I posted this a few weeks ago...

Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2012 7:33 pm Post subject: Awkward Silence?
So...what's up guys. I'm trying to figure something out. I went up last weekend to michigan to see my ex g/f. Fucking great weekend. Happy to see me, family happy to see me, out drinking with friends, sex, kisses...holding hands...the whole 9 right. I'm in the military so I suck at goodbyes and we just wnet our ways right. So...i get a text on the plane saying did you land safely? I reply simply with "Home." She writes to me...that's good to hear. I get a missed call from her later that day. She texts me and says...call me when you wake up from napping. So...I did. She told me something like I am at the gym working out and I'm going to my g/fs house for dinner tonight...and something muffled after that...I assumed it was I'll call you later. NEVER happened. So...I called her the next day just to do a follow up...no answer...no call back...it has been 4 days since I have heard from her...any thoughts???

So...since then I got a text message friday talking about her getting a new car and asking me how my week was. After some bs texts back and forth (we were both doing it) I got to the point of the convo by saying "i know we talked about me coming up this weekend but I have x,y,z going on...however...I have next thurs through Sunday off if you want to get together" She replied with yeah I need a relaxing weekend...ya let's talk about this week..." I told her I will call her later after I get out of work. She said aww...okay. So...I wake up sat morning to a missed text saying "r u up?" I text her back and called her...got nothing. Sunday comes around...she texts me saying she missed the text and she wants to chat with me...so...I told her to call me later. Nothing...3 days passed until the wed before I was planning on going up there to see her again...she is in Michigan...I am in NY. So...she calls me and I answer...and it is a phony convo. We both knew it. I just didn't know what the fuck was going on. So...neither one of us brought up the topic of me visiting. I had an idea something was wrong with her since I left and just stayed with the gut feeling. So...i text her later on saying...sorry this weekend didn't pan out...i've got some time off in the beginning of july if you want to hang out. Just give me a heads up bc my friend wants to road trip down to charlotte. i got a phone call immediately after that. And then it all came out. It was a little much but...it was along the lines of the conversation she had with her sister. The whole weekend I was up there, her friends and family brought up the idea of me and her. Some of them even told me to move out to Michigan. A little pressure but...all I did was entertain the idea. I guess in convo, i told her sister that I knew she was still looking and that she needs to make her own decisions in life and that if anything was to happen between me and her...I would consider moving out there. This all did not sit well. I knew everyone was going to cram me down her throat. I told her that just as much as she was getting pressured from her friends and family, I was getting the same. I just choose not to let it bother me. So we cleared the air...she said she was not trying to be dramatic it just felt like too much pressure. The only thing I keep thinking is that after I left, it was out of my control as to what people were going to say...but I'm the one that loses. We had a fucking great time and I just wanted to keep it going. I didn't label us as anything over even approach the subject. I told her on the phone...D...we had fun...let's just leave it at that. It was a great time and who cares what everyone else thinks. It was a relief in the conversation and I told her jokingly that who doesn't want to just get drunk and have sex and have fun??? She laughed but besides that...i told her...let me know if you want to hang out...i got some time coming up again. And she went into how busy she was but told me she is going to be around my area visiting her g/f the 3rd week in July. Since we have mutual friends out that way, she told me to come. I don't see that happening. I feel like I am putting too much pressure on myself to make this work but...I feel like she just needs space. I don't want to be forgotten and my mind is going nuts with this stand still...I'm not worried about other guys bc she is not my g/f...but I', worried about if she is going to call...how do i act when I see her again? I mean...is this going to be one of those...neutral hangouts where it was "good to see me" and make every effort to let me know were "just friends" btw...I don't think friends fuck for an entire weekend...but...i don't know...my mind is all over the place...someone with some fucking guidance...help me. please.

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No one??? Thanks guys...

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no one wants to read long texts with no paragraphs.

cliff notes plz