Last few years, I have experiment many transformation... majority of them good, while some part not. Looking at the mirror, I notice I am going to be 29 soon... this February, this is the year I needed to conquer the fact that women is a problem in my life. Money and career is already solved, in fact that is least that I am concern about. My love life has take a downhill about someone I loved committed suicide and find myself constantly thinking about her last two years. I am sure won't want to see me like this and yet I feel I am act and behave like a AFC rather than a real man.

My dedication to myself for 2013:
- love myself more...
- be happy
- have a long term meaningful relationship
- have a amazing social circle

Things I wanted to improve on:
- master the games... in and out
- overcome my weight issue
- fear of sex
- de-brainwashing
- be more organized

Outcome I wanted:
- Have more sex
- Have more girls that I am attracted to
- Start a new business venture
- Travel More
- Meet more women
- Go out and conquer myself... and the world
- Be fit and healthy

So, I went out on Saturday night... wow! This is first time in years I seriously went out to trying to pick up women. Both me and one of my guy friend decided to head over to the Kensington Market and all I have to say is we found a tons of awesome places. I actually got started even though I am so freaking tired and just wanted to sleep after the hell of going to wedding (actually, I skipped most part of it so I can pickup).

First place we checked out is the UFO, there is no cover and I got to say all women are ultra friendly and easy to talk to, the problem? They are surround with either boyfriends, or male companions. I think this is one area I needed to work on, able to open mixed sets. I didn't talk to many women in this venue, but decided to roam. I walked up to College Street and ended up talking to two set of girls from Naples... one of the girls actually held my hand really tight as she is doing my palm reading and told me that I will have meaningful relationship soon. However, the other set of girls felt left out and my wingman tried, but failed to capture her interested. I gave her my card as she is a massage therapist and I told her my hotel actually got lots of rich clients perhaps maybe interested in her service.

Around 1:00 am, we walked along Spadina Avenue and saw a girl outside a bar with a big box of delicious cup cakes, they are enormous, and probably cost about $3 each. Without thinking I just said... "I am sure you are waiting for me with those cup cakes, I feel so loved", she smiled and offer me as much as I wanted. I took one and man they are GOOD! I didn't know if it was a good idea... but I asked her straight out, "you are very beautiful, do you have a boyfriend?", she replied yes and I just complimented that he is very lucky person. I thank her and continued walking and got to my car. Around 2:00 am, we arrived at Queen West and roam the street for another hour and half... our goal is to practice our openers. Although I think I am not perfect and got lots of room for improvement, I can feel the progress. I was pretty good a coming up with random stuff to say, and generally they reacted positively.

Some problem I did encounter is communication with my buddy who is just go into the game... he didn't realized something I do things to create false constraint to help him. But anyways... we didn't laid Saturday, there is always next week.

For Tuesday, we are heading to a language party, and hey! Maybe I'll pickup a international chick

For tomorrow (Monday), I needed to take my buddy to hospital, then I am getting a VISA for China in March.

I am actually excited I will be flying... Toronto to Philadelphia to Rome to Athens to Heraklion to Athens to Frankfurt to Beijing to Hong Kong to Fuzhou to Hong Kong to San Francisco to Chicago to Toronto.

A six week trip hopefully my game will be little sharper by February 10 when I am leaving!

I woke up today around 8:30 am and drop off my sarge buddy off at the hospital since he banged up his knees and right after I needed to get take passport photo for VISA, what a lots of BS. Then I went to shopping for a new top with my $100 AMEX gift card. As a player, I remember Player Supreme once said, you needed four C', a cribs = place of your own to fuck the girl, cash = successful career, car = to take about to roam anywhere, clothing = well dress.

After shopping is completed, I notice any young girls sitting by the bunches... I didn't approach, I reality is I am still somewhat afraid. I felt bad and left. But I remember while reading Roosh V's book, that what can happen in worse situation? Nothing, women are not going to reject me for who I am, they reject me for my approaches... after all they know nothing about me.

After all, I had many things that other man dream off... a millionaire by age of 23, a business that has grown by 400% in last three years, lots of money to spare, my place and a car... etc.

Anyways, I decided to just approach women in my car my guilt of not manning up... first girl, I stop her when I was heading south on Church street, I parked the car and just walk up to her and said, "Hi, I have stop because I just wanted to talk to you, I think you are very attractive..." Is this a best open? Probably not, but I wanted to try open, I have to start somewhere... Second women, I scream outside my window, "hi.." she walked over, and I said "hey, I know this is strange, but how does guys talk to women in this city? I want to get to know you?" She responded that she felt this is strange and I might get hit by a car in the back. I counter responded "maybe it is worth being hit if I felt you are my soul mate... what do I need to do to get to know you?" She smile and walked away.

Wow... time fly, by the time I finish all this, already 1 pm. I went home and head to sleep for a bite and got up, responded to some business email and written this post.

What I am planning to do tonight... I needed to do some reading for one my school course materials, I am taking few courses to boost my undergraduate CGPA for law school and head out again, solo if possible as my sarge buddy's knee is busted.

Another thing I am going to do is... I have stopped working out, so I am going to try to get back in shape starting with cardio.

I want to make sure, everything I do, get me closer to my goal... so next time when I see a big mouth watering burger, I will ask myself... this is helping me getting closer, is it worth sacrificing all the hard work on the treadmill for few minutes of joy?

Anyways... I am going to wish myself good luck tonight and sign off... with all the love

Quick Update: a girl name Kaitlyn, which read my palm on the street whom I gave my business card, just text me:

"Hey this is kaitlyn the girl whom read your palm"

I am going to wait a while, perhaps tomorrow to reply...

I got a family from U.S. unexpectedly drop in on me today... ruined my plan of catching up reading and do some pick up tonight.. oh well, there is always tomorrow

I am going to finish up my reading, head to my parent's house to print out new VISA application for China and perhaps come back to do some work out.

No matter what... hopefully, these are little steps that gets me closer, closer and closer to finding a women soon.

So, today morning, I went back to China's VISA office... what punch of pricks! I have to go back again, they keep asking for more and more documents to prove that I am not Chinese. So, hopefully I'll get everything to sort out tomorrow or next day.

Went home and just saw the movie... Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead!

What a inspiration, didn't sleep much, but will head out to pick up a proper juicer and maybe a women as well

I am sure if Natasha was still alive, she would want me to get healthy and not only find a girl... sadly, she would have being her 18th birthday today if she was still alive.

I guess, maybe everything happens for a reason... I'll do it for her, juice fasting for 14 days.

Maybe here is some inspiration for others

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Natasha Baby, I love you and here I go!

Start Time: 10:00 AM (Toronto)

Language Party Tonight Time to meet some girls of all colors, we'll see what happens, keep you all posted.

Midday Update: In Starbucks... working my school reading, bite boring and listening to some dude talking about work with a Indian chick.

Anyways, I am not longer going to stay at home. The longer I stay have home, the more comfortable of myself gets with doing nothing, heck, there is no chicks to approach at home. So, if I got reading, I go to Starbucks... If I need to run, I go out to run.

Secondly, I finish shopping for a juice and juice cart before coming to Starbucks, can't wait to get some green veggie and get my first drink. Oh, I also picked up some hair wax... yes, its time to look GOOD

My sarge buddy just told me the language party at 7:30 pm, I kind of feel he is a bit cheap, but anyways, I am going start getting him start paying for some of the parking fee and gas.

Next thing to do tonight: Lite workout, and language party... love you all

that's such bullshit. what was that pizza you ate? shit. didn't i offer to pay for parking in korean town? this is such bull shit. annnndddddddddd when have i been "cheap"? when i didn't pay for gas or parking when we went to Niagara falls? WTF. I DID. where are you coming from with this shit?

i'd get you more food but you fasting all the time.

and who calls himself the king of getting things for free?

didn't i get you a gift from my trip? where's my gift from cuba. this is garbage.

Alright... yes that is my wingman, and he probably is drunk when he typed it

So, around 6:30 pm I picked up my main wingman from his house after I play around with my new juicer. Then we went to second wingman. We went directly to Future Bakery and his main wingman with his broken leg hop to three set. Although didn't well, I am proud he came out despite of his injuries.

Then we bump to a frozen yogurt place and I approach two set of girls. The second set lasted for over 30 minutes as I pushed and pushed for a girl on a two set. She told me that she is radio announcer on local news radio and she is few years older than me. Although I didn't get her contacts, but I am proud I did my best

Then, the two went to Popeyes, tried to talk to a girl who is ordering her meal, but she mention she has a boyfriend and can not accept my offer for a date at the frozen yogurt place.

Finally, I drop the main wingman home as he have a appointment tomorrow for his knee... leaving me and second wingman to roam the street. We end up in Drake Hotel and end up talking to a Lesbian girl for over 2 hours, we connected well. I told about my past, eating off the garbage, living on the street, growing up without a proper family, etc. She also told me about her past about death of her grandfather, and how her parent lost all their pension from Nortel. We both agreed we should see each other sometimes and she offered to buy me dinner first, but I told her we should get together and cook 100 hot dogs and serve it to the homeless. She agreed and making plan pending... She told me only in the end that she is not into man, so I guess this might be a challenge.

Finally, we went to Bovine Sex Club, live music, I am freaking tired, and left shortly after midnight.

That's all for one night, after coming home, juiced up and shower... finally writing this post.

Things I didn't get tonight is working out, but I did quite a lot of walking, which makes up for the exercise. Secondly, the language party as they change the date to Wednesday.

I woke up around noon and wow, I have itchy skin and patches all over my body... this is a bit insane as I am typically not allergic to anything. I suspect it is because of my juice fasting and did a search of it. Guess what? It is posted everywhere it is a sign of detox and my body is trying to get rip of all the build up of toxic chemical stored in my body.

Anyways... I just send the lesbian girl last night to a quick SMS "Hey Sue, I am glad I hear your stories, you are amazing :0 hope to hear more of it soon "

So, I am going to call her in during this weekend when I know my next week schedule to book a time for us to hand out 100 hot dogs. I told her I will choose the coldest night were we will do this.

Today's Agenda:
- Continued Reading on my courses
- Call the cable company to get a refund on my cancellation fees
- Install a cable terminal for one of my tenant
- Go to international language party
- Workout if possible

Back to work... update later.

Yesterday, I let my sarge buddy stay over for a night, he slept on a sofa and his boss agreed to let him work from home. Today morning, I was wake by him and he asked me what I wanted to do... I told him, needed to get some work done for school and then send a fax to the cable company for a refund... then head to a public place to do some work. I was determine that I will no longer stay home as much, I will do my best to do all my homework in a public place and get more exposure with the humanity.

So, that is exactly what happened. We went to a mall and find nothing, nowhere to work. We ended up in a McDonald's with free Wifi and outlet, and worked from 1:00 to 4:30 pm. No target there...

Then, we head over to the mall and get ready to leave when my sarge buddy told me he needed to take a call, and do more work. Got bored, so I played with my iPhone in the a food court when he pointed to two young girls from far away. I walked over and said "I am getting so bored, I am going to speak with you guys". I think they are young, but I didn't expected they are 13 years old... while my sarge buddy continued to work, I find it no reason to leave as there is nothing to do. The girls and I chatted over 15 minutes, but my intention was not to pick them up as I am not interested in eating any jail prison for screwing underage chicks. BTW, the age of consent in Ontario is 16. Although, they show a lot of interest, as we talked over their potential career, guy problems, what they like to do, I actually felt I am wasting my time.

Finally, my sarge buddy said he is ready to leave and we finally got up and got going. Just before we got to my car I saw a girl walking with her friend... I instantly look at her and said:

Me: do you what do I needed to say if I am interested in someone I see... I have no pick up lines and that's not my thing

She: I think you should go up to her and be nice and just talking to her

Me: Is it like what I am doing right now? Can you tell me what I needed to say to you for us to get to know each other, like right now?

She: I have to go home

Me: Live is short, its never too early or late to meet someone interest, let's do coffee right now

She: I already have a coffee, I am holding it in my hand

Me: That coffee is already cold, let me get you a hotter one... because its from me, its special

She: I needed to go home to my son, my uncle is taking care of it

Me: Let your uncle take care of it for now, your son needed a good father like me, I am sure your son's dad is no longer around, its like we are meant to meet

She: I don't... laugh

Anyways, its cold, really cold, so I cut the conversation short and head straight to the car with my sarge buddy.

Along the way, we took turns jumping out from the car and hitting up random women... not much luck, but we wanted to get use to approaching women in any circumstances.

Tonight is a interesting night... so my buddy and I headed over to Tattoo Rock Parlor around 11:00 am. Got in for free thanks for my secondary wingman. We got free bottle service since my secondary wingman is a club promoter.

Few things I realized, I haven't being to a club, I am terrified. But only for first hour or so, by second hour, I already in the mood for dancing solo. However, I have issue with approaching, it seems like most girls there has a guy or comes with a group... no kidding.

So, I got some IOIs from various girls, but my fears really got to me. I fear that I will be rejected. So, I decided to go out with my wingman and talk to some girls out in the patio. I met a girl name Hay who is a current University of Toronto film student. I told her about my interest in film and I did my first documentary in 2005, and I used a Canon XL2. I offered her a chance to try my camera, she immediate offered her number and wanted to see at 1:00 pm today. I told her, I will try to make it at 1 pm, but mostly like 1:30 pm, this way I don't want to come across as to being easy.

My wingman happened to dance and escalated with pretty good looking blonde girl, and they must have dance for over a hour until she said she has has to come back to her friends. He told me that we needed more correlations, since he actually trying to pull me into the group to dance with one of her girlfriend who is being left out.

I agreed.

Half hour before I left, I ended dancing and girding with a super large boobs MILF probably in her 30s. I actually grabbing her breast... Before I drive off, I saw Hey outside the door and I told her that I will do my best to meet her tomorrow. She don't need to meet me at Subway, just sms me the exact address.

Afterward, I showed my secondary wingman the Kensington Market and off for a late night meal with two other buddies and headed home.

Overall good night.

Things I needed to focus on:
- Need to grow more balls to approach in the club

This is my task next time, perhaps Saturday night

Women! Here I am come...

Massive headache, no posting today.

Sunday is extremely boring day, I had to go to the accountant designation qualification orientation. Look like there will be a bite of work before I head to Greece. There were quite a number of beautiful girls there, but given the fact that I will be their team member, I decided to not to shit where I eat.

Today, Monday... a new week, finally the Chinese consulate accepted my VISA application and they told me I can come and pick up the passport on Thursday. I went home and fall right into bed and just awake.

I am actually afraid that I may not able to have enough time to sarge as much as I want... tonight, I am going to head up with my sarge buddy... no excuse. No night game tomorrow night as I will be meeting my current somewhat on / off girlfriend. I'll make the most of it.

In the meanwhile, I needed to head off to the library to get my public library card renew and get one of the book on Globalization for book report.

Tomorrow, the lesbian girl backed out on the 100 hot girl things... so told me she won't have time, flake deleted her number and no longer waste time.

Anyhow, I am going to do my best to make most of my time... knowing I may have to put some of my sarging depressed me.

Current juice fasting: 15 Hours and Coming... its hard

So, I went out today to do some work... at McDonald's.

The Good:
- end up talking to a girl for three hours, she reveal that she is super interested in me. We has the same last name... she is very interested in my cooking as I do not use sodium and MSG. She did told me she has a boyfriend of six years, but still wanted to hang out. She will bring a girlfriend
- Didn't get too much work done, but did end up scanning some chapters

The Bad:
- Broke my fast after 16 hours... man it was hard... but I am not going give up!

Busy day tomorrow...

Task:
- Pickup a parcel from UPS
- Write a book review proposal for a course
- Read a accounting materials for accreditation

Night:
- Try to have sex with on and off girlfriend

Current Watching: How to Seduce Difficult Women

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