So I broke it off with my ex (first love, first sex etc) after 2.5 years, she begged me to take her back but I didn't. Went No contact.
A mont later, met this new girl, everything was great till we started making out, somehow remembered the ex, so I called her up and...she has a new boyfriend (after 1 month) but she told me she still loves me and misses me. I felt sick jealousy and depression from the inside and an urge to get back with her.
After that I told her I'm also dating so she started talking shit about me and the new girl, so I went No contact again - blocked her everywhere.
She might have called me dozens of times, I don't know, but she left me a voice mail telling me she's having very hard time and she needs my support.

That was 2 days ago. Today I gave up- Sent her a message telling her how we can never be together because she disrespected me by jumping on the bones of the first guy she met, and I do not wish to talk to her anymore because I simply respect myself.

She answered me by telling me all the bad things I've done in the relationship (kept the relationship secret for a year [yeah I know], lying to her and ignoring so many things she did) and basically she turned me to a major jerk, and told me to "have fun with your slut", that I will never meet my special someone, and she's happy our relationship is over. I felt like the biggest ass in the world.


I was devastated, but felt a moment of total insanity so I tried to call her maybe 10 times and she didn't answer so wrote her-

"I know you won't ever talk to me again, but I just wanted to tell you I'm sorry for all the bad things I've done, you're an amazing person and we just aren't meant for eachother in our own ways. I thought I was hurt, but at the end it's just that we've both moved on and it's amazing because I thank you for being there for me in the hard moments, and thank you for all the nice things you've done for me. I will never forget you, and I'm giving you all of my love and warmth, I love you as a person and hope you'll live a happy and perfect life, good luck with the new boyfriend, let you two stay together forever (if you'd wish so) and thanks from all of my heart.:)"

I know it sounds so wussy but in some way it's what I felt at that moment and really - when thinking of her happy, I felt happy - no more jealousy or anger towards her. I felt free!

Unfortunately she hasn't answered me yet, buy I'm not sure I'm interested to hear her answer, it feels like I just cleaned myself...

I was very depressed lately because of the situation, and especially due her new boyfriend, I knew I can get her back easily (and I wanted it), but it would be the wrong thing to do since (I thought) I moved on, but now I guess SHE is the one who moved on and I have no other way but to push forward...

I don't feel like I want her back, but I feel depressed. I started working out regularly and work on my body a lot more, made new female friends and have a new girlfriend...why am I feeling like my all of my foundations broke off??

Also, I'm afraid she's gonna talk shit about me to all of her friends (some of them are mutual to me), which in a way will ruin my chances with girls who are her friends.

I know my writing skills suck right now and I am so confused and shocked...WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!

*Im no Guru/Expert?Master or whatever so you can take what I say with a pinch of salt if you like*

First of all, my god you sound like a total ASSHOLE! You treated her like shit, dumped her and then because you remembered her you called her up!? What the fuck dude? You are not the centre of the world and this is not how you treat people, especially someone you "love" or loved once. You are supposed to enrich the people you interact with, not beat them down!

Sounds harsh but it had to be said.

You are, for want of a better phrase "love sick", and like any other sickness you can get over it. It gets worse before it gets better etc, google the flu and that is what you have but in your head. Follow the advice you get there accordingly.

Hitting the gym and interacting with people is exactly what you want to be doing, get out some anger and get some female attention. With regards to her/your friends, fuck them. There are millions of other women out there

Best of luck

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I think this thread should be labeled "Very typical ex girlfriend issues". Both you and your ex should realize that you no longer play a part in each others love lives.

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Update-

I decided I will be OK with MLTR, and I don't really care for her.

I called her, we talked for a bit and then we planned to meet up. She then told me she and her new boyfriend almost had sex, I told her it's OK and showed her I'm cool with it.
When we've met she acted all cold and not caring, told me "i'm afraid of you" "we shouldn't do this" and "please don't touch me" etc, I almost flipped out but then I answered her as in LMR (you're right...we shouldn't do this...it's so wrong..) and it went smooth and we've had sex, it was awesome. She cried of happiness and yelled she loves me and always will.

While I walked her home she couldn't be any happier. when we've got to her parent's home they were so pissed, I stood confident and hugged her goodbye.

Guess she argued with her parents and friends a lot that night, she later called with sadness and started telling me she feels sorry for the other guy etc, I replied "he'll be alright" and "awww, do you want me to comfort him?", later on I continued giving her extreme comfort, but after a night's sleep she started acting all weird, telling me she's confused and doesn't know what to do.

I told her "yeah you're probably right..it might have been a mistake...I'm not sure you're ready for this relationship" she then replied by "you said you'll fight to hold me, guess I was wrong" which I replied with "call me" and she still hasn't.

Am I getting too needy and clingy? I am the one to project comfort and love, I guess she need to build up trust before continuing this - or am I doing it all wrong?

Am I too emotionally invested? Right now I have 2 separate relationship, and plan on a 3rd and a 4th one, however I feel attached to this girl, oneitis if you may.