Hey everyone,
So I'm new to the forum and I don't know how many people will actually read this but fuck it, I've always found writing to be a very therapeutic outlet for blocked emotions so I'll write it anyway
I'm an 18 year old, short, hairy, brown skinned kid from Greater London. I've lived life so far isolated from social interactions thanks to over protective parents which has left me socially awkward and nervous. My social life existed only in school and died straight after 3 o'clock. All the years spent alone in my bedroom have been spent practicing martial arts, playing the piano and doing random bullshit while my friends kept growing up and learning naturally how to interact with other humans.
When I was 15, I started smoking weed. It was a great way to escape from my problems at first but now, it just amplifies feelings of awkwardness, social anxiety and paranoia. But the lonelier I feel, the more weed I want to smoke and all it does it make me feel worse. wtf
I found out about the seduction community (like so many others) after reading Neil Strauss's
The Game. Since then, I've never stopped reading, watching videos and learning about pickup while being cooped up in my bedroom as usual. Style's book really opened my eyes and hugely influenced me and I'm so glad that I read it. It's a form of guidance. Style wrote that ultimately, most AFC's are the way they are because our parents didn't teach us how to be real men. The "good boys" our parents want us to be makes us grow into "nice guys" who never get laid. Style's book for me were words of fatherly guidance that I didn't get as I grew up.
Anyways, enough of the sob story, because after 18 years of isolation, I'll finally be free in 3 weeks!!! I leave home for university where i don't give a shit about what I'm studying. It's just a ticket out. I'll be able to go out clubbing and do normal people shit and I can't wait!
My ambitions for the future is to finally be comfortable around different people. I want to meet gorgeous girls and lots of them and I want to grow into (as Style says) my best self.
So i feel as though this post may be my first step into a new life. I look forward to hearing from you guys and maybe through out these posts, you'll see me grow.
Shinobi
CHAT