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What I really want to know is: how can I ever forgive myself for not taking actions earlier?
Time heals all wounds homie, every guy has that "one that got away", usually it's an early stage of adulthood and more often that not makes you focus and steer towards a better path in life. Just don't sit there and sulk or feel bad about yourself. You'll start questioning yourself and That will eat at you, bro.
It'll pass. In the meantime, you should be repressing that guilt by distracting it with Game. Get your bros together and hit the town. It's saturday. That's what it is.