| APOLOGIES FOR THE LONG POST, BUT WOULD APPRECIATE IT IF SOME OF YOU COULD STAY WITH ME......
I met this superb girl on holiday when I went to Hungary (worked at the hotel I was staying at), a total HB10. Not just in looks, but in personality etc too.
I was super funny to her, and when I met her I joked proposed to her and that went down well.... I then asked where she was going the next night, she turned up at a bar my mates all went to (even though she hadn't been there before)....When she had a drink, she totally loosened up, she wasn't drunk (I wasn't drunk and can tell when people are hammered) and we talked loads and I got her number.... I even remember us talking about our fictitious wedding, but seriously she said her and her friend were planning on going to Italy on hol but that she'd prob come and see me now.... I didn't think nothing of it and we just talked but I wasnt putting all my eggs in one basket and my mates wanted to go elsewhere so we buggered off.
I saw her the next day at the hotel and carried on the joke of getting married and let some other hotel staff into the joke, being really confident about it.... It seemed to go down well... That night she was finishing at 8am after a 12 hr shift... I managed to persuade her to come out with me for breakfast in the morning... We went out and talked for like 4 hours (remember she has finished a 12hr shift with no break)... Conversation was good, and I was making her laugh all the time, it was 'hard' conversation at one point - but I put this partly down to different nationalities and her being a HB10 and a lot younger than me - 19 compared to 27......Her friend even called her and said she has a surprise for her at her appt - after which I asked if she wanted to go back, but she said 'no we can wait a bit longer'..... This was my last night on hol, and I was trying to get her to come out tonight..... She said she wouldn't know if she could as she had to go out of town with her brother but if she was back in town, she would come out..... I kissed her at the end and went on my way.
When text each other a couple of times during the day, then I tried to phone her but she didnt answer.... But then text me asking where I was.... She then turned up and we spoke for ages, and we kissed each other for ages until like 3am (I totally lost track of time - prob kissing for an hr)... She said she had to go back to her appt, I said I would come with her, but her reply was 'no I have to sleep'.... She didnt have any drink whilst she was out and I suppose being up for over 24hrs didnt help.... During the walk back I said to her 'so when will I see you again' to which she replied 'I dont know - next year?' then I left it at that knowing I would see her tomorrow at work.
Anyway, this is where I fuck up!
I then text her like once back to the hotel saying how much of a great time I had etc, how she was a great kisser blah blah (I know what a fucktard right) the next day she seemed a bit different and distant at the hotel... I thought I had blown it and didnt really progress conversation that much.... Although conversation was always a bit more hard work then lower HB's...Anyway, I tried to save things by saying why dont you come and have a drink after you finish work for 30 minutes before I have to leave for my flight.... Anyway she came over, but said she had to go back to the appt to look after her friend as she had a headache or some shit.
Anyway, I have added her on FB and we've had a few chats together etc and a few texts together.....Most recently I tried to call her but she didnt return my call or hasn't replied to my last FB message so know that things are most likely done.
I know that things are most likely over as I have pursued too much, and was too needy.... And in a way I kind of feel good she hasn't replied to any message etc as this means I can just ignore her and move on.... Right now I am surrounding myself with women and going out with confident mates who can open sets and get me talking to other women etc.....
The thing is, what do I do if she texts/ FB messages me again? - I mean chances are she wont and I will just forget about her and she'll be a memory, but if she does reply, how do I play it? I assume I would ignore her for a week or so before replying.... In the meantime, live my life continue to post pics of me on Facebook (this is normal and always have done this) and the more with me and HB's the better right?
I suppose I am just looking for closure from people more experienced then me (I have always been in long relationships) on the following:-
*There were strong signals there and I prob could of F-closed if I acted a bit quicker
* I prob did scare her away in the end because of my neediness
* If she were to FB message again in the future, I need to stay in complete control and be really casual
* I probably wont hear from her again
Anyway, sorry for rambling.... Sometimes its just best to get confirmation from people wiser than you, and all of you guys are wiser than me and would appreciate any feedback.
Thanks
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