Session 11
I was tired form work last night but I still wake up early due to a call from work and my boss had ask me to come early because he wants me to kind of come to interview potential new employee. So that means I have to sarge early and leave early.

So pull myself out of the bed, took a shower and went on my way to the street. Again I did not a set goal in mind but I still decided to go out… while on the street I kind of regret not putting day gaming goals so this kind of fuck me up.

I did my usual primer… saying hi and quick convo to people. That went well

Now I reach the street I started to have a AA Big time. This is weird because it is the feelings that I felt when I was just starting out in Day 1.

Heart pumping real hard and nervous…

Thoughts started running to my head, I think is it because I had not done a more serious sarging in the last 4 days and no goals maybe? . I also did became sef-conscious about my clothes did I wear my best today …Shit I don’t know


I have only 2.5 hours so I had to do at least one approach. I went to inside clothing store and finally found this very cute Asian lady browsing handbag, I went to the same aisle as she was and I aited till walks towards me. As she passed by I went and chased her.

Went with a routine opener “Hi how are you? I think your very pretty what’s your name?” She thank me but she very shy, so I felt shy as well. She was with her friend that also shy I had to ask her name twice because her voice was very soft. I had to eject

In between that last apporach nothing actually very good happen, I am not sure if I am making any progress at all, so many good HB’s walking by but I cant still pull myself into approaching them

Something is really missing and I need motivation …

I was walking the street I got sucked into this cute lady that is working for some organization and start talking about how I could help. In short she wants me to donate every month to solve a world problem.

Well have problem of my own …

I showed her that I had no interest in what she is selling however she keeps insisting so I figured this a good way to practice … She ask me series of question I got bored but part of the convo that got stuck in my head went something like this …
Your name? …Flackbait
Your number? …why don’t you give me yours and I will call you so we can hang out..
She refuse and promise to give me hers if I subscribe… In my mind I said “fuck that” She went on to telling me about the program and shit like that but I really did not want to hear it. So I start negging her about having them memorize which she admits.
Me: Is that your favorite color? Pointing to vest
Her: Yeah
Me: Cool Because I read about this book the other day, its about a personality book based on favorite color, what else is your favorite color
Her: Blah Blah
Me: that is contrasting color
Her: Well..its blah blah
Her: I also like blah blah color
Me: What? You gotta be shitting. So you like that color too. pointing at a flag hanging in a pole
Her: No I don’t like the combination
Me: Good because I was about to say that is kind of gayThe convo went for about 10 minutes with good amount of teasing and bantering. The was total eye contact as well..she was not shy about it and neither do I not letting my eyes off of hers…
Neither one of us get what we are looking for in the end though… I told her that I will be back to sign up but I did not which she kinds of expect because many had done it before.
I don’t know how will it turn out but I am hoping that since she got my number she would call me. As I am writing this part of the session, she is still out there on the street doing her work saving humankind …

Hell Yeah

Funny things happen at work this morning; I was doing some glass work I saw one of the visitors looking at the one of our smaller aquarium.

She is smoking hot so I hovered back and forth to gather myself and talk to her. I approached her and suggested that we got a bigger aquarium in the lower level with fish on it. Just from guessing she is a foreigner.

I tried a cold reading and guess her nationality from the spot and she was very surprise I got it. We chat a bit, and then I continued work. while working I keep on telling myself to go chat with her again probably show her some more exhibits. Anyhow I went back and chatted and show her some more exhibit. After a while I told her that I have to get back to work and I ask her if we could hang out sometime and ask for her phone number she gladly did.

I was so happy inside and she was very honest that this number she give me is a US number and once she go back to her country Its going to get cut off. So now I must find a way to get to Day two as she got few days left to stay in the city….

Reflection

I must admit, for me and I probably speaks for the other newbies out there that day gaming is a lot of hard work. However the reward is paying off, after several session I have seen some dramatic changes in my behavior. Day by day I see the ‘new’ me taking over the “old” me. Everyday I try to improve myself whether out gaming or not. I become even friends with guys that are very sociable and kind of mirror what they do .
Things that changes to me since I started:
• I became less interested in many things that I used to do a lot before like playing video games, long nights of watching porns and TV series
• I became more tired at work the day after sarging (took a nap every breaktime)
• I spend hanging outside more and more often
• I struck conversation with anyone at work and outside
• I say hi to random people on the street
• I work out even more
• I become more conscious about the way I walk, talk, and project myself.
• I smile a lot more now than ever. Less agitated and even laugh at things that annoys me ..

Looking back after more than 10 session: here is what I have accomplished

K-Close : 0
N-Close: 5 (including the ones I never had time to put on journal)
Day 2: 1
F-Close: 0

Great journal mate - keep it going