Guys...I just need to vent. I'm completely infatuated by this exotic Persian beauty. Some of you may have heard me mention her a couple times, but sometimes she just floats into my head and I can't stop thinking about her. I had her once, in my bed, us feeling one another's bodies and enjoying the night, but then she kissed my lips goodnight and I never saw her again. She just seemed to have lost interest. I've gained a little more confidence around girls, but I still got a lot to learn from you guys, which I was reminded of the other day. Anyways, here's what happened:

She appeared out of nowhere a few feet away from me walking in my direction with about two or three guys that were bigger than me. I felt so belittled, I felt...like shit. Everything just shut down and I realized that I just got so much "training" to look forward to. It damaged my ship pretty badly, but my plan is to just talk to as many girls and people in general as I can and to take other girls out on a date. Once I become an mpua, I hope we cross paths again because if I don't find another girl that I find better than her by then, I'm gonna make her mine.

You'll probably go through this same thing with a lot more girls dude, shit happens. Some of them you'll go back to and get later, some you won't. Don't worry, it passes. Remind yourself that no girl is irreplaceable.

Thanks bro, I honestly need to here things like that. Shit is...shit in the present. It takes a lot to see the golden future.

Of course, that's always the case. You'll fight it every minute along the way, its up to you if you crack under the pressure or not. I dunno what helps you, working out, music, talking to other girls... whatever. Just find out what helps and do it til you get over the hump.

Taking notes like a journal also helps too. Like, a LOT.