The reason I felt so shut down was because a) i have horrible social anxiety and feel stressed out, self obsess, say/think weird things, keep my feelings of discomfort and stress to myself afraid it will drive the girl away, and generally felt broken down and ashamed about being so incompetent at being friends/dating/doing anything together (with another person who is not my family) whenever I am on a date with a girl. So in february i had one girl kiss me but then say she "cannot go there with me" and then soon after I started avoiding that girl, another girl hooked up with me several times (she is in my February post) and she told me "I think you have not had much luck with women in your life and so you are wondering why I would like you." She also said that she is stronger than I am because she has to lift things at work. When she broke up with me by text message, we ran into each other at an event and she kept showing up near me and boasting about her boyfriend so I could over hear it. She then texted me saying she was sorry for being mean by boasted about her boyfriend, but next time I ran into her she mentioned that she was camping with.. her boyfriend again.

The girls boyfriend is a short bald man with glasses (like George Kastanzaon Seinfeld!!!) and the is 16 years older than she is. Did she like me because she goes for bald unattractive men? I am bald too, but I am in my mid twenties and not short.

Ive had no friends at school all my life and was always staring at the classroom watching other kids talk to each other in groups and me always being ashamed about being so visibly alone, also kids teased me a lot in fifth grade and in summer camp and my mom/grandmother/aunt have been very critical and despised my father and the women in my family have been strong, controlling, bitchy and domineering and I was basically treated like I was inferior at home and teased, isolated at school. Also my family is afraid of people and whenever invite anyone home (my mom is a hoarder) and so noone in my family knows or wants to have any outside friends. So me being afraid of physically touching women, for me to go along with the girl in February and get naked and kiss was a major step forward!

Last week I went to a social dance bar and had a small conversation with a girl about our jobs. She lost interest and started talking to her friends and that was it.

Last night I went to a night club and even though girls kept dancing in front of me, I was afraid to lean in and talk or to take their hand and spin them or start grinding because I was afraid of being rude, making the uncomfortable, doing something without their permission, approaching without making sure they like me, making a fool of myself, did not want my feeling to get hurt and I was intimidated by all the huge dudes in the club walking around staring and trying to grind girls, afraid of making the other guys jealous, or the girls being bitchy or complaining to the bouncer.

I said hi to a girl at the coffeeshop a few different times. I looked away immediately and proceeded to read my book.
Girls smile back usually because I have a warm smile. Too bad I did not converse with them. I assumed they were not interested or they would ask me something or show an interest if they wanted conversation.

So I just sent the February girl a message asking if I can meet with her to tell her that she was mean and that I felt hurt. I feel optimistic and energetic again!

By the way. when I was feeling shut down after the February girl, I took a risk and started a new job. I still make good money, but this job is a step forward and more stable, I am actually part time at my previous hob as well. So financially at the moment I am doing much better than ALL the girls Ive dated so far. The February girl makes half as much as I do and pays rent, whereas I dont pay rent and dont have any bills at all!

Do I met up with the girl who dumped me in February and told her everything I think about her and how bad i felt and so on and finished by saying that I dont wanna be friend with her and that we are not friends and that she is a little crazy and some things about her freak me out. I am starting to heal. My dad noticed today my voice sounds more upbeat.

So after doing three years of group therapy and going to work and trying to go out, I notice I am much better at talking to people , I smile more, and make more eye contact. Problem is I dont have new people to talk to. My field reports are a handful of "hi how are you? Smile." At coffeeshops and a few short conversations. Strangers still dont want to talk to me for very long. Its like a curse I cannot shake no matter how hard I work at it!

I smiled and very quietly mumbled " hi how are you?" To a asian girl at a coffeeshop who was sitting next to me. She forced a smile and said hi, did not say anything else, went to work on her notebook and put headphones into her ears. I said hi to a rich, pretty woman working on an essay as she was leaving two hours later, the woman smiled and was nice, but first thing she said was that her boyfriend is picking her up, I said thank you for talking to me and she said we are supposed to be a community and people are afraid to talk to each other anymore. So great, first she wants me to know she has a bf, then she says she talks to me for the sake of community, not because she isi interested in talking to me individually.

At work though, girls cant wait to try to talk to me ad compete with each other for who can seduce me. Too bad I cannot date any of them because I work with them and I need this job.

I did meet with the girl who dumped me in February and told her everything I think and feel about her and said good bye and now I feel michbetter that I got some closure finally. I am not feeling so shut down anymore. She actually liked that I had things to say to her. Turned out she lied tome when we had our dates. Back then I suspected shewas onthe rebound and I asked if she dated anyone recently and she said no shehasnot dated anyone recently. Low ndbehold she now admits that she stopped dating someone andthe. Startedgoing out with me right away. So I did get used as a rebound guy. She did say she was attracted to me, whichwas nice to hear. I told her I think she is a little crazy andsome things a out her freak me out.

I asked a girl at a coffeeshop what she was stidying and then commented about how bright the sun was inthe window onmy seat. She replied both times but did not ask me anything back or volunteer any additional talking, so I took I gave up and took that as a completed conversation.