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PostPosted: Mon Aug 19, 2013 3:21 pm 
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Hatred, the motivator.
When I succumb to hate, I mean really let go stop resisting and just let it engulf me, I tend to be very very motivated and get shit done.

Same with Love.

However when something breaks that link I have the motivation is gone and I just don't care. Or when the situation seems utterly hopeless.

I've been pretty unmotivated for a while cause everytime I fall in love it's never returned. I met girls, maybe even fuck them, and then they go cold. I just get frustrated and angry, but not hateful. I feel hopeless.


A lot of times I feel like no matter how much money I make or what I do with my life career wise I'm going to have issues with girls. This makes me really really depressed. I've tried many many times to become and emotionless being and just not give a fuck about girls. But all those attempts failed. I still care. I still have feelings. I still love Amy. But there's nothing I can do to win her over. I still love Ashley but she wont even talk to me. I try to move on and find someone else, even just to fuck and it just doesn't work out. I don't get laid very often. I don't find girls I wanna date. I meet someone and shit gets fucked up and I'm back to zero again, with no one.

Right now I don't know a single girl I could call that's single and even remotely interested in me. I've exhausted many resources and now I'm broke. Even online I'm apparently banned from plenty of fish and OKCupid. That coffee shop in cleveland? Horrible rumors about how much of a fucking weirdo, creep, asshole, etc. I am. The bars in the area, not working out for me either.

It certainly puts a toll on my state of mind. I try to keep busy so I wont think about it. I just get depressed. Then I go out and meet someone new and it doesn't work out. Occasionally I'll have some random semi successful night but it's just a fucking illusion. The girl goes cold later. I'm really bad at this.


I don't want to succumb to hatred but women are really pissing me the fuck off. They're so rude all the fucking time. I don't get it. You have to be fake and retarded to get laid or.... fuck. I'm tired.

I've been looking and searching day after day for something to occupy my time that I'd just love. Something I can get lost in and I just feel horrible all the time. My video games are no longer fun. The music I listen to dull. Playing the piano a chore. Everything I used to like I just don't enjoy anymore. I'm tired and worn out... I just want to die. Then I read all this pick up shit and it doesn't help me. It just makes things worse.

People tell me to cheer up and be more confident but I'm not confident. I'm not going to be. Girls don't like me. I'm not happy either. Sitting at home doing all the stuff I used to is no longer fun. Going outside is terrifying, I see couples. Hot chicks walking around with dudes and then try not to think about it but I do anyway and I feel like shit. I try to go skate and keep to myself and then I feel lonely. I want to die. I really wish I didn't have to live this life anymore.

Everyone hates me.
My brother tells me all these stories about how all these girls are after him and wanna fuck him etc. etc. and people buy him drinks at the bar and think he's so awesome and shit. People look at me like I'm some fucking disease when I just say hello. I'm tired. Hearing him say how great and easy his life is just makes me feel worse. I want to fucking die.

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PostPosted: Fri Aug 23, 2013 3:19 am 
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I'm still tired of girls.
They aren't into me and it's very exhausting emotionally. This Pick up shit never actually works and it's not fun either. It's just really frustrating.

I've come to terms with the idea that girls just aren't into me.
The people on this site tend to piss me the fuck off a lot of times... I'm just very tired of everything.

Amy, she's not into me. Never will be. Whatever. I don't fucking care.
Then there's that ugly chick who's all on my nuts. I find her irritating...
Then there's the slutty girl I fucked that decided to treat me like shit. I told her to back the fuck off with that shit and now she doesn't care to talk to me anymore. Oh the fuck well.

I'm tired. There was Gela, that didn't work out. Before her it was Jen, that didn't work out. There's Tyler, which isn't working out. Emma, didn't work out. Bryttney who claims she wants to come over here but never does. I'm tired of this shit. Nothing works. Girls just aren't into me.


So I've been busy getting that whole school thing back together. And I'm waiting for transcripts right now... I don't have much to keep me busy anymore. I'm bored and tired and frustrated. I've been watching Transformers Energon [not sure exactly where I left off last, but whatever]. I like Megatron's sarcasm.

I haven't left my house all day today. I just don't want to run into any girls. I didn't wanna think about it. But then some girl I met yesterday [who has a boyfriend] called me up and started talking to me. I hung up on her at some point cause she started giving me advice about girls and I just don't want to think about it. I'm done.

I get it. Girls don't fucking like me. I just don't wanna bother wasting my time anymore. I keep getting hurt and it just hurts more and worse each time. Especially since shit never gets better. Plus I start thinking about suicide.

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PostPosted: Mon Aug 26, 2013 3:07 am 
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Fuck it, here's another field report...
Friday on such and such date around blah blah blah blah blah blah.

Date: 8, 17, 7DD [ha!!! you thought it was a decimal based date when really it's hexidecimal haha!!!, but the 8 is still 8. 17 on the other hand... that's 23].

Wandered out the house bored. Kinda annoyed with this one girl who kept trying to get me advice when I didn't wanna hear that shit. She was trying so hard to tell me how to talk to chicks. At one point I said "Look, I don't fucking care. I don't want dating advice. People advice is generally pramatic and it sucks dick. I just wanna be me. If girls aren't into me oh the fuck well, there's better shit to do. Like being me and being comfortable being me."

Anyway I left the house and stopped talking to that bitch...

And I wondered and ended up down town where some dudes were drinking booze in the park and shared it with me. Then I wondered off and found a pack of cigs with half the cigs still in there. sweet. and I wondered more aimless for the most part and ran into this hippie chick who had an accordian. She was cute, so I started talking to her.

I don't know what I said really just that I walked up to her and started talking without really thinking about it.
We talked for a while and she mentioned she was upset cause she was trying to go to Canadia. Blah blah blah we talked and bsed for a while and then decided to walk to my house.

She asked if she could sleep on the couch. I said sure and was being shy about shit but eventually asked when she crashed if I could sleep with her and she said no. Fuck it I just went to sleep.

Next day we went to belle isle and hung out for a while. I was kinda shy about wanting to fuck her brains out but oh well. I was being myself and felt better than I have in a long time. We got back to my place and I texted that I wanted to fuck her brains out [not verbatim]. She said she was gay but really enjoyed my company. I said I was taking a nap and I liked her company too but also thought she was hot and wanted to stick my dick in her, but oh well.

She spent the night again and then left this morning. Sunday morning.


So today i wondered around and met some really hot chick while I was roller blading and she was skateboarding. We talked for a bit and it was going really well. Then we exchanged numbers and hung out some more. We started making out when she asked how old I was. I said I'd be 30 in october and she laughed and said I was twice her age. I did the math and was like... "oh... Well then..." And that kinda sucked balls.

And now I'm at home. Been meaning to think back to all the girls I've fucked and look at how many of them I don't regret... well not really regret but the ones I really liked. I mean I'm not gonna do this whole numbers game anymore. I' just gonna go after girls I like rather than ones I think I can fuck.

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Fuck...
I hate bullshit advice e.g. you have to love yourself before anyone else can love you.
To me this says you don't fucking know what to say and want to sound like you know what the fuck you're talking about. This is one of the biggest cop out horse shit lines I've ever heard. Who the fuck hates them self?

Not me.

I'm annoyed. I'm frustrated. Shit's not working out with girls in my life and so on. Can't find a fucking job either.
I had a bad fucking day and felt like complete shit. It wasn't even cause of that day. But people act like that's not allowed. I'm not allowed to feel depressed or feel down. I'm not allowed to be unhappy. I can't vent about it blah blah blah. Fuck them. I'm having a bad fucking week.


Some girl called me creepy. I've been hearing that since high school by a lot of girls. I don't know why the fuck they say that. I wouldn't care if it was just once in a while or some shit but seriously I don't know what the fuck I'm doing to get that impression. Oh well right. So this girl who said it prevented me from being able to work at a job I thought I'd landed because she told the boss she thinks I'm creepy. So now he doesn't want me to work there... Now that's another job I can't work at cause of some dumb bitch. So of course I'm upset.

Then there's that Amy thing. I don't wanna be friends with her if she's not into me. It hurts to be friends with this girl. I'm in love with this girl and she just wants to be friends. She fucking dumped me to go out with someone else.... But fuck, it's really hard to just push her away for good too.


There isn't much working out right now and girls keep putting me down. They don't wanna talk to me.

I get a number make out with some girl and she never calls or wants to hang out.
People act like I'm not allowed to let that upset me. It just keeps happening over and over again. Of course I'm going to be fuckign upset. I'm fucking human... what the fuck is wrong with people? Seriously

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PostPosted: Tue Sep 10, 2013 10:21 am 
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Tonight in the chat room people just acted like there's something horribly wrong with me for being upset... Which doesn't help anyone. It'll just make someone more upset if you treat them like they're not allowed to be upset in the first place.

Later I was on face book and an old friend from high school was talking to me. She could tell I was upset and she asked me what was up and listened and didn't really offer advice as much as listen to what was wrong and empathize with it. Not agreeing for the sake of agreeing. Then she offered objective constructive advise rather than abstract mumbo jumbo [Cause seriously if a guy is upset about girls and confused why would you saying abstract confusing mumbo jumbo that doesn't make any sense?]. Then we just talked for a bit about something else and I didn't feel so bad anymore.

She somewhere in there asked what my interests were and mentioned how they're things to talk about and so on.


It made me think about the 3 days I spend in the hospital after a suicide attempt.
I was only still alive cause it was my own choice first of all. While I was there the Dr. kept asking me questions accusingly and was in disbelief said "Why would you want to kill yourself?!". It felt like a put down and an insult. When he asked his questionnaire I only answered the questions as a means to get him to go away and leave me alone. I felt accused and very uncomfortable around him. His bedside manner sucked ass.

Later the first nurse was the same as him. Same with the Psychiatrist who asked me questions. None of them had Empathy. None of them could stop and think for just a second that others don't think the same way they do and might think about things differently. They tried to understand, but never stopped to think or try to feel what I'm feeling it seemed. And they were all very judgmental and accusing.

Then a day later I got a new nurse. Unlike the previous one she didn't ask biting accusing questions or treat me like I'm some worthless loser. She was nice and said she didn't know what I was going through but hoped I felt better. Then she asked me later kindly what was wrong. She didn't try to toss out statements like "you've got more to live for" or try to force ideas onto me, she seemed like she actually cared what was wrong. I told her. And she stopped and thought for a bit and said that it sounds rather rough and ask if there was anything I wanted she could get for me. I asked for a deck of cards and something to draw with. The whole time she was extremely kind and understanding.

I felt like there were great people out there and didn't feel so bad anymore.


I guess I learned you can go a long way by actually giving a fuck about how other feel. Most people just don't even seem to try...

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 Post subject: Re: The life of Chime
PostPosted: Tue Sep 10, 2013 1:39 pm 
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Tonight in the chat room people just acted like there's something horribly wrong with me for being upset... Which doesn't help anyone. It'll just make someone more upset if you treat them like they're not allowed to be upset in the first place.

Later I was on face book and an old friend from high school was talking to me. She could tell I was upset and she asked me what was up and listened and didn't really offer advice as much as listen to what was wrong and empathize with it. Not agreeing for the sake of agreeing. Then she offered objective constructive advise rather than abstract mumbo jumbo [Cause seriously if a guy is upset about girls and confused why would you saying abstract confusing mumbo jumbo that doesn't make any sense?]. Then we just talked for a bit about something else and I didn't feel so bad anymore.

She somewhere in there asked what my interests were and mentioned how they're things to talk about and so on.


It made me think about the 3 days I spend in the hospital after a suicide attempt.
I was only still alive cause it was my own choice first of all. While I was there the Dr. kept asking me questions accusingly and was in disbelief said "Why would you want to kill yourself?!". It felt like a put down and an insult. When he asked his questionnaire I only answered the questions as a means to get him to go away and leave me alone. I felt accused and very uncomfortable around him. His bedside manner sucked ass.

Later the first nurse was the same as him. Same with the Psychiatrist who asked me questions. None of them had Empathy. None of them could stop and think for just a second that others don't think the same way they do and might think about things differently. They tried to understand, but never stopped to think or try to feel what I'm feeling it seemed. And they were all very judgmental and accusing.

Then a day later I got a new nurse. Unlike the previous one she didn't ask biting accusing questions or treat me like I'm some worthless loser. She was nice and said she didn't know what I was going through but hoped I felt better. Then she asked me later kindly what was wrong. She didn't try to toss out statements like "you've got more to live for" or try to force ideas onto me, she seemed like she actually cared what was wrong. I told her. And she stopped and thought for a bit and said that it sounds rather rough and ask if there was anything I wanted she could get for me. I asked for a deck of cards and something to draw with. The whole time she was extremely kind and understanding.

I felt like there were great people out there and didn't feel so bad anymore.


I guess I learned you can go a long way by actually giving a fuck about how other feel. Most people just don't even seem to try...
Go volunteer in a charity like feeding the homeless or visiting vets in a hospital or something like that... Try it...

Also read or listen to this audiobook:


[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWJKfEWWOvc[/youtube]

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PostPosted: Wed Sep 11, 2013 3:00 am 
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Tonight in the chat room people just acted like there's something horribly wrong with me for being upset... Which doesn't help anyone. It'll just make someone more upset if you treat them like they're not allowed to be upset in the first place.

Later I was on face book and an old friend from high school was talking to me. She could tell I was upset and she asked me what was up and listened and didn't really offer advice as much as listen to what was wrong and empathize with it. Not agreeing for the sake of agreeing. Then she offered objective constructive advise rather than abstract mumbo jumbo [Cause seriously if a guy is upset about girls and confused why would you saying abstract confusing mumbo jumbo that doesn't make any sense?]. Then we just talked for a bit about something else and I didn't feel so bad anymore.

She somewhere in there asked what my interests were and mentioned how they're things to talk about and so on.


It made me think about the 3 days I spend in the hospital after a suicide attempt.
I was only still alive cause it was my own choice first of all. While I was there the Dr. kept asking me questions accusingly and was in disbelief said "Why would you want to kill yourself?!". It felt like a put down and an insult. When he asked his questionnaire I only answered the questions as a means to get him to go away and leave me alone. I felt accused and very uncomfortable around him. His bedside manner sucked ass.

Later the first nurse was the same as him. Same with the Psychiatrist who asked me questions. None of them had Empathy. None of them could stop and think for just a second that others don't think the same way they do and might think about things differently. They tried to understand, but never stopped to think or try to feel what I'm feeling it seemed. And they were all very judgmental and accusing.

Then a day later I got a new nurse. Unlike the previous one she didn't ask biting accusing questions or treat me like I'm some worthless loser. She was nice and said she didn't know what I was going through but hoped I felt better. Then she asked me later kindly what was wrong. She didn't try to toss out statements like "you've got more to live for" or try to force ideas onto me, she seemed like she actually cared what was wrong. I told her. And she stopped and thought for a bit and said that it sounds rather rough and ask if there was anything I wanted she could get for me. I asked for a deck of cards and something to draw with. The whole time she was extremely kind and understanding.

I felt like there were great people out there and didn't feel so bad anymore.


I guess I learned you can go a long way by actually giving a fuck about how other feel. Most people just don't even seem to try...
Go volunteer in a charity like feeding the homeless or visiting vets in a hospital or something like that... Try it...

Also read or listen to this audiobook:


[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QWJKfEWWOvc[/youtube]
This is sorta a response, and at the same time it's just another blog entry.

Today I was in a state where I wanted to go and enjoy something. I just wanted something to do. I looked at my roller blades, the ones I spent time and money to fix up so they were skate able again. I didn't feel like it. I just didn't want to. I looked at my skateboard and wasn't really feeling it. I felt dull and like nothing mattered... just completely uninterested in much of anything.

I went online and Harold invited me over for beers. This I actually wanted to do, but then I thought about it and realized it's the wrong direction. I remembered how long ago when I started drinking I'd sworn to never drink simply because i was upset cause I felt that's how dependency starts. I know it's great to have a strong will but it's even better to understand when yours isn't up to par for the challenge ahead and when to back down...

"...to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference...."

I feel I'm wise in deciding not to go to Harolds house when I'm upset and there's Alcohol. Today I accepted that this isn't something I should do.

So, at the time I wasn't thinking of this Serenity Prayer. I was just bored and wanted to do something. I wanted peace and enjoyment out of life. I remembered a while back when I used to feel very at peace and happy when I was at home. How relaxing it always was and what was relaxing about it. My life as a whole was pretty chill back in those days. Why? What was different?

Well, a few months back I thought of this same idea when I was feeling down and thought of how I used to play video games I really enjoyed [later this thought lead me to buy SPAM Arkham Asylum and City, which helped add to the peace]. I started watching Long plays [Longplay.org] of games I didn't have but wanted to see [Well, I watched one, Zelda Twilight Princess]. So today I figured I'd check out the LP for Skyward Sword [btw a Long play is someone else playing through the game for the purpose of someone else watching it and as a walk through of the game.].

Nothing... still felt this dull emptiness.

And so I started working out again. I feel better, but still feel down. I figured I just have to have to Courage to keep at it and change this thing right now.


I'm left to assume the comment about the Vets and such is to install some sense of purpose in my life which would make me happy or whatever. I really don't care... I just want to work on this peaceful home life.

Theory being that if I enjoy life at home it's one step closer to building a life where I can be completely alone and happy that way. it's a win win scenario to be completely happy when you're alone. Some claim that this will attract others to you... it doesn't matter if it does or doesn't cause you're happy with or without them anyway.



On another note I was watching some video of a girl talking about how to attract girls. If what she said is true that I'm not so great with girls because I'm completely disgusted by the concepts she mentioned. Just some dumb whore basically saying that all women don't know what the fuck they want and trying to explain how to pick up dumb bitches like her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0hdEXA1ceaA
The video makes me want to vomit. Lucky me I'm smart enough to understand that to use this one person as a basis to judge all other women is just as stupid and illogical as the girl in the video. Still, faith in humanity is lost while watching that video.

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She is talking about polarization, but they way she presented it was a bit confusing...

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She is talking about polarization, but they way she presented it was a bit confusing...
She's saying that stupid girls like her don't know what the fuck they want.
They way she mentions this is as if girls are horribly stupid and petty. Like they don't actually like the guys they're with they just like the idea of fixing someone who's got issues and then she suggests playing along with all this nonsense by feigning issues.

This all makes me want to vomit. I know some girls are that stupid. Personally I don't even want a girl that retarded, petty, and fake in my life.

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I've been watching Outlaw Star recently. It's almost over unfortunately... I'm on episode 20-something out of 26.
Also I start work tomorrow. I'm looking forward to eventually moving up and becoming a manager there. I just keep thinking of previous jobs where people I work with all seem to think I'm weird.

Maybe if at this one I just don't really talk to anyone unless I need to speak to them.
I haven't been making much of an attempt at all to talk to girls. Been more focused on relaxing and being at peace sorta deal. Gotta stay calm and happy.

Also today is Day one of no more smoking. So far I've been holed up in the house watching outlaw star all day. That way I wont be tempted to ask someone for a cigarette.

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I've been watching Outlaw Star recently. It's almost over unfortunately... I'm on episode 20-something out of 26.
Also I start work tomorrow. I'm looking forward to eventually moving up and becoming a manager there. I just keep thinking of previous jobs where people I work with all seem to think I'm weird.

Maybe if at this one I just don't really talk to anyone unless I need to speak to them.
I haven't been making much of an attempt at all to talk to girls. Been more focused on relaxing and being at peace sorta deal. Gotta stay calm and happy.

Also today is Day one of no more smoking. So far I've been holed up in the house watching outlaw star all day. That way I wont be tempted to ask someone for a cigarette.
If you are interested in oppinions here is mine.
You think too much what is wrong instead of what is right for you. First of all you need to understand the PickUp Art. To do those tricks and make them works you need build a process with all components included without missings. Main mistake I could figure out is one of the main components you need to do before you open someone.
Social proof. What your little brother told at your first post is actually right. But you must get it in right way. You need not just don't approach girls at all, but you also have to make them loook at you. all the time. Attract the attention. Be funny and always keep talking. make people wanting to know you. Change your style wear something attractive. If you too shy to wear a cowboy hat or boots then you can start with something light like orrange scarf or buterfly tie.
Always be an Alpha male. Alpha male - clean, funny, confident, relyble, turns on the company. Try to watch videos of PickUp in field and you will understand what is that about.


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You think too much what is wrong instead of what is right for you. First of all you need to understand the PickUp Art.
No, I don't need to understand it at all. I don't need to be a PUA. I don't need to have success with girls.
What I understand and how I solve problems is by thinking of what went wrong and correcting that mistake e.g. In the past when I've typed up a response to someone offering advice to me that I felt was a very neutral response more often than not the next thing said indicated that the one offering advice felt I was attacking him/her and being rude, cruel, insulting, etc.. Thinking of what is right for me in the given scenario offers nothing of use to help fix that particular problem. Focusing on what went wrong immediately focuses on the cause of the problem [that is the one thing that needs to be removed from the equation to get the desired results.]. In this sample, it would be people assuming that I'm being rude, cruel, ungrateful, etc..

The next step to this process is figuring out why this is happening. My assumption is that most people don't mean exactly what they say the way I attempt to do all the time [speaking "legal speak"], they often imply [this is guessed at because of the seemingly absurd, from my perspective, implications other people make about what I say and don't say e.g. The other day my dad's girlfriend assumed that I had an "attitude" after my dad said something to me [not a question or anything that needed a response] and I didn't reply... also she asked "You got an attitude?" to which I responded "I really don't like that question. Not only is it condescending and demanding but there's no real answer to it. Who's ever going to say yes? Why would you ask somebody that? And the person being asked would most likely be insulted and irritated you asked and thus have a bit of a negative attitude directed towards the person asking." She felt I had some form of attitude cause I didn't respond...

So, thing is, it's nothing personal. I just don't think that's great advice at all. I think it makes no sense at all and is of next to no use. Problems are not solved by focusing on what's right for you. Problems are solved by focusing on what's causing the problem and the solution to that.


Also I don't need to learn or understand PU. I don't really care anymore. It hasn't worked consistently. It's actually made things worse. One of the main problems is it caused a very warped mindset about the way things are which doesn't set well with what I value and thus causes vast amounts of depression and feelings of hopelessness e.g. The idea that all women are superficial, shady, untrustworthy, have a "might is right" attitude when it comes to who they're attracted to and generally value all the things I don't care as much about WHILE the things I do value women don't give two shits about those qualities within a man. THIS causes a feeling of alienation and hopelessness, as if I'm never going to find anyone on the whole of the planet that I can connect with or any girl that actually values what I value in life.

That is a very good reason to not want anything to do with Pick up. It's more stressful than anything else for me.
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Social proof. What your little brother told at your first post is actually right. But you must get it in right way. You need not just don't approach girls at all, but you also have to make them loook at you. all the time. Attract the attention. Be funny and always keep talking. make people wanting to know you. Change your style wear something attractive. If you too shy to wear a cowboy hat or boots then you can start with something light like orrange scarf or buterfly tie.
Always be an Alpha male. Alpha male - clean, funny, confident, relyble, turns on the company. Try to watch videos of PickUp in field and you will understand what is that about.
NO!!! fuck all of that. That's acting fake and attracting fake ass bitches.
I don't give a flying fuck about getting fake people. I don't give a fuck about being "alpha". I just want to live a happy life and be comfortable. I ain't trying to impress none of these motherfuckers essentially. I don't give a fuck about learning how to be a clown.

I'm not that funny, oh the fuck well.
I dress in utilitarian clothes for the most part and don't really care for most of what's in style. Most things look silly as shit to me and I'd rather wear jeans and a tee-shirt than dress like Bozo the hipster clown or Boze the emo clown etc.. That just ain't me.
Alpha.... I don't give a shit about being in charge or not. Just don't want people to fuck with me or invade my space. I'm not some jackass who's going to push people around and always have to say the most awesome shit and be the most awesome guy around for the sake of being awesome. Fuck that, I'd rather be me.

Pussy ain't worth selling my soul and pride to get. Especially if every girl in the world is a stuck up superficial bitch [as would be implied if you have to dress like a clown, act like a clown, and get a clown fan club going on in order to get laid.]. I'd rather have peace of mind and be happy being me.



My Job and my previous jobs. That's an issue for me. I know that a lot of other jobs I've had people thought I was weird and that interfered with work. You know, the money I make to make a living and survive and go somewhere with my life. Yeah, people are petty enough to fuck with your livelihood cause they think you're weird. So it's a concern and I've decided on just saying a little as possible at work and never telling jokes. Just being extra boring.



Anyway, no offense, but I don't care for your advice. I appreciate that you want to give it out and all... It's just not my thing.

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Went out last night...
I really wish I didn't. I was just reminded again that girls aren't into me. I need to work on this depression thing.
I've been trying to figure it out [and before you come in and post anything NO it's not as simple as not thinking about negative things.].

I'm not yet ready to go out, not after how things went last night. I don't really wanna talk about how last night went, just that I ended up feeling rather shitty by nights end and know it's better that I stay home than go out.

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They said there are four levels of learning:

Unconscious incompetence: You have no idea what you are doing and don't even realize it or how bad you are. This is where people start when learning something.

Conscious incompetence: You now understand how bad you are and are trying to correct it.

Conscious competence: You now get it and know what to do, but have to think about it while doing it.

Unconscious competence: You have completelty internalized the knowledge and don't even think about it as you do it.

Learning to drive a car is the most obvious example of these steps that people can relate to. Remember how stressful and unreal it was the first time you drove and how you slowly got to where you no longer think about it, but instead focus on where you are going and why, not thinking about operating the car at all.

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They said there are four levels of learning:

Unconscious incompetence: You have no idea what you are doing and don't even realize it or how bad you are. This is where people start when learning something.

Conscious incompetence: You now understand how bad you are and are trying to correct it.

Conscious competence: You now get it and know what to do, but have to think about it while doing it.

Unconscious competence: You have completelty internalized the knowledge and don't even think about it as you do it.

Learning to drive a car is the most obvious example of these steps that people can relate to. Remember how stressful and unreal it was the first time you drove and how you slowly got to where you no longer think about it, but instead focus on where you are going and why, not thinking about operating the car at all.
My experiences with learning. Things I fail at and things I succeed with.

Success examples
Mario Kart DS.
Stage one I played it by myself and could beat the computer consistently coming in 1st place. Then there was a rank shown at the end of the cups that said I was ranked B. To me, this meant I sucked ass if I could only get a B rank against the computer. So I play and get A ranks in all the cups.

I go online and win nearly all of my matches and think I'm pretty damn good and then I see it. Someone with a Star as their rank, not a letter but a star. I assume it's got to be higher than an A. Not only was his rank higher but he was able to drive faster than me... which was puzzling. He wobbled side to side, not in a straight line, and somehow was moving about twice the speed I was moving at and the car I was using was the fastest in the game. His was the slowest. So... I knew I was bad and didn't know why and it was extremely frustrating.

I went online and found people bitching about "snaking". I learned it's a technique where you use the boost you get from drifting over and over on a straight away and it's fastest to drift left and right repeatedly than to drive straight and not get the boost from drifting. I know about the boost. You had to rock left and right really fast while you were drifting and you'd get a boost of speed when you left go of the drift button., this was designed for players to use when coming out of turns, which I generally did.

So now I know I'm bad and I'm practicing day in and day out drifting left and right on straight aways. I have to think about it while I'm doing it and focus on the button input. Eventually I no longer think about it I just do it, but I'm thinking about doing it wide or narrow. Narrow offers less boosts and less speed but can cram you into narrow places on the track that people who snake usually wouldn't snake at and wide offers more speed and boosts but takes up too much space at times. Eventually I can do it in any situation and no longer think about it.

In stead I'm thinking about shortcuts on the track and racing lines... eventually tracks are memorized and none of this is thought of again. Then I'm practicing techniques to avoid incoming attacks from different items [the tricky ones like blue turtle shells]... eventually this too is no longer thought of. I reset my online record [at the time it had maybe 30 losses]. My new record gets to 400 wins before I take a loss. By the time I've reached 2,000 wins I have 4 losses.


Soul Calibur.
Play as character without looking at their moveset
Read the moveset and study it till I don't have to think of it
Play as such
Learn combos and study them till I don't have to think
Play as such
Learn frame traps..
play
Learn frame rates on moves
Play
Learn match ups against other characters
Play against that character
Learn new character match ups
etc..

Eventually there isn't much thought going on about any of the above, it's just known. Difference between Soul Cal and Mario Kart is that one involves much much more detail in learning than the other really, so it takes much longer to internalize Soul Calibur. Even when you've internalized how to play as any one character and all his match-ups against other characters you're not a master at the game. To master it you'd have to do that over again with every character... all 30 something of them in whichever game you're playing.


Girls
It's different.
When it comes to Mario Kart, soccer, soul calibur, My job, etc. I don't feel emotionally distraught and upset when I fail. I also don't feel depressed about the like passages in relation to those things [cause other than maybe work none really exist]

"Farrell cites hundreds of examples to the contrary, such as male-only draft registration not benefiting men at the expense of women; or men constituting 93% of workplace deaths; or being expected to risk sexual rejection, pay on dates, and buy women diamonds. Once married, rules made by men are more likely to lead to men losing children and their home after divorce—what he cites as another example of male disposability. Farrell contends that nothing is more telling about who has benefited from "men's rules" than life expectancy and suicide rates—and men lose in both of these categories."
This is mentioning a guy talking about rules and laws that benefit women at the expense of men who suggested that there should be laws to benefit men at the expense of women... He goes on to cite various examples of how women essentially have it easy and are oppressing men. Even worse is that you're branded a misogynist or a whiny cry baby if you mention this sorta shit.

In Mario Kart, Soccer, Soul Calibur, work, etc. I'm not often excluded by some form of biased fucked up system that favors people who're not me while disfavoring me. So I'm a lot less likely to have a depressive psychological break down about shit.

women on the other hand... this is rough and kinda hard and I'm torn by my own idealism and desire for equality often.
One of the issues is that there are so many different ways to go about it and many of which I don't agree with at all. My least favorite idealism and method for attracting women is to dress like a clown, act like a clown, and have a clown fan club.

I realize the world I live is limits the potential I'll ever find what I actually want. Someone who cares about equality and isn't going to manipulate the rules and the way things are to her advantage like a scumbag. A lot of girls out there are horrible self centered scum buckets but I have hope eventually I may meet one who isn't. Meanwhile it's rather depressing the world is like this.

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