Hi!
I am new to forum, but i regularly read thru posts on this forums.
I am quite a newbie so please help me out if you can

So this story is about a girl i know some 5 years. We were never friends or something like this, we just met once a month because she is friend of my friend. But things changed a year ago, when we met several times a week and I got to know her better. I liked her, so I played my game. I did quite good (I think) because we got quite close and met each other often. So on one house party I danced with her and than got really close in hug, almost K-closed, but she said she is still stressed from breaking up with her BF, which she parted from few months ago. So i stupidly backed off saying i like her. Than a week ago I met with her and said that i am sorry for that, but i really like her, but we would still be friends and hang out. I really blew that i know, but I was totally devastated... So for a half a year we didn't really met but than we met at some party and had quick chat, nothing more. But month later we met again a few times thru friend which had BBQ month. So i spoke with her, again nothing about things that happened almost year ago. After that we met with same group of people again and again, so i felt i need to do something about her. Every time I met her I played some game, kino escalated, but couldn't K-closed because it felt weird. Also she always backed of an inch when we sat on couch and touched with legs. I had that feeling that she is trying to friend-zone me. So a few days ago we met at friends house where our friends had gathered for some BBQ. I tried everything from eye contact, to negging, push pull, everything that i regularly did when we met. Eventually we were alone in room on couch, so i wanted to continue kino escalation, but she backed off a little. Because I have really low self esteem my game dropped and I didn't continue with the game and eventually left. But when we were all leaving she said she is home alone in a few days and we (meaning me and my two friends, who were talking in group-one girl and one fiend which has GF) should come visit. We could even sleep there in case of alcohol of late hour (she is from another town). We hadn't heard from that (few days). So please tell me if i should even go and if i go should I try to play my game or change it. How do I even close with this girl? I even considered telling her that i don't want to hang out with her because i have feelings for her and cant stand being just a friend with her (which is true). I really want to end this one way or another.

Thanks for your help!