Ok, things are going weird with HB7.5-Flake...

This is the quick summary:

Day1 Saturday Lunch (9 days ago): Having lunch together. Run some game. Did not k-close due to extemely chatty behaviour. See previous report.
Day2 Sunday Dinner (8 days ago): Dinner at an italian place. k-close after dinner at the park in front of the lake. She was very passionate and I was feeling she wanted me. BUT after 5 minutes of making out, she says she HAS to get back to her family.
Day3 Monday (7 days ago): She stops by my place at 10:30pm. She stays exactly 5 minutes, we make out a little bit and then she runs away.

To be clear, during those days, she always called, always try to contact me and texted me. It was clear she wanted me.

Then suddenly, without any particular reason everything changed.

She is not calling me anymore, she is answering my text very politely, but she almost never initiate a conversation.

I invited her to stop by my place three times in the last week, she never did.
She works exactly 3 minutes far from where I live, and her house is like 30 minutes far from her work. So, I figured, she can stop by my place at the end of her shift, hang out for few time and then go back to her parents' house. She never did that. She was always "too tired".

Friday (3 days ago), and this kinda of pisses me off, she asked permission to stop by my place to FEED THE DUCKS that lives on the lake in front of my house, while I'm at work. She is a nurse and she went there with her patient, she says is therapeutical for them.
So, basically, she has time to come to my place to feed the ducks (while I'm working), but she hasn't time to actually meet me?

Saturday we were supposed to hang out, but I had to work in the morning. So I asked her out in the evening. She of course flaked "I'd love to join you tonight but I'm booked".

After that, I'm freezing her out. So now, I'm in the second day of freeze out, and I am really NOT going to first-contact her anymore.

There are two ways to deal with this:
1) AFC way: confront her. This is something I used to do when I was an AFC. It worked in the short run (she feels guilty), but then the relationship goes to hell, because I can't base a relationship on guilt.
2) PUA way: behave like I am dating someone else. This is what I'm going to do. She is not that important nor fascinating (actually, I don't like her voice, and this is kinda of a turnoff for me). Even if I'm not dating anyone else, I'll behave like I am. If she thinks she has me for granted, I'll prove her it is not the case here...

The ONLY reason I can think about for her behavioral change is that I've dated a friend of her more than a month ago, see report with HB8-Brunette.
But I had ONLY ONE date with her friend, and then I was cockblocked super-hard.

I think HB7.5 might have found out about my date with her friend HB8, and now she's kinda of shit-testing me, or maybe even she doesn't want to date me, because I've kissed her friend once

Anyway, we'll see.

Good sarge to everybody

I literally can't believe what this HB7.5 told me yesterday.

I'm having issues with my work permit, and at this point I don't even know if I'll be in Canada after the end of August because the immigration office is giving me a hell of an hard time for processing the papers.

They might actually kick me out of the country, it is unlikely, but can happen.

So I contacted HB7.5-Flake with the bad news. She answered me and wanted to meet me right away but she added "I'm very tired". I knew she was going to flake if I asked her out so I avoided it. But I thought, at least she wants to meet me, so it's not actually off, I can work on it.

I tried to talk her into a date soon, but she looks always busy (but with ridiculous excuxes), or she says something like "I can meet you on saturday after my 12 hour shift", and I am 100% sure that she's going to flake because she's going to be "tired". It's her way to be nice with me ("I want to meet you") but protect herself at the same time (she'll have a good excuse ready for flaking).

So I shot the big bullet because I had nothing to lose. I asked her to come to my place right away and spend quality time with me, and I made clear I want to hang out as friends and not as lovers or something.

She start talking about the time we kissed, and then she said "The first day we kissed it was wonderful, then on Monday when we met you were all over me, so I thought... woah woah... and I left your place".

This is literally ridiculous, I couldn't believe my ear with this buyer's remorse!

We kissed on Sunday, for like 10 minutes or something. She was really receptive and enjoying the moment. She really liked it.
Then we met on Monday, for something like 10 minutes. She wasn't that receptive, but I kissed her and we made out, BUT I swear it was one of the most prude make-out session I've ever done! I didn't even touch her boobs or any other intimate part. I didn't even use the tongue, well just a little bit. It was a kissing session I would have done if I was 14 and scared. BUT in her mind, I was ALL OVER HER.

WTF! I'm 31 and she's 31 too... This games were ok on elementary school. Now they look pathetic to me...

It is ridiculous she's accusing me of taking things too fast, as I took things WAY TOO SLOW for my parameters.

Well, there is only one word I can say to conclude this: NEXT

Consideration about my outer game



Ok, I would like to do a general overview of my game, because it is clear I have some sticking points I can't overcome (yet), and other stuff I can basically say I got some pretty good hang of...

OPENING

The major sticking point here is clearly: I am not opening ENOUGH.

I have three canned opener: The Taylor, The Pullover Gift Size, The Trip Around The World. I've used them to some extension and they seem to always work and I can have a good convo with DHV.

Sometimes I open with whatever comes into my mind, but transition is kinda of rusty.

The point is, I am still NOT OPENING A LOT. I should open every set in the bar, mall, street or wherever, but the truth is I open very little and only if I feel comfortable and I'm interested in the girl I see.

I have to put an end to this. I would like some suggestions about improving in this area.

1) OPEN MORE, just for the sake of speaking. OPEN grannies, open dudes, open HB1s and HB2s.
2) Develop a CHATTY ATTITUDE. As of now, I only speak if I have something meaningful to say. I should just speak about whatever, as a lot of people do.
3) I still can't open MIXED sets. I know the basics, talk to the dude and then win the obstacles. But I can't bring myself to do it most of the times.

DEMONSTRATING VALUE

I think I have some sticking points here, but nothing huge.

My usual DHV routines are:
- description of a day at the beach in Italy
- description of the Easter lunch at the farm in Italy
- description of the "bread baking" party I use to host in Italy

Those ususally works wonderfully as the girls literally fly with their fantasy when I describe a place they've never been in and they always dreamt about visiting...

Some sticking points:
1) Jealousy Plot (punishing her bad behavior talking to other girl). I did this few times, it worked wonderfully. I should practise it more.
2) Not giving too much positive body language. This is major for me. I usually give A LOT of positive body language. It is something that is part of me. I should practise this with cashiers or desk girls. This is one of my biggest sticking point (because I always forgot about it and I start leaning in and stuff)
3) kino response (the classic "hands off the merchandise"). I've never tried it. Sometimes it comes into my mind, but the words don't come out. Basically, because I LOVE when a girl touches me. LOL. I have to try it, at least few times...
4) Takeaways. I tried it only once and it didn't work. I have to give it some more shots

ESTABLISHING CONNECTION/RAPPORT

I think have a pretty good hang of it.

Usually girls says to me "You're an interesting guy, I feel like I've known you for months"

routines I use:
- the cube
- beauty is common
- kino
- cold reading
- natural woman pattern
- incredible connection pattern

Sticking points:
1) MORE KINO, you can never go wrong with kino
2) Mirroring (speaking at her same pace/tone, having her same body language etc). I've never tried it, but I would like
3) Learn handwriting analysis
4) Learn how to read palms

#-CLOSE

I usually use The Flyer routine. It works smoothly. I don't think #-closing is a sticking point to me.

I just have to plant more seeds into her head for a meeting, something specific to do. Usually, if I DHVd properly, it is not a problem...

K-CLOSE

I dont think I have any problem here.

Sometimes I use routines, sometimes I dont, but somehow I am pretty much able to k-close the girl I'm dating, and to overcome the resistance.

F-CLOSE

BIG, BIG problem here.

No matter what I do, lately it always seems I made a mistake.

When I tried escalate rapidly, I failed.
Then I tried to take things slow, and the girl told me "you were all over me" LOL.

There is something I'm missing here.

Maybe I just got unlucky with the last few girls I've dated, that of course is possible.

The main point here is the rejection I guess. I mean, I'm able to kiss a girl within few hours I've met her (giving she's comfortable and interested in me). Then after few k-close section, it always seem her interest fades away, and she start flaking and stuff. And this is ridiculous to me because in my opinion I am HUSBAND MATERIAL! I mean, I can totally see that a girl would want to hang out with me and having a relationship with me. So, why they don't?

I cook delicious italian food (I'm in Canada, so this is a huge DHV), I have my own car, my own place. My place is cool, tidy, clean and has a waterfront on the lake. I play guitar rustly, but I sing very smoothly. I love to dance. I don't do drugs, I don't get drunk, I'm always in control of myself. I have an awesome job with huge career opportunity. I've a good sense of humor, I can make people laugh (maybe I exceed on sarcasm sometimes). Well, I am not extremely handsome, nor tall, nor muscular, but I have a nice outlook, I know how to dress with style and I am in a good shape (I can juggle three balls and breakdance few simple steps).
I am confident and I have an italian accent

Ok, enough with the inner game shit! LOL

The point is... I really CAN'T see why a girl wouldn't want a relationship with me! I'm not searching for a relationship right now, BUT all the previous qualities should make a girl want me... or not?

It kinda of bothers me...

Have a nice sarge guys

STICKY, MAN, STICKY!

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So, I guess you deserve an update my friends!

Pizza Party at My House

I had an idea and I am pursuing it.
I want to throw pizza parties at my house on saturdays.
That means, people have to come early at 3pm, make the dough with me, let the dough rest, and then at 7pm everybody will make his/her own pizza with the ingredients he/she chooses.
This kind of party is somehow common in italian countryside, here in Canada is basically unheard of.

I organized a first "project zero party" saturday 10 days ago.
Three people showed up.
It was me, HB7.5-Flakey, HB8-Brunette, and a friend of mine.
We had fun, the girls LOVED it, even though they didn't come for the dough preparation, but only for the pizza...

The only weird thing was that, the two girls that showed up I already made out with both of them! And there was kinda of a awkward moment when one of them mentioned it, but I kept my frame, so no big deal

Even if few people showed up, the party was a "project zero" because I basically throwed just to know if I had all the equipment necessary for the pizza, if the oven can manage to reach a good temperature in time, using this different yest (canadian yest is different than italian yest lol), and so on.

From now on, the party will be much easyer to throw.

I planned to do it again last saturday (3 days ago), but the girls wanted to go to an other party, so I just joined them

Gym desk girl

I gamed this HB7-GymDesk girl for few days.
It started smoothly and it ended very bad. LOL

She basically called me because of some special offers that the gym was advertising. I almost immediately started to make rapport "Is this an annoying job? I mean, calling all this people during the day, you get a lot of rejection I guess..."
She then forgot about advertising her gym and start telling me she just came back from Italy and stuff.
When I met her at the gym I spoke and DHV'd for 30 minutes, and I number closed very very smoothly.
She actually speaks italian a little bit and says she "would like me to teach her italian, she would be willing to pay". LOL, that's a big IOI!

I invited her to my pizza party, she replyed "thanks for the invitation, I'll see if I can come" = I won't come but I want to be polite.
Then I send her a message in italian, she didn't reply.
Then I invited her to come with me at the mall for buying some shirts, she denied.
The next day, she tells me she have a boyfriend and that texting with me is unappropriate.

ARGH!

Disconnect girl

I'm just mentioning this "disconnect girl" even if it is not strictly about game, but more about weird behaviour by a girl.

Saturday night, I was in a club with my female friends and an AMOG of my group.
HB8-HalfIndian chick opens me.
I start making deep connection with her almost immediately, but she is kinda of weird.
For example, I tell her I would guess what she studies.
I: "I guess you study psychology"
HB says "Almost! It's law!"...
Me: "What do you mean almost? They're very different things..."
HB8: "I have one psychology exam in my program!"

Then I throw some pattern to her, she started really opening up, she told me she had a baby when she was 17, the baby turn out to be blind and her mother has custody of him, and she would like to see him as much as she wants, but she can't...

At some point AMOG came in the conversation, and it all went to hell.
HB8-HalfIndian had a little story with AMOG. She was all over him.
Funny thing, AMOG didn't even remember meeting her!
She was like "AMOG, how come you don't remember my name! We met in this same local! We kissed! You bought me an hot dog! I gave you my number and you never called me!"
AMOG was like "Seriously? I really don't recall any of that"
And HB8 was going CRAZY with it.
She kinoed him like 40 times in 5 minutes (while she kinoed me zero in 15 minutes!).

When AMOG left for few minutes I runned the cube on her.
After I asked all the questions, before telling her the meanings, I made the usual joke: "There is no meaning! I just made it up!"
She SLAPPED me. It wasn't a very hard slap, but it was a slap powerful enough to show willing to hurt. WTF! I've never been slapped by a girl, I can't believe she's slapping me for this insignificant reason!

It makes me laugh that she kinoed AMOG so much, while the only kino I got was a SLAP. LOL

k-close HB8-Brunette

HB8-Brunette asked me out for a coffee.

At the end we didn't go for coffee, but we hung out in my place and I was mounting a bookshelf while speaking to her.
After finishing mounting, I throw a pattern to her that lead me to the kiss-close, which I made up on the spot and I think it worked like a charm!

So here you go, good fellas:

"You know, women are emotional animals, while men are visual animal. We like to visualize stuff. For example when I go out on a date with someone, it will cross into my mind how it would be to have sex with her. This is not because I'm a pervert, it is something hardwired, we can't help it. On the other side, when I go out with you, weirdly, I am not picturing how it would be to have sex with you... but I think about how it would be to eat you out. It might be because of the way you react to pleasure. While most of the girls I know they show pleasure with laughing, very open body language, and loud speaking, you act differently... you seems to want to internalize your pleasure, to treasure it, to hoard it inside your heart. That's maybe why I am instintively thinking to give you a huge amount of pleasure in order to see if how will you react to that."

After this, I kiss-closed.
Sadly, 10 minutes later she runs away (I still have to figure out why... this happens to me quite often... is some kind of buyer's remorse... maybe it's just that the feelings I am eliciting are overwhelming and she starts to be afraid of the consequences, so she flees...)

I have to manage a better calibration of my game.

Its very fun to follow others journals to be honest. You can learn from their mistakes instead of doing them yourself, even tough that sometimes is better.

We're not running any type of the same game, but I like your journal and will follow your progress.

Keep at it mate!

_________________
ROLL the MOTHERFUCKING DICE!
STOP AT NOTHING, DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO.
Don't get locked in on one type of style/technique/method - find what works out for you and create your own style of game!

The content in your journal is very well-organized and I like it, but the last entry was from September!

I will re-sticky this journal if you start updating it consistently again.

So, no updates in a LOOOONG time...
The truth is that I am working my ass off at my job, and I got promoted. Last year was all about that.

In the meantime, few months ago I also got a girlfriend (which was good because I did't have much time to sarge, and I needed that time for doing my job).

My girlfriend was and HB9, which work in my same company (I know, don't date co-workers, but we're a 2000 people company, it's not that bad...). Anyway, the good thing is that I couldn't believe I actually scored an HB9, beautiful, smart, with a good career and not just for a lay, but for a serious relationship.
My confidence went up.
I CAN ACTUALLY SCORE VERY HIGH QUALITY GIRLS. I like that feeling

So, I've been with this girlfriend for 4 months, but in the past few days has been behaving suspiciously, and I had the impression a breakup was coming.

So I took the horse and I stirred it over.
This is the text convo I had with her last night, the night of the breakup:

Me: "May I ask you... Have you been thinking about breaking up with me? I had this gut feeling in the past few days"
Her: "Sorry, I was downstairs folding my 3 loads of laundry"
--- no answer for an hour ---
Me: "So? Can you please answer me? The waiting is killing me "
Her: "I'm sorry we can talk about it tomorrow"
Her: "This isn't a conversation to have over text or phone"
Me: "well, that's ok we both know where this is going. I don't need to get the "talk" anyway."
Me: "Let's get this over with and move on... Agreed?"
Her: "Well, if you don't want to talk about, ok"
Her: "I'm sorry it came up like this"
Me: "Talking is not going to solve anything anyway"
Me: "You're a wonderful girl and you'll find someone else that will make you happy. And i'm a great guy... I'll get by "
Her: "High quality "
Me: "We had a good run though ahah"
Her: "We did "
Me: "Goodnight "
Her: "Goodnight (=I"


Now, I didn't meant to do all that on purpose, it just came out. But reading it afterwards it came up to me a couple of considerations:
1) this might be the smoothest breakup ever for her (for sure it was for me, quite surprisingly!)... also done 100% by text... That's unusual too...
2) there was no "fight" - actually we did never fight in the 4 months relationship
3) She might be quite astonished from my reaction and how I handled the situation

Given the fact that I will meet her again for sure (sooner or later at work, or at the gym), in the long run might this turn into a fuckbuddy?
After all, our relationship was very fuckbuddy-alike rather than the classical "boyfriend-girlfriend" (more about sex and less about going out having fun together)

By the way...

THE GAME IS ON AGAIN!

I wish myself luck and consistency

STAY WITH ME

What you want is usually very close to you, you just have to look in the right direction!

Just a little update and a game plan for the weekend!

HB9-ex gave me three IOIs yesterday and one IOD today...

IOI1 - I crossed her in the company building, i said a cordial "hi" she replied "hi" and stopped walking (as in "I would like to chat a bit"). I kept walking to where I was going...
IOI2 - I was in a meeting with two other engineers for an important job in Italy I was following. We were troubleshooting a pump that is worth half a million dollar. She enters the room to search for a document (pretext?). At some point she literally bent over with her perfect ass 2 meter far from my face. Quite disturbing to tell you the truth. I couldn't think straight for the following 5 minutes. She leaves without finding the document lol.
IOI3 - she sends me an email regarding something of very very minor importance (pretext to contact?).
IOD1 - I cross her in the company building again while I was taking a coffee this morning. She hides herself from me (lol?)

Anyway, apart from this, I have to get back in the game.

My plan of action is really simple, attack - one step at the time - all the phases.

Tomorrow I am going to drive 4h to reach to the custom border in order to renew my work permit.
I am going to make blowout openers in that city far away (counting on the fact that the approach anxiety will be reduced due to the fact "nobody" knows me).

Will post field report

What I want
Do I want to fuck my ex again? Yes
Do I want a relationship with her again? Only under some conditions (that I will not state to her - she has to understand them by herself)
Do I want to date/fuck other women? Yes, definitely!
Do I want to run a marathon by this summer? Yes, man, I want to be the italian man, man!

DADDY'S HOME

Road to perfection

Field report, tonight at the club, was all about openings.

I wrote 100 blowout openers (openers that are meant to go nowhere), so my pressure to perform was zero.
I made about 15 approaches. Surpise suprise, I got two noticeable interactions.

HB7, walking by.
Opener: "I lost my teddy bear, can I sleep with you instead?"
She laught, a little skeptical, but then she stops and starts opening a convo with me "really? teddy bear? that's weird!"
The convo goes on and on, I don't even remember what we said, but she is kinoing me like CRAZY.
I almost can't believe it I got a good set out of such a shitty opener!
Me: "Who are you with?"
She: "My friends..."
Me: "I thought it was supposed to be just the two of us, why did you invite all your friend?"
She laughs and keeps kinoing me like CRAZY (nothing major, like arm and shoulder kino, but CONSISTENTLY).
We exchange names, I wasn't that interested so i let the set brake naturally.

Mistakes: 1) Should have asked for phone number. 2) Should have reciprocate more the kino

HB8, psychiatrist.
Opener: "There are so many things you can do with the human mouth, why waste it on talking?"
HB8 frown a bit, then starts a convo about her bachelorette party.
HB8 start grabbing my ass big times. I let her do it the first time.
The second time I go directly for the kiss (bear in mind it was a 2 minute set at that point) - she avoids the kiss.
The third time she grabs I say: "That would be 20$". She goes blabblafuckingbla.
The fourth time I say: "What are you doing, you don't even know my name!"
I can see her face totally changing at that point. (hook point)
We introduce each other, she says she's sorry if I felt violated. I told her yes, I felt violated.
I go: "You grabbed my ass several time, now you give me your phone number"
She: "No, I won't give you my phone, we'll meet here next week"
Me: "I'm never here, I'm always working, the only way we can meet is if you give me your phone"
She: "blablablafuckingbla"
Then I brake the set.
30 minutes later, I go to her and I hand her my phone "I'm leaving right now"
She punch her digits in. I go to the bathroom.
While I'm in the bathroom she complains with her friend and my friend that I am speaking/picking up too many girls tonight.
My friend thinks this is a good reaction, and she might actually really like me...
I don't know, to me it looks like quite a weak #-close... We'll see where things will go... I haven't thought yet how to continue a game like this in a good manner...

Mistakes: At some point she tells me "I don't believe you're italian!" So i start speaking italian for like 30 seconds. I didn't like it because afterwards i realized it came out as "qualifying myself" - maybe it was ok, but it didn't feel ok, I think it was a mistake. Need to think a line to throw when girl gives me shit test like that...

Final thoughts
It was a super fun night.
I opened 15 sets, and I got one number (which I did not expect because all the openers were very shitty).
All the girls on the bachelorette party were on me. HB8 was grinding with jealousy!
I felt like a boss!

Cheated?

So, I texted the HB8-psychiatrist, but as expected it was a weak #-close.
Nothing I would think would have worked at this point. Waiting would have resulted in a "who's this" kind of reaction, which I hate.
So I texted her: "I'm at work since 6am today, yesterday it was a miracle I found the time to go out!"
And then I tried to elicit emotions with some non-sense (as it was my frame when I met her): "Affable is my favorite word. It has it all: a wonderful sound, a beautiful meaning, a great outlook and an essence of affection... It has everything I want in a word "
No response. Next.

Let's go now to the thing that is turning into my head more and more lately.

I have a gut feeling my HB9-ex girlfriend cheated on me right before breaking up with me.

I was on a work trip for the period between mid-December to 3rd of January. I know it's not the best period to stay away from your girlfriend, but we were not public, so we wouldn't have had much time to see each other anyway. The non-public thing was due to the fact that we work in the same company, so it was the only way to go at the beginning.

Before I leave everything is fine. She is loving, caring, willing to spend time with me, and I am not needy at all, she can go out with her friends as much as she wants, she goes on week-end trips with her girlfriends, it does not bother me at all, etc.

During the time apart I never call her, but I send her a daily video from my iphone of what I was doing that day. She seems to love it and she usually responds with pictures and stuff. she doesn't seem to bother the non-calling situation as long as she receives updates on some form.

When I come back, she is behaving very suspiciously right from the beginning. We sleep together but she doesn't want to have sex. Every time I propose to do something she never agrees, always has an alternative. when we meet she's like looking forward to me to leave. She doesn't give me the Christmas gift she said she ordered for me.

Then the breakup comes (you can see post of Jan 09, 2013).

Now I'm trying to get back in the game again, but I cannot stop thinking whether or not she cheated on me during the time we were apart. It is one of the only explanation that makes sense. If she had any other kind of problem with me, she could have tried to speak up. If she was bored, or if she had a problem with the fact that I work too much and such, she would have talked to me first and try to solve it... Instead it was direct break-up. the only other reason I can think about is if our "non-public" situation was somehow leaking out to the other people at work and she panicked and ended the relationship.

So, now I am in the NoContact time, and it will last for a least three more weeks.

My problem is that the "cheating" part, if true, it's bothering me. I don't know if (when the NoContact time finish) I want to ask her whether she cheated or not. I don't know if I'll believe her if she says no.

And above all I don't know how I feel about myself to be cheated on.
I usually take responsibility for all the things that happens to me. So, it is my responsibility, or at least I could have done something different to avoid all this...

Any advice?

HB8-psychiatrist gave me a fake number... ahaha... I guess what goes around comes around! I was being a real douchebag that night with the girls, coming up with border-line offensive lines and such...

On the other side, I decided that I will confront my HB9-ex to see if she cheated on me.
I'll wait until the NoContact period ends, so in three weeks.
The situation will be much calmer then, and it'll be more likely to get a sincere answer, rather that an half-lie between the lips to decipher.
Need also to think about a method to bring that up. As of now, the most efficient method I can think is to burst the question out of the blue to test the reaction...

Good sarge guys

To the rescue!

I broke the NoContact with the HB9-ex. It was just a sigle text -she replied - that's it.
It is a mistake? Yes. However, it is a very tiny one, and I needed to send that one because of the situation (us working in the same company). I didn't beg her back or try to meet her, so the game is still on.

On the other side, I feel that I need a NoContact period longer than 3 weeks for HB9-ex. I am thinking an order of magnitude of something like three months.
In three months I can be a completely different person if I get my shit together...

Anyway, last saturday, those blowout openers, really opened me up.
I feel I can open ANYONE. I can open a 20-set. I can open DAUGHTERS WITH MOMS.
So I'm going to continue on this road of the blowout openers for this week. Once I reach the quote of 200 openers, the AA and the basics of the opening will be a second nature and I'll be able to focus on the next step...

Sometimes I feel a bit bad for the girls that receives my blowout openers. But at the end of the day I need to do that. To get rid of this AA once it for all. Most likely I won't see those girls ever again.

Next week, I have in mind a blowout room. I'm going to the gym to join a class (like the Goodlife Fitness ones). Right before the class, while everyone is waiting to enter the room, I'll introduce myself to everyone. This will mean shaking hands with something like 15 to 20 girls (and maybe a couple of guys).
BLOWOUT ROOM! Anything can be done!

Field Reports coming!

Been in the gym the last week, I am getting back in shape REALLY fast (I'm almost surprised how fast!).
I'll keep going steadily, also because the gym is one of those few places where hot girls gather around in this city.

Tonight there is a student party in a club, but I don't know if I'll feel confident enough to go for blowout openers by myself (actually I don't see why not, I am not going to see those girls ever again anyway... at least I'll get some confidence boost out of it!). I'll decide later whether I'll go or not.

Things are not getting the way I hoped with HB9-ex.
I planned to have a NoContact time, but somehow we got involved in the same project in the last week, so the result is that I see her at least once a day. And we speak.
I don't have any feelings for her, but I would like to fuck her again. The problem is, if I can't make her miss me I'm not going anywhere. Of course I am not contacting her out of work.
But my point is, she is somehow getting a "dose" of me every day, so she won't come to that point in which she's wondering "what is he doing?" or "maybe I should send him a text to check on him" and that other kind of stuff that will head towards a hook-up period...

Giving this situation, I think I have lost her for good.

And I need to sarge.

Phone number deleted

Temperatures in my city are going cold, very very cold. It was -30C last weekend and 15cm of snow... not the best time to fool around and sarge.

I deleted my HB9-ex phone number from my phone, I was in great danger to text her. Best decision ever.

Going to pull off the "blowout room" at Goodlife Fitness this saturday at 9am

My workout program is going pretty well, I think I will add a second workout on 2 weekdays (as I already workout everyday). Hope not to get burned out.

I am noticing a good boost in my confidence since my breakup two weeks ago...
I hope I will start turning things around pretty soon!