| i have had this obsession now for a few months, all i think about is this girl that i have seen around my college campus. We've locked eye contact a few times but i think she's moved on now, i think she has a boyfriend. I use to fantasize about her and masturbate. i gained a addiction, as i would masturbate, i would get this high. I have now not masturbated for a month and would like to continue not to. But i get this high, i start feeling happy whenever i see her, i sometimes cant go to sleep without day dreaming about her, I have always wanted a girl friend, i have never had one, I'm 20 yrs old. this affects my school life and personal life. i don't have the confidence to go up to her and tell her what i feel, and i think its a little to late. i may seem like a creep. i get very shy around her, i start breathing heavy, at times i cant sit still around her, i get this anxiety attack. i want to move on, but somethings holding me back, i get very worked up and feel tried. i feel like i need a girlfriend in order to feel good about myself. i dont know her, she doesn't have any classes with me. i see her in the hallways or the library,
i need some help.
thanks for reading
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