My success with women in life has so far been atrocious. I have only ever 'gotten lucky', I have never been the one to first make a move. I tried the newbie mission but stopped because I felt like a weirdo.

So then after a two year dry spell I was shocked when a girl I had met on a night out was showing signs of interest over the proceeding months. It took me ages to catch on but I eventually did and she became my 'girlfriend'.

Fast forward 8 months and a lot of drug use beginning with the letter k, she broke up with me on grounds that we were bad for each other, which was true.

Fast forward another 12 months and here I am still dwelling on the fact that in all that time I didn't make a move on her and thus didn't sleep with her. I have become utterly obsessed with this thought. It plagues me every hour of my existence unless I am heavily distracted. How could I possibly have been so clueless? It gets so bad that I'm often drawn to tears of immense frustration and regret.

I know my life won't change with me continuing to sulk and block everything out by using the internet 24/7 yet it's all I ever want to do.

My life is in tatters. I'm an emotional wreck, I'm unemployed and have been for nearly 5 years, I have no hobbies or interests other than using the computer, I have a flat that's in total disrepair - needs decorating, no furniture, no cooker. I have very few friends. I'm a sad, lonely and depressed loser with next to no social skills who's twenties are flashing by before him with no idea what to do about it except write whiny posts on the internet in a fit of desperation.

First, stop with the drugs that begin with a "K"!

Now realize that you are truly the master of your world! A fucking man with the instincts and ability to accomplish anything you want. Before you get deeper into your self doubt and pitty, you need to take a shower and leave your flat. Go see something outside, be around people! Just physically around them....Realize that you are just like 90% of them, scared and alone! A relationship will not solve your problems, neither will sex. You are the one who holds the power to change your life, if you take action to act and think better, the rest of the pieces will fall into place on their own!

You are welcome to PM me whenever you are having doubts, I will give you some love, tough love, but love none the less!


Peace...

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7 months on and things are much the same. I can't believe I'm considering suicide over such a seemingly trivial matter. Fuck this.

Hi Ignite,

I think you need to take a step back for a moment. Sometimes when you're feeling down everything can seem to pile up at once, as seen by the last paragraph in your post. This feeling of being overwhelmed by negative things in your life can be what is driving you to depression and the suicidal thoughts. Believe me friend, this is not the answer.

Let's dissect why you're feeling like this. You seem to attribute the reason to the girl you loved and lost, but I think the reason may actually be your lack of self-esteem. I've lost girls in the same way, and yes it hurts, but time will heal it, I promise you.

Your lack of self esteem makes you seek validation from the affection of females. And that's why it hit you like a train when the previous girl decided to cut things off with you. So start from the ground up and build yourself as an individual. And by build yourself I don't mean suffer through a transformation, I mean have fun!

You don't have any hobbies you say, so find something that interests you and study it - go to a class, learn a language, go dancing, etc. Anything fun! You will also meet new friends while doing things like this.

Try working out too - I don't know what physical shape you are in but exercise certainly makes me feel better about myself (endorphins and self confidence).

You're unemployed and that will make you feel stuck in a rut. But keep looking and a job will come up. Don't be ashamed to take any job, it will still line your pockets so that you can fund your new hobbies and can afford fixing your flat.

In short, focus on improving your SELF before you even consider women. 'Women would be lucky to be with such a cool guy like me' - this is the mindset you need and have to BELIEVE.

Turn the negativity into productivity and you will feel instantly better.

And please don't consider suicide, you will have so much potential to give to this world it would be a huge shame.

Best of luck my friend.

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