The boy will die : A Way to Manhood Journal (by Jakk)



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PostPosted: Sun Feb 03, 2013 6:34 pm 
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Day 3 and 4:

Tonight guys i'm writing this post from the club, i've got rejected by several girls, my moral is down i don't know how to deal with agressive girls, therefore i sat and wrote this post. A group of girls came and pushed me and begun to irritate me, i didn't know what to say so i ignored them. A few minute later a group of girls who were dancing infront of me told me to get the fuck out of there. Same thing i ignored them.

At this time i'm done.Inside me , i can feel that i have alot of inner game problems and the biggest one is not knowing how to deal with conflict, as a future mature man i really need to get over this problem. It's fucking hard guys, i think i'm gonna stop club gaming and focus only on daygame and social game. Talking of social game, yesterday i've done especially well, i kissclosed 2 girls, one czhek who was toutching my scarf , she was a petite red headed my style ,but she didn't want to fuck it's maybe because i didn't create enough confort but it's ok. The second was a french girl who wanted some beer from me, i told if she want some she should give me a kiss and that's what happened, however no sex in the end.

What i understanded is that i still have a lot of inner game issues, and i need to overcome them. Currentely i will finish the book The power if now because it helps me see things clearely. But i think the hardest thing is to be alone on this journey, however i'm sure i can count on you guys. Well that's it guys, if you have something that teaches how to deal with conflict i will be glad, but now i'm gonna sleep with my pain and try to forget about tonight.

What's your opinion guys?


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PostPosted: Sun Feb 03, 2013 7:06 pm 
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Keep going. Game in every scene. It's all about comfort, when you're used to it, you'll smack it.

Club game is some weird fucking shit though man...You deffo gotta use the negs in there.

Well done on kiss closing the two girls you did that to. That's good going. Not the second one though because that was in exchange for a beer... :lol:

Peace

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PostPosted: Sun Feb 03, 2013 7:39 pm 
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First of Jakk give your self a pat on the back, your on day 3-4 and you managed to do 7 approaches in a club as well as getting 2 k-closes. You need to cut your self some slack, you are doing very good and I think most guys will envy your progress, myself included.

In terms of dealing with the aggressive girls, if this kind of thing happens a lot to you it may be an issue with your body language in clubs. I would not let it get you, personally I like to view this stuff in clubs as really funny, when I'm in the club I tend to laugh quite a lot of things happening around me. If clubbing isn't your thing don't did it.

With conflict you can't try and ignore it, you need to face. In the power on of now, Eckharte Tolle says that life is full of challenges and you can either choose to face them to become my conscious or ignore them and become more unconscious. I'm not really sure what you mean by conflict, with other people or self conflict.

Jakk you need to realise that pick up is a marathon not a sprint, you can't expect to change over night. The good news is your heading in the right direction.

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Bro i feel for you, must be really hard to have all this racism against you.

As you said tho, there might always be racism so i feel you need to embrace it and live four life with the "fuck it" mentality. Wach the movie the secret. There is a part in that movie that explains how being concentrated in your problem and how bad your life is will only make it worse. You need to concentrate in positive stuff, just watch it and you will understand.

And second, find a stereotype that helps you. Dont fall into the avrege arab guy, find a way to make it awesome. Maybe like said from lost? Idk.

Those are pretty nice goals, congratulations. I would add find a way to use racism to your advantage ( maybe doing standup like dave chapelle wich is just helarious), finding a way to be ok with yourself and being more positive.

Good luck my friend

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PostPosted: Wed Feb 06, 2013 10:50 pm 
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@ohforsure

Thanks man but i still feel good about the girl that gave me a kiss for a beer ;)


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PostPosted: Wed Feb 06, 2013 10:58 pm 
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@Eyrie

Thanks man for your advice.

First i agree with you that i need to change my interpretation of the agressive girls in the club, and to think of it as funny and part of the gave than to think of it as a personal attack wich is something derived from my niceguys personality that i am trying to fix.

The second thing is that i need to face conflict and be PRESENT, this still very difficult to me but i will succeed in it hopefully.

The final thing i agree on, is he fact that PU is not easy, but all this stuff is gonna make me grow aand it's all worth it.


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PostPosted: Wed Feb 06, 2013 11:03 pm 
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@Owen Chambers


I thank you for your advice Owen, because i love this idea of using a stereotype in a way that is on your advantage. I like also the fact of "fuck up" mentality wich is a kind of alphamale personality, very cool man!


I gonna try this out and try to watch the movie the secret even though i'm not that spiritual ;)


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PostPosted: Wed Feb 06, 2013 11:07 pm 
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Day 5:

Today's objective was to continue killing AA and regain confidence from saturday's night. I took the bus to downtown, in the bus i fell aspleep because i was tired from the workout that i did before i took my trip.

When i woke up , i already arrived to downtown, so as always i asked about directions the fist girl that i met, then i met three girls who were teenagers, and one of them gave me a nasty look. BUT i didn't give a fuck that's when i started to feel my strenght coming back, and also it's when i understood that if youwant success in any area in life you have to fail a lot of times until you don't become aware of it, then success come by its own.

Then i went to buy myself a cup of cold coffee drink from a supermarket,where i met a girl i told her what do we sell upstairs and that was it.


I don't know but i feel that i'm progressing slowly, snaily.


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PostPosted: Wed Feb 06, 2013 11:14 pm 
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Day 6:

Hey guys , i went today to downtown to meet a friend, but he wasn't at the meeting (we had a timing problem). In order not to lose time i decided to approach some chicks. But there was one problem it's that i want to pee, so i went to the closest restaurant i asked the owner if i can go to the toilet , he told me with what i call the "racist" look , i can't get it because it's only for costumers. So i persisted, i told him i can pay (just to test him) and no luck.

At that moment i was about to explode, so i went to the train station where i was for sure that i'm gonna get a free access to the bathroom.

On my way to the station i remembered what doctor paul says about strengthening the boundary by hearing NO and saying NO, i got this "aha" in my head and it felt good, no more interpretation as personal attack.

It was late so i decided to go back home, but before i asked three teenagers about the location of a certain lake in the town.

Well the good thing is that now i can approach a group of girls ;)

On my way back to home i met a girl that i know, and we keeped talking until she arrived to her bus stop.Now i could maintain a conversation for a couple of minutes.
I also texted the girl of saturday, the one with whom i made out in exchange of a cup of beer, but i failed in the interaction because i communicated a lot of interest in my messages, so she told me that she doesn't want to be disturbed.

On the overall i feel good about today.

Peace, let me get your opinions.

Jakk


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PostPosted: Fri Feb 15, 2013 11:03 am 
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Hey, Jakk. First of all Good job. You've been kicking ass and I've been Jerking off to a fucking phonebook in the middle of the night. Might as well start jerking off to gay porno. What with me being a fucking limp-dick and all. Second, i know it's frustrating as fuck (for me) when you put in a journal entry and get no feedback. i just get pissed off and all fucked up in the head. tell you what, for every post of yours, I'll share my thoughts with you.


And third, even though I'm not the best guy to be recommending stuff to you and shit. 'Cause hell, I'm not the dude who kissed 2 girls. (even though the one with the beer was a cheap shot) :wink:
I'd love it if you watched a few videos of simple pickup. they are all dudes from asia. Rocking it all up in Fucking US-of-A. These motherfuckers are pure inspiration. Google them. Plus, they're Fun too. And Kasabi. Look up a few of his posts. That old Chinese (MAster?) dude in his avatar is worth every penny. Mother-fucka practically earned that shit. His posts are on top of the inspiration heap..

As always, Fuck everybody else and have fun. You're not doing this shit so the girl you're gonna be opening gets laid, You're doing it so YOU can get LAid!!!!

Peace, and Piece.


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PostPosted: Tue Feb 26, 2013 10:19 pm 
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Day 7:

Hey guys, here is a quick field report. Well i was in a party yesterday , what i did was simply try to talk to many people as i can, and it was great. First i talked to a group of girls i asked them where they came from ,they were german, we talked about anything and nothing, the other thing that happened is that i approached a chick this way:

I said : "hey is the guy over there wearing a supermario costume"
HB : "i gueeeess, whats your name" first ioi.

The interaction did go very well. At one point she wanted to test me, i told her if she has one parent who is german she told me yes and i said that i can't talk to here right now. She was disapointed i didn't give a fuck and i picked up the chick next to me.

This girl wanted to smoke my cigarette , i was smoking black devil and i told her if she wants to smoke my cigarette she has to kiss me. Good that's what happened, got a kiss . She wanted another shot, another kiss and one more shot so one last kiss. fantastic, then we bounced to another location, the girl who had a german mother came to talk to me she wanted to establish comfort, she asked a lot of question about myself i gave wrong answer she believed them. And finally after talking to more girl she came to me and started talking about how many women i slept with i took fom the hip and i told that it is a secret and made out with her, at this moment i felt the energy of a champion in my body, awsome.

On this FR i want to talk about racism, what i found is that we tend to stay with people who are like us who come from where we come, for example i'm writing this report and i am in a bus, since i study in the second year of my engineering school there some students of the first year with whom i get along. However in the bus they are here and i'm the only one from the 2nd year, so since they like to stay together they didn't talk to me. Is it racism? no it's totally normal. So as it is for the people here in Pepignan or in any other city or country,they tend to want to stay with each other=> Tribe theory.

Well i think guys i am heading the right direction but fuck i don't have a lot of time to train sarging, i have only time to study. Fuck! But anyway i'm starting to feel excellent thanks guys for your support, and as always let me know what you think.

Peace


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