I'm not exactly sure what happened to me, but I feel like I am waking up. Its hard to describe. I have been unhappy with my life, socially, financially, physically, even spiritually for what felt like forever. Sometime around the holidays began last year a part of me snapped. I "woke up" I began to see the parts of my life that aren't working and started to experience a burning desire to make permanent lasting changes to improve myself.

Instead of remaining a depressed loser and telling myself I can't do any better because its just who I am, I started to tell myself I can be better at anything I choose to do. I'm here on this forum (and other places) because I owe it to myself, and by extension I also owe it to my friends, family, and co-workers and business associates, to literally be the best I can be.

That being said, one of the areas I could use some strong improvement in is meeting and talking to girls. Every woman I have been with has either tried to run my life or ruin it (sometimes both in that order) and I was the one letting it happen! Well, that's over.

I feel like I deserve to be successful at being with the kind of women who will make my life better, not worse. Even the last few weeks of checking out info on this site and others has given me a new outlook and insight as to how things actually work, and the real reasons behind what happens when meeting and interacting with women.

It's time to learn how to be my best self, and I believe this is a great place to start.

Dude all i can say is congratulations, thats a fucking alpha mentality right there.
Best wishes for you on this journey bro.

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Thanks. I like your description of the balance of confidence. Oh and writing a blog in your second language in your spare time is pretty baddass too.

oh man,, trust me i feel u bro,, going through the same phase now

One month update.

Only one month? It feels like a lifetime. One month ago I was a blubbering mess inside, trying to make sense out of the traffic accident of a relationship that had just left me devastated. One month ago I was desperately seeking answers about what had happened to me. I had been the prisoner of my own illusions for far to long.

Then I found this forum, and other sources of information, that would strip away all of my dearly held beliefs. Each lesson was painful, like being flayed alive. As I realized, individually, and finally, collectively, what my mistakes were, there was a little spot of brightness that appeared to shine a ray of light into the abyss I had thrown myself into. I had done this to myself, and it was possible to get myself out of it.

My eyes have been irrevocably opened. I can never go back to the way things were before. Yet it has not made me bitter. I accepted the truth, and in so doing I have gained a deeper understanding of myself, my own desires and feelings, and a realization of who I want to be. My capacity for love has been increased, not diminished. I love women more now that I have a deeper understanding of their nature. Being able to give women what they REALLY want is something I have always wanted to do.

I haven't changed who I am, I have simply become better at being the kind of person I want to become.

Invictus Maneo

I remember when I first experienced this as well. It will take you far, but don't ever lose that fire to
IMPROVE!

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Thanks! I understand that I'm still at the very beginning of a journey. I'm not expecting mastery, but I am committed to daily improvement in all aspects of my life, including ( and admittedly especially) women!

I am happy to see that you are motivated bro, but you just made a mistake!

As soon as you said "admittedly especially women" you objectified something other than your originally stated goal. Which is to better yourself! Always keep focus on your goal (Self improvement) and the other things will happen naturally by default.

Peace...

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Nice reframe! That's exactly the kind of thing I am here to learn