Hi there, I know my screenname is a bit silly, it's a bit of a joke, don't take it too seriously.
I've recently discovered the pick up community. I've watched loads of advice videos online and then eventually discovered and read The Game which was a big eye opener.
I'm a 21 year old guy originally from the Philippines, but currently living in England. I have a VERY troubled past. During my childhood my family migrated to different countries and I've been to at least 5 different primary schools as a child. This hugely affected my social development. My family have a history of being shy, so I have always been a very shy person.
At the age of 8 I migrated to a new country. For some reason I developed a very strange way of walking. I have no idea how this came about. Loads of people use to make comments about me and call me gay. I was a 9 year old child and grown adults were making fun of me and calling me gay. I remember I use to question whether I might actually be gay like people were saying..This lasted for around 3 years. By then my self esteem had been severely damaged.
To make things worse, I developed what is called "Selective Mutism" literally didn't speak a word to anyone in my school...students teased me and teachers were fed up with me and just ignored me as if I didn't exist. People constantly asked me if I was mute.
At the age of 11 we migrated once again. I still had my problems with Selective Mutism but it improved. In this new country I recieved a lot of racial abuse. Because of this I felt ashamed of being Asian and wanted to be caucasian. During my Karate lessons a few kids use to punch me and bully me for being Asian despite them learning an Asian martial art.
Fortunately we left that country and moved to where I am now, England. Sadly for me though my entire time in secondary school(year 6 - 11) was probably the worst time of my life. My Selective Mutism became worse. I still recieved some racial abuse. Literally during my entire time at secondary school I had ABSOLUTELY NO FRIENDS WHAT SO EVER. Not even outside of school. It was 5 years of hell for me. I didn't speak to anyone apart from the ocassional 1 word. People bullied and teased me for being quiet. They always called me a mute. I also got racist comments. Teachers didn't do s**t.
I've always been a positive person which helped me get through tough times. But I became really depressed. I never went as far as cutting myself, but I did stuff that damaged my body. I had no care about my appearance what so ever. I never exercised and didn't care about acne or grooming myself. I use to give myself scars on my body on purpose. When I would get some spots or a rash on my chest I would scratch so much until my skin would bleed and purposely make my skin scar. I still have the scars today.
I made some online friends and got addicted to this MMORPG video game. My internet life was my reason for living and literally got me through those years. Without these I most probably would have contemplated suicide. as I aged I started to make small steps to improvement and got a bit better. But my self esteem and confidence was completely destroyed and I had no social skills. I was a really damaged BROKEN person.
3 years ago I made the bold decision of moving to a different school. Literally the best thing I ever did in my life. My life turned around and I'm like a new person.
I'm still a bit insecure and not very confident. I've had to play catch up with developing social skills and I still have a lot to learn. But In just 3 years I really have improved SO MUCH. I'm now very proud to be Asian and I have friends(not a lot). I'm much more confident than before and have a lot more going for me. Appearance wise I get quite a lot of girls finding me attractive, now I need to work on my personality.
I've turned my life around and I feel like the next step is for me to improve my love life with the ladies.. The future is bright. I look forward to being a member of this forum. Hopefully one day I can call myself a PUA.
Thanks for reading my life story lol.
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