I feel as if Im naturally learning game.

I don't want to use all these techniques, such as negs, time constraints etc.

I want to practice using just the intent of what I want and confidence!!

Pick up shouldn't be someone trying to be someone else getting laid, I want to connect, understand and have strong sexual relations with the girls I meet. Thats not to say I wont use certain techniques, but il always make sure they are intended for fun and not just to get laid. I love who Im becoming, I feel the urge to talk to every hot girl!! I do want to be socially intelligent (If that makes sense), humans are very complicated socially, but it's possible and fascinating to learn how the dynamics work.

Im kind of rambling here, but I really needed to clear that up, or just document my thoughts.

moving on to the field reports:

-Hit on some HB6-7s while drunk and sober at this bar in the city (one of the chicks were preggers and the other married, good times). Just playful banter, direct openings, never went anywhere serious

-Went for solid street game. I've improved a ton!! It's so easy to talk to a chick just sitting down or stationary in general, fucking moving chicks are real hard. I've become adept at stopping them, continuing the convo and really making something special out of it while always being direct stating my intentions(Having fun, or sex, or a strong connection). I usually just get a bud from course to point out a girl and there I go, doesn't matter the group, I always do it. Im just having problems with flakes but il get there, it's just a stage of the journey to becoming a PUA.

I feel the fucking awesomeness of being me become even more awesome with every approach!!

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Street Game as usual:

Approached so many sets/groups at lunchtime at course. It's incredibly fun just going up to strangers and saying some weird shit. I got only 1 number, seemed like a solid close too, sent the text: "hey cutie, hows the thug life?"

Went to a girl on a ladder in the entrance of the shop and basically told her I could see her but from the outside and its quite nice, really just taking the piss. She enjoyed it however!

I've learnt that confidence and how you take rejection are key to street game!! It's always fun and going to occasionally be a hit or miss, but Im getting some amazing results. It's a part of me now, I've built a reputation as the guy who gets all the hot girls.

I do have a secret though(teehee) although I don't mind waiting for sex and Im not overly eager, Im actually still a virgin!! Im going to get laid soon, it's just a matter of time.

Still having the time of my life, I love who I am, seriously. I want to improve and make my life EVEN better, fuck yea!!

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Quick post, things I just need to cement:

Pick up every Wednesday and Sunday. EVERY week.

Always making sure to do atleast 30 minutes of sarging 2 lunch breaks at course

Getting some sort of talking bundle for a 100 minutes on the phone, since text game
usually ends in a lot of flakes!! Trying something new :]

Also going to use a new work out routine soon!! Since My old one is sort of wearing thin and Im not able to progress too much. Going to be interesting since it's 5 days a week instead of 3 like my current one!

Going out Sarging tomorrow, aiming for dates after I've seen this porno called czech streets. The dude basically does pick up there, and he gets laid in the same meeting. Lets try it out, will be a ton of fun :]

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Couldn't go to the city since the trains were down today and didn't want to wait the hour to and back from the city.

Still was pppppretttyyyy fucking fun

Approached 5-6 sets

It's like every hot girl has a boyfriend, makes sense. It was Sunday too, so shouldn't really expect any real hot hotties to be shopping that time

Got 1 what-appeared-to-be-a-solid-number, hope this one doesn't flake. I was genuinely interested in her, she seemed cool and I'll report back later this week for the phonecall!

Interaction went something like this:

Me: Hey just a second, I know this is going to sound really strange..
Her:*stops to talk to me*hhhhmmmm?
Me: Well I know its really weird that some guy is coming up to you but really I just had to come tell you, your ridiculously cute and you have a real nice style
Her: hahahaha
Me:Seriously the patterns and everything are real nice (I was looking at her dress, was sort of one of those dresses girls wear with pants)
Her: Yea Thanks haha
Me:So what are you doing?

Basically just some fluff talk, was real nice but she was going to work, and it happened she worked at this shoe shop just seconds away from where we were standing. Was real fun!!

Something interesting I should note is that unlike previous sarging sessions where I just went up to any girl, this time around I made sure I was interested or attracted to the girl before I approached.

Another stand out was this 30 year old hotty who was at this random counter of sorts eating some strange food/dunno.

Went direct on her, basically a lot of kino but unfortunately she was engaged! She talked about setting me up with her mate. Told me I would find a girlfriend real easy, so she was ssooooo attracted!!

There were 3 others but il just brielfy mention them hopefully when I read this il be able to remember them:

2 16 year olds with bfs (shhhhiiiitttt)
Jewellery chick who was looking after her little bro and was afraid I'd break her bf's heart
Two chicks who wouldnt stop to talk

Overall I had so much fun, glad I went out. The improvement in my confidence when approaching and just my approaches in general is evident.

Really happy to be me!! Im going to improve even more I can tell. Thats the greatest thing about all of this, this is me!! It's not really pick up techniques, Im being myself.
2 chicks who didnt even want to talk to me: only time that night I got that!

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I've done many, many approaches and always get heaps of flakes or girls who say they have bfs/just disinterested etc.

I have however had some cases where I really push the girl, but only in the moment with her and not on dates!!

These have included some extremely strong kino, have yet to kiss but I've literally picked a girl up had some 'interesting' hugs (Girl doesn't want to let go) One which happened today:

Basically my mates like oh shit that chick is hot as!! Dare you to get her.

So I did. basically went up the main street in the city to go find her, but hey, got her eventually.

I was direct from the start she ended up telling me how she was in 3 year relationship and the only reason she really stayed was because of the sex.

How she got to the sex part of the relationship 1-vt43374.html?start=0 that works wonders. Only if you know how to use it properly though. It can DEFINETLY backfire.

I used some cocky/funny to try and persuade her: Hey look Im just looking out for you here, I don't want you to miss out on someone as awesome as me, seriously.

There was some kino, basically two hugs and some strong sexual talk. I asked her how big her bfs dick was and she said ginormous. Shit.

So I think Im heading in the right direction somewhat, I sort of need to learn how hook women before number close.

Also finally read DYD(Double your Dating) Theres something very interesting I would like to try out. Basically David tells the girl they have a friendly outing and while on the outing, start busing out some cocky/funny and sexual innuedos.

Im actually very good with cocky/funny. I work out quite abit and always look good, yea I think Im the shit. Any girl would be lucky to have me.

So I guess we'll see how this goes

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After reading the Game I've come to realize even more so then before pick up sometimes can mean becoming someone your not.

Im so glad I made the choice to just be myself improve myself and let my game come forward from what I am. I've been doing a lot in my life that I love and I've just been working more and more to improve myself and who I am so that life is amazing as usual and who I actually am will become attractive.

I'm definitely cocky/funny.

I had a HUGE problem with texting before,conveying personality during texthttp://www.pick-up-artist-forum.com/random-tex ... highlight=, and after a chick that didn't reply to my calls/text for a week and a half...

Finally somewhat of a breakthrough!
Heres the texts

Me: *** Baaby quit playin hard 2 get. Im tryin 2 improve ur life here
Cutie:Sorry ive been busy with exams. Do i give the impression my life needs improving? Haha
Me:Ur life ws fine b4 bu with me it'l b ALOT bettr hun;] When r u free?
Cutie:Hmmm haha well my exams dont finish for another week
Me:Awww ***babes poor u. listen, lets go watch a movie the tuesdaynite aftr ur xams at ****. U gt time 2 fream abou me all week!
Cutie:Haha il see
Me:By i'l see u mean "OMG! he's goin 2 go out with me, I HV 2 tell [-insert best friend-]!!" cya then hun:]

Any comments, or suggestions to improve my game would be much appreciated.

Also I do realize it's not amazing game or anything, its just because so many chicks were flaking and I finally managed to convey c\f while having fun, being me.

Did some crazy sarging as usual, random encounters: Me and some chick talking about sex quite causually but loudly in a very crowded street.

me picking up a chick(literally), Going amazingly confident/c'f/honest on this girl I really liked outside a bookstore("Yea I was in the bookstore then I decided oh shit that girls fucking hot, I need to go talk to her. Now Im chatting her up." Also told her friend when she came "Sorry I was just hitting on your friend.")

Got a date with a chick I don't know if Im too interested in, but I'l see...(Did some great cocky/funny on her too)

Number closed a hurried accountant-couldn't tell if she really wanted to give me her number or she gave it to me just because she was in a hurry. She did however say "maybe" when asking her out with a nice smile and told me she would only be free the week after.

Hit on a couple married women, the usual, was like meh ya know.

Overall Im still progressing and enjoying the experience a ton. feedback would be appreciated

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Having a very large amount of trouble hitting the wall down of most girls, seems like I need more than just ideas to get to day 2.

I keep screwing it up!! I have some incredible encounters(Or so I think), but never end up actually Fucking the chicks I meet. I have had a couple of instant dates arranged in the moment and 1 actual date that I went on with this Polish chick, how that date went, I will never know. We texted back and for for a month or so after, but I think I screwed it up during some texting!

I have incredible confidence in some really interesting situations, for instance: Girl working at clothing store. I was quite attracted so I go in, wait patiently texting on my phone while this other dude stutters and falls over himself paying for a wallet or something. I then go to the counter and just say: 'Hi, this has nothing to do with clothes or whatever your selling, but I saw you from outside and I have to say your fucking hot.'

It made me think, because she said some interesting things, firstly:

She couldn't hear me, so I should try being loud. Make sure Im ALWAYS heard.

She also said she was awkward: So shit, I must of been real weird or awkward.

I know this is stupid shit but maybe I don't appear confident, maybe Im just fearless??

She also said I was forward when I asked her out and she replied I have a boyfriend. I then said(after a couple of sentences of her not being able to hear anything) Sheesh don't talk about that, I don't wanna hear that.

She then also pointed out that coming in was forward, she did however blush and was all smiles the entire time.

Then she said she was flattered and was trying to be nice.

So what I can take away is, my confidence and my level of confidence that I portray are not congruent. I usually walk around like Im the shit, it's strange this happens??

Also my texting game, I've tried the cocky funny deal but I realize Im doing soooo much wrong and I need sooo much practice. Possible solutions to texting game:

Set up the chase : use intrigue, ask for compliance ie. Holy shit you'l never gues what happened in the toilet just now...wait ur not religous r you?

Make her qualify herself: I need to learn this ssshhiiitttt(Making a point to learn this shit!!!)

Frame control: My Frame is usually shit due to me being direct all the time, I probably can change it through texting

Solutions for in person shit

Speak louder
Make sure to get into state and give off my positive mindset which I use cajuns: "Lets see if she can reject me, I doubt she can, Im too fucking awesome."
Hand gestures

On a lighter note, I noticed I've picked some really legit line. I did the whole direct hey excuse me, I know this is random, But I saw and you are real cute yada yada. This chick was not biting though, when I went to shake her hand with my introduction: "Hi my names ***" She went oh uhmm uhh...I have a bf

Then (Yea Im real proud of this haha) I go: Wow thats a real long name, immediately she loosened up, but I left her, wasn't too keen on her.

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Okay more progress

My assumption on the loudness of my voice being too low and taking notes from one of the chicks was dead on.

My Game increased 10 fold when my voice just got louder, seriously. I can't believe this tip isn't everywhere, why I haven't seen this as more of an important thing I don't know.

Basically the difference in reactions and even just plain vibes that you get from a girl is insane. I can judge straight away after I've done my opener or had a bit of a talk with a girl and automatically know shes interested just because of the way she would act/not react according to what and how I had to say shit.

I realize what you say doesn't really matter it's more of where your shit is coming from body language/tone or the decibel of your voice.

It's coming together insanely well, I didn't realize but before because of my poor body language (occasionally) and my voice not being too loud when opening I was compensating by doing some VERY solid verbal game. Saying things most people would NEVER say.

I was the train from the city, basically asking this girl what sex positions her and her ex were going through the night before and she was considering telling me LOL.

I hit on 2 married chicks today 1 at the train station(extremely sexual convo, did become a debate after awhile though)
Another at this burger joint, while her husband was in the vicinity.....sssssshhhhiiiittttt

hit on a couple chicks in random stores:

1 was a manager in sunglasses store(I didn't know) and I pretty much went balls to the walls: "Your hot as fuck, yada yada." She was doing completely fine until her worker arrived and saw me really undermining her authority(Or well atleast thats what Im going to take from that haha) She came in and I said "Sorry just hitting on your co worker"(wasn't her co worker, was the manager!!!) and when the manager(Target) Gave me my glasses back I said shhiiiitt didn't realize you were hot too(To the co worker). The worker just stared at the manager who stared at the desk or glasses or whatever and said you need to leave.

Another was a chick in a clothing store. Went balls to the walls as usual, she was smiling long before I opened my mouth...Basically bf shit, I responded real calm with yea let him take a day off don't be so hard on him yada yada I ended that shit with I'll hit on you some other time, she responded with have a nice day!

Then the one I reaaaaallllyyy thought was extremely professional. Best pickup to date.

I saw this chick at the light, we held a little bit of eye contact. I go straight in with my new decibel powers but aim for curiousity:

Me:This is a bit strange but I think you should know what I have to say.
Her: Smiling her ass off
Me:Yea I don't know if I should say, but your real pretty
Her: Smiling her ass off again

I know it seems insignificant, but really these girls, I now realize, don't give a fuck what you have to say. The direct thing is just a shortcut, it makes the interaction a lot more on more on point.

I did a solid amount of kino(hugs,holding hands) while we walked a couple blocks down the city street. We were in MY world, I was dictating the course, the flow and she followed.

I asked if shes free tomorrow, she was real keen. So the date is set!! I'll report on that tomorrrow. But I know now why so many girls were flaking. Because I didn't have them hooked.

Oh when I number closed her I used some good curiousty:
Me: Do you remember my name?
her: uhmmmm, well hahha
Me: Look, tomorrow we'l find out okay. i'll put you in as "girl whos day I just made"
(It linked back to a line I said before while walking:"Yea I may have made your day but I could make your life, we'll see")

Also got some random lady to give me a ride home, WTF it's like power over women.

Anyway, just glad Im making more progress, was stumped at the flakes for awhile.
Love this shit, seriously

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I also realize I can't appear too desperate after an interaction, with a girl. I know now its either, is she hooked? Then try and make way for plans ie. How can we continue this at a further date etc. Nothing like before where I asked for her number either way.

Only get numbers that are solid.

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Nice journal. It inspires me to go out and have some fun, not make excuses and not give a fuck what people think about me.

How old are you, out of interest?

Im glad it's inspiring you! Im just in it to have fun.

Im 19 in University

Dude seriously go out and have the time of your life, thats what makes everyday a good day

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Thought this would be halarious to put in. It is incredibly long(Takes place over a year) and really reminds me of how much pick up really helped me with girls!!

Also I realize its says Bingoberry a hell of a lot. I really couldn't be stuffed to put in HB so it'l probably take a bit to work out whats what and who's who.
Enjoy


Bingoberry
Teen love

Just wana tell you I love you...... and went down through all of my buddies friends to send this msg!! I think I've grown up around you and Im desperately in love with you ( sorry if it's inconvenient, least Im not telling you in person [:]] )...Can you please reject me in person or ....something, because Im tired of playing these games...Your breaking me in pieces and using me as a self esteem booster....I know that sounds completely mental but I completely feel that way...your like a role model but Im tired of following you because it hurts alot >.>

May 24, 2011


Haha what? Then who is this? Lol. Sorry!

And by the way, what's a bingoberry muncher?
Bingoberry
May 24, 2011


Seriously? I have only been your number 1 stalker for like....3 going on 4 years now ....(Think of one guy that randomly harasses you all the time!!)

Its something I made up when I was bored

May 24, 2011

If your my stalker then you must be a real good one cause I haven't notice a stalker! You sure you have the right person? Lol

And yes, very cool name indeed!
Bingoberry
May 24, 2011
Bingoberry

Gooooddd do you have to be so adorable [:[] !!.....It's #####(obviously)...I don't feel like playing your game which makes me end up liking you even more....I seriously love you and I need help

Had pizza delivered and the lady was laughing at my door when she saw it on my receipt...

May 24, 2011


Aw #####! Hello! I thought this could have been ####! He bugs me alot so I was planning on stabbing him with my siccors!! Buh anyways hi ##### & no I am not adorable lol not at all! I suck at this stuff, can you tell?! I'm totally lost, are you playing a joke on me again like you did before lol a couple of years ago?

May 24, 2011


Oh & yea, I can see why she would laugh! Haha very cool!
Bingoberry
May 24, 2011
Bingoberry
###..please don't be mad...(I'm only human)..Yea I think he has a thing for you, thats one of the reasons why I wanted to tell you....I want you to know when your single [:[] !!...Are you kidding me....your freaking perfect!! I honestly would consider you a god [:[] ....I seriously am really horribly in love with you!!?( and your smile it's amazing..)..This is definitely not a joke...those couple of years back...I dropped my sack :[(I hit puberty now [:D] !......haha?..)...I think I was more infatuated then..but now Im serious and if it wasn't for the internet you might never of known!! ><

PS: please don't punch or hurt me tomorow like you did a couple of years back...added insult to injury...

May 24, 2011


"I'm only human", is that a song? And no I'm not mad & yea I think that too!! OMG are YOU kidding me?! A GOD!? Please, your exaggerating lol. No really, you are! And of course I won't hit you, maybe stab you buh yea... Haha kidding! Buh yea #####, I see you as a friend, a very good friend! I know it's cliche thing to say but yea! Sorry ###! It probably didn't help did it?
Bingoberry
May 24, 2011
Bingoberry

Nah I meant Im only human for loving you! Thats cool, your really good at handling random stuff with a smile...Yeap vinnit is completely hot for you..Im not exaggerating at all, I meant it!..Kill me lol I take what I said before j/k...No that didn't help at all and I guess I'l continue this year in pain seeing you

Is there any hope at all for me? [:[] ....Well atleast that's off my shoulders haha...Poor #### yea I know...

May 24, 2011


#####, I feel guilty! Yea I know! Of course it wouldn't have helped huh? And no, not 'poor #####'!! You had a lot of guts & courage for saying how you felt, not like most guys! Buh seriously, it doesn't have to be one of those awkward ones, it can still be the same. Well for me I know, some things just don't quite register in my head! Hope everythings ok & I don't know? I'm not really interested in anyone & haven't been in a while! There's pretty much no hope for anyone to be honest lol. And yea, I'm trying to handle this as best I can if you can tell! Probably can't! And yea ####, he's ok. Just a kinda annoying friend [:)]

May 24, 2011


Ha! Felt like I wrote a novel!
Bingoberry
May 25, 2011
Bingoberry
Don't feel guilty, you feel how you feel!!..Well yea, it takes guts to post a msg on an online social network haha [:P] ..Im sorry #####'no hope for no one'...I guess I didn't understand you properly before, I thought you might of had liked someone back ..I'll always love you like...a ton.. and your right and it can be the same!!(If your still willing to be my friend..I'll kinda always want a little more..).. I don't want to make things weird...

Or like that guy who 'forced you on a date'...I *really* don't wana be that guy...If you went out, it should be on your own terms..kinda made me sad hearing that [:[] ..
Bingoberry
May 25, 2011
Bingoberry

Thanks for putting up with me today...I really hope it wasn't annoying

May 25, 2011


Lol uh yea, you were kinda full on at interval ####! Haha but thats ok I guess, it just took me off guard! Buh yea, things are algood! Don't feel embarrassed or whatever! I pretty much have sworn off guys from school since that whole thing with that guy in year 9 so don't feel bad & blame yourself! That whole situation made me realize and promise to myself many things but also never to do that again, going in to something when I don't feel the same! But yea, for one thing, I am grateful that it happened at a young age! It pretty much made me who I am and to be careful when it comes to guys & 'love'. I totally know what I want now & I know I won't make that mistake again! So #####, of course we've still friends & it may be kinda weird at first but yea, I'm just glad you know! It would have hurt alot more if I just ignored you, said nothing or just led you on! But yea, hope your O.K!
Bingoberry
May 26, 2011
Bingoberry

Wow..that is deep!! Haha well Im just happy it's not weird ( Or you just handle it perfectly...your smile is amazing by the way..:p)Maybe I need to learn that lesson aswell haha...Couples don't seem to really work out in high school often ..#### you do realize your amazing?!?!....and that even if you probably broke my heart down the middle, took a chainsaw, machine gun and flamethrower and destroyed it(game over much? x.x), I would love you still...your hard to hate, impossible probably [:]] ..so don't worry about me being okay haha!...
Bingoberry
May 26, 2011
Bingoberry

Oh and if your ever interested in guys or something please give me a shot haha [:]] !!....(you weren't serious about the liking of the girls thing right?)

May 26, 2011


Haha what? Who said I liked girls? Lol I must have misheard you & just nodded & said yes or something! Haha. ####, seriously, I only want to be your friend & nothing more! I know it's mean but that's the truth! Hopefully you'll get over this thing & eventually find someone else who likes you back just as much [:)]
Bingoberry
May 26, 2011
Bingoberry

I think you should of said that in the first place!...Don't take it personally if I invade your personal space sometimes (I know I do and Im sorry [:[] !)...I think you misunderstand me...I got the message the first time ####; I understood where you were coming from!!...Well its never finding someone that likes/loves you thats a problem its always finding that right person that does...but thanks I wish the same for you [:]] !! When I said I loved you..Im not joking ####, sorry!! I wish I could wish those feelings away and I know your trying really hard to be nice!

Just know that aslong as you want me as a friend I'll be your friend!! I have gotten the message.

May 26, 2011


Yea I just thought reminding you again would be a good idea because you kept saying all that stuff about my smile & giving you a shot & blah blah blah after I said all that stuff that I only wanted to be friends but I know all that stuff you were saying was innocence, it just made me a little uncomfortable thats all so I thought reminding you would have helped! But yea, I'm sure you'll find someone ####! Someone that's right! [:)]
Bingoberry
May 26, 2011
Bingoberry

Haha I can imagine how you saw that:x...Innocence?!? I meant it!! Your smile is contagious and I asked you to give me a shot because I wanted to hear you say no >.>....(It's called tying up loose ends [:]] !). Well I feel like we know exactly where we stand now so you don't have to be so nice!! Im so lucky it's you who's rejected me and not someone else lol [:]] .

May 26, 2011


Oh my gosh! I know right! My smile is contagious! Hahaha kidding! But yea I'm glad we know where we stand! I feel at ease now lol. You feel lucky because you were rejected by me? Is that a joke? Haha

Bingoberry
May 26, 2011
Bingoberry

No comment lol ...I think my crappy humor is rubbing off on you.. I neeeedda stop telling you those bad jokes >.>!! I have to agree though..curse your perfect smile....I know how you feel though [:]] - it's hard being soooo darn good looking [:P] ! Im glad you feel at ease, sorry to have put you through that!...wasn't meant as a joke haha..I meant that!!
Bingoberry
July 17, 2011
Bingoberry

I know I shouldn't be asking or even talking to you on fb ....but you know me, I can't stop thinking about you!!

Free anytime this week? Would be great to hang out [:]]
Bingoberry
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

I feel like an idiot and Im sure your tired of me being all weird and putting you in these awkward situations. I have been a good friend though ( I hope) and maybe it was half hearted before, I think Im finally ready to just see you as a friend!! Took a while sorry:)! But we have some sort of connection or something ( Thats probably just me...). But I finally see the bigger picture and moved on!!

Hope your enjoying your holiday, hope its not weird to see you at school!

July 21, 2011


Hey #####, what? lol What are you on about?

Oh I just saw your other message. Yeeea..hm..
Bingoberry
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

great timing haha...awwwkkkwarrrdd?

You can't blame me though [:(] You do this to alot of guys!..Come to think of it you turned a gay guy straight...Pretty impressive

July 21, 2011


WHHAAAT?! What's going on right now? Did I miss something because seriously, I'm lost. What do I do to alot of guys & what? Were you gay?
Bingoberry
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

Errrgghh...Sorry for the confusion, okay il try and clear this up best I can...here goes!!
Well I couldn't get over the feelings I had for you, you mean a crap load to me =[...But I've swallowed them and Im trying to get past them so we can have a good friendship!

Im not gay lmao!!....I was talking about ####(Dunno how to spell his name?)and how you turned him straight.
You have that special something that makes guys fall for you ...I think it's your smile? Dunno, Still trying to figure it out...

July 21, 2011


Oh, him lol I thought you were talking about yourself! Sorry. This conversation just came out of nowhere so yea! That's why I'm a bit lost! But yea it's good that you've trying to get past it even though I know it's hard and really? I have nothing special, believe me lol my smile isn't that great! I've seen better!
Bingoberry
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

Yea my mind works really randomly...Sometimes I feel like Im having an early menopause or something?? Yea it's hard as hell ( sorry rofl )...Sometimes I feel like Im being tortured by the thought of you!! Uhmmm I think it's because it's you....well what I mean to say is that someone else smiling isn't the same? I dunno, but stop denying it, your hot. don't argue >

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Yea this thing still continues, its real long!

July 21, 2011


Really? You feel like your being tortured? Thats extreme lol. No way! Stop exaggerating! I'm just an average looking girl [:)] buh yes, I do appreciate our friendship!
Bingoberry Muncher
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

Yes my hearts written all over this page ##### [:(] !!...I don't think you realize how badly you affect me...For me it's not extreme at all it's become a part of school sadly!! Nuuuu you stop!! Gawshhh...Don't compare yourself with other girls!! They're not half of what you are ..Yes I realize that, that's why Im trying so hard.

July 21, 2011


Oh #####. What am I going to do with you? It sucks to hear that it has become apart of your everyday life and I'm sorry but you will find someone else far better than I. Trust me, you will!
Bingoberry
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

Good question... I would like to know the answer !!...Yea It does suck haha..I hope so, kinda feels like we might be missing out on something though!!..I doubt I'l feel the same way about anything, maybe...my art would probably be an exception but other than that I have difficulty focusing on other girls...I hope I don't end up treating women like ornaments >! Well when you say it I'll give it a go...2 more terms? sigghh....lol.

Oh keep forgetting to ask...Mind giving me the full story on what happened in year 9 with the date thingy?

July 21, 2011


Yea you will, don't worry! You will feel even a stronger emotion towards something or someone else, whoever she may be! She'll be perfect for you! [:)] Yeeea maybe we've missing out? Who knows but I do know for sure that I like us being friends & no, never treat a women like an ornament! lol. Yea that story is pretty simple really.

July 21, 2011


I got pressured, we went out, the end. lol
Bingoberry
July 21, 2011
Bingoberry

Oh no >! When your encouraging me to find someone else I feel I have hit a low point... [:(] ..Also I think we've just become closer friends which is very confusing!! I honestly despise our friendship, its like an obstacle, but it's a really good one and I'l keep it with you! I'l try not to!! Unfortunately I was kinda always heading in that direction, you sorta just stalled it!...

Uhmm...where'd you go, who was the guy, how did you get pressured?...

July 21, 2011


I never meant for you to feel like you hit a low point. Really? You despise our friendship? Um, ok. Haha I can never win with you, can I? What direction were you always headed in?

Yea, I've kinda forgotten about that whole year 9 thing. Don't really feel like going into it if you don't mind [:)]
Bingoberry
July 22, 2011
Bingoberry

It's alright keeps me strong on the inside haha!!...Well it sounds evil like that...I meant to say I feel like the friendship is standing between you and me(Yea silly I know!!)...lol I feel for you there!! I can be very difficult =]!

Oh I c...Must of been bad?? Would you tell me one day though? [:)]

July 22, 2011


Haha thats good. Yes, it sounded very evil indeed! lol. Yea it is abit strange but I understand what you mean and no, it wasn't bad. It pretty much was what I said earlier. It actually was nothing really, I don't even classify it as being a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship because it wasn't but yea, its not really that interesting.
Bingoberry
July 22, 2011
Bingoberry

Yea you always know how to make me feel like a dork haha!! It is abit strange?? rofl I cracked up pretty hard! Yea...lets stop I don't to be creepier than I probably have become during this convo. Im sorry, Im pushing aren't I? Don't worry keep your tale to yourself ..

Well would you mind if I asked something else then? O:!..

July 22, 2011


Lol well nothing wrong with being a dork. I can be at times! Yeeea just a tad strange haha but no worries, you're fine! Um sure, depends on what it is you want to ask
Bingoberry
July 22, 2011
Bingoberry

Yeap dorks are cool!!...Maybe a dorkathon to celebrate dorkiness once a year?..I'll wear my dork tie, its pretty gangster haha!..lmao Im sooorrrryyy ##### I'l try to keep what I say not so strange >!..Yeap Im pretty impressive in bed loool! Can last for ages!! [:P] ...No, buuutt seriously I can sleep for longer than 24 hours haha...hmm only 11?? Your missing out lol, that's probably why you stopped growing [:P] ..rofl figured you'd enjoy the poop bit!

July 22, 2011

Haha well I do have other friends other than ### & them lol. Yes he does. That's ### for yaa, he's a big mouth [:)] Longer than 24 hours? That's crazy! I'd hate to be asleep for that long! I'd feel like I'm missing out on the world haha. I know, I'm short [:P]
Bingoberry
July 23, 2011
Bingoberry

Sorry didn't want to reply last night :X Wouldn't want another episode of drunken sleep [:P] ...Yea he's kinda grouchy too!! I gave him a compliment, he gave me the finger haha...Yeap, but you have to go without sleep for a couple days, so I guess it kinda evens out? Yea I have missed much of the world, gawt caught up with my beauty sleep chee! haha I was kidding [:P] Atleast your not midget short, like a certain friend of yours? haha
Bingoberry
August 25, 2011
Bingoberry

Ever though you've rejected me and broken my heart a million times, seems I pick up the pieces and rebuilt it to try again...I've tried to get over you numerous times to consider your *friendship*, but I realize I really do love you and I keep fighting for you because my heart points only in your direction. I know deep down inside you love me too and there's no way you would of gone through all this nonsense throughout these years unless you felt something for me! (Besides I see the way you look at me sometimes haha )
Bingoberry
August 25, 2011
Bingoberry

even though*...I get too nervous thinking about you gosh, silly spelling mistake haha

August 25, 2011


Ok #####, I have to be completely honest even if it hurts you. I didn't even know you liked me until you mailed me on facebook this year so of course there was a way for me to go through this friendship these past few years. I'm sorry that I hurt you a 'million' times but I meant what I said before, that I only ever saw you as a friend and I STILL do. I know it may sound harsh but I never saw you anymore than a friend so therefore I'm not inlove with you and never was. Yes, love can play tricks on your mind so you have to be careful. I'm sorry that I had to say it that way but it was the only way for you to know and understand where I'm coming from. It seems you keep getting lost in what I'm saying and your mind twist things around to things that you want to believe that aren't really there. Love has that affect.

August 25, 2011


Ha I pretty much wrote you a novel [:P]

And #####, the way I am with you is pretty much the way I am with every other guy so yea...
Bingoberry
August 25, 2011
Bingoberry

Curse my heart, I need therapy! Yea what you say is true and I HATE these type of situations...I won't lie, it hurts like hell reading that and I wish my mind would stop playing tricks with me. I feel kinda lost

Thanks for the novel, just happened to sink my boat right, Captain Rejection? Just kidding...Well I don't know what to do because following my heart towards you honestly was a last resort. So Im guessing we shouldn't be friends?

August 25, 2011


No, you don't need therapy! Love does that to ya! I understand! You will eventually find your way! Ha I know but I had to do it and be straight forward as best I could even if it hurt because the other times it didn't seem to work with you. I don't know? It's up to you to be friends or not. I don't mind still being friends to be honest.
Bingoberry
August 26, 2011
Bingoberry

So you think Im in love? This emotion is pretty crappy haha....But I hope your right and Im glad you get me. No I get it, you've been totally accommodating and Im really thankful. I needed to hear that, Im abit too attached to you for normal stuff to work. Friendship...uhmmm...#### I really don't want your friendship, I want a lot more!! I think it's really up to you, theres only a few weeks of school left! When school ends Im sure I'll have no problem getting over you at all, but for now I guess it would hurt more not to see each other at all(well for me!).

August 26, 2011


Well yea, you basically did say you love me but yea, you pretty much saying you don't want my friendship sums it up quite well don't you think? Lol but yea its up to you really because your the one thats going through this more harder! I know you must feel crappy right now but you'll eventually get over this!
Bingoberry
August 27, 2011
Bingoberry

Now I see why they invented alcohol...Well I guess then it must be love if we both believe it? It's more complicated then just me not wanting your friendship..Picture this: Seeing someone you love and not being able to touch them, hold their hand, look them in the eye, or even tell them in person...It's hell and it eats from your insides...It's easier to just get some sort of contact with them, because then I guess the part of their heart that desires the person they love gets filled a little and they don't fuss...Then on the other hand you'll end up getting another outbreak like this one? Where I guess you fill their heart to the brim and they can't contain their feelings...Well if any of that made sense and your still with me, what Im trying to say is that you should make the choice! Just if we stay friends Im bound to have another of these outbreaks and you'll have to do some damage control(yea I know sorry)..and if we don't then..well not so fun for me
Bingoberry
August 27, 2011
Bingoberry

Okay, that's everything if you got that last bit, I've said every,last,little thing I've ever felt for you!! Im sorry about this whole thing, wish we could of just had a normal friendship

August 28, 2011


I only believe its love because you said it was but yea don't you think that the best thing for YOU is to not be friends because if we remain friends your not gonna get over me any time soon. You're just gonna make it more hard for yourself and get more tied up in your emotions and of course, like you said, your bound to have another out break like this one and the times before this. So yea, I don't mind if we've still going to remain friends because this really isn't affecting me like it is, you.

Bingoberry
August 28, 2011
Bingoberry

Uhmmm I really don't want to make that decision! You didn't get what I had to say the last message. I think this is all too confusing and complicated and whatever....Point is I love you and you don't love me, so we know that we have to move on. Schools only a couple weeks left and we're bound to run into each other, why don't we just let it fix itself? [:)] ...Do you really act like that with every guy by the way?? Just asking because the whole reason I sort of got these feelings was from this stare you gave me??(I'l never forget it)

August 28, 2011


Things never fix themselves on their own! But yea instead of making something simple into something complicated I'll just say, let's remain friends even though it really shouldn't be my decision since I'm not the one in love and getting hurt! You'll probably be getting more hurt because of us still remaining friends but oh well like you said, school has only a couple of weeks left. Really? I gave you a 'stare'? Lol yeeea I'm not to sure on that one! Haha but yes, the way I am with you is pretty much how I am with every other guy I hang out with. And by the way, when did I give you this 'stare'? Lol
Bingoberry
August 29, 2011
Bingoberry

Yea, your right, that simple question went wwaaayyy randomly outta proportion. All we can do now I guess is just hope the friendship doesn't cause too much damage and we can hopefully remain friends in the future without these issues! Hahaha you make it sound like a funny joke, it is actually kinda funny... It was year 11 I think(The year where we both took science) and I was bored as fark, as usual. So I looked at my buddy who sat at the back(#### if you remember him?) and his buddy who introduced me to a very weird topic a period before ( Something about a farmer, his pants down and a donkey haha beastalia, dont google it >!) I think her name was ### or ####, not too sure. They were bored too, so I was like whats ##### up to? Bom chicka wowwow...(LOL jk ) so I looked over and you were the only person who noticed me looking! But you were definitely looking back at me with this raw emotion on your face, there was no expression, just eye contact. I've never had that kinda moment with anyone, but even then it didn't register. In the moment of whatever happened I know I felt really paralyzed and I was feeling something I hadn't really felt before.This reminds me of a whole bunch of funny stuff...Like the time we were outside health class and ##### was doing pullups and I tried one and farted haha.

August 30, 2011


Yea. What you described, sounds like I was day dreaming and you just happened to be in the direction I was day dreaming in! Hahaha that's so funny bur seriously I probably was day dreaming lol. I can't even remember much from year 11!
Bingoberry
August 30, 2011
Bingoberry
Really? You've given me that stare a couple times. You day dream often I take it haha?(And I just happen to be in the direction of your gaze while this is happening?Ooo0o lala O:!..) Probably should get a sticker for your forehead saying 'DANGER: Daydream face may shock with infallible love' haha. The only time I remember us genuinely being friends was in year 10 come to think of it.

August 31, 2011


Yes, really! I'm pretty sure that stare was nothing more but me just casually staring out and who knows, I've probably given that 'stare' to many other people as well so it's nothing special lol. Really? Well I've always seen us as genuinely being friends so yea.
Bingoberry
August 31, 2011
Bingoberry

Oh right, sorry! I guess It's because your special to me [:)] (Hope that doesn't make you uncomfortable). Yes! Reaaaalllyy! Im actually finding you abit hard to believe haha. Im pretty sure everyone who knows the both of us knows I have the hots for you! Did you figure a friendship with a guy meant he hit on you often? lol.

September 1, 2011

Really? You call that hitting on me?? Hahaha are you serious? Your way of hitting on is very different lol and no, no one I know thinks you have the hots for me. It looks like any other normal friendship really.

September 2, 2011


Hmmm....This is pretty random? Okay lets see: Well hitting on is a pretty strong way of putting it, I guess [:P] (Or would you prefer me to be more firm? When attempting to hit on you I mean?LOL!!) Yeeess ##### so knows, you can't avoid that one! And trust me I get people teasing me all the time about liking you haha. We got called a couple a few times too!! Really...Does it look like a normal friendship, are you sure haha? Sounds like someones in denial [:P]

September 2, 2011

How do you see me? Like when you think of me, what do you think of?

September 5, 2011


Um no, #### actually doesn't know or else if she did, she seriously would've mention it lol. Well yea, its normal from all my friends perspective and myself. It's just not normal for you because you feel differently but yea, I'd rather you just stop your 'hitting' on all together even they I didn't know that was what you've been doing in the first place.

September 5, 2011


I seriously just see you as ######. I really just think of you as a friend.
Bingoberry
September 5, 2011
Bingoberry

Well then let's be friends and only friends, no more silly feelings from me! This chapter is over in my life. See you tomorrow!
Bingoberry
September 11, 2011
Bingoberry

Sorry #### I should of done this awhile ago! I feel Im finally able to let go of you. But I felt it on Thursday that being around you is horrible as old feelings come up. I can't have your friendship and I don't really want to see you anymore sorry. Hope you have a nice life lol

September 11, 2011


Hmm this seems awfully familiar. Didn't I tell you in a previous message that remaining friends was in somewhat going to be a bad idea ####? Lol. Don't worry, I understand and I knew that you'd in the end see that being friends was a bad idea but yea, I wish you well and hope you find peace with yourself. So whats the rules? Stop talking and acknowledging each other you think?
Bingoberry
September 12, 2011
Bingoberry

Is that an I-told-you-so? Well whatever works I don't really care lol. Maybe we can be friends in the future, for now lets just create some space. I hope I find peace too.

September 12, 2011


Ok whatever is good for you! See you around #####.
Bingoberry
April 21
Bingoberry

Hey Bumcakes [:)] Happy birthday!! Hope it's the right day. How've you been?? Lifes been awesome this year, hope your not dead and doing well [:)]

April 24


Hey #####! yep it was the right day, thanks! [:)] I've been good, how are you? nope not dead lol
Bingoberry
April 30
Bingoberry

Thats good [:]] I've never been better!! We should meet sometime, when are you free? [:]]

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So this is a girl that I've been really interested in.

Unfortunately due to some real weird texts: "Omg you won't guess what happened to in the bathroom, wait are you religous?" etc

Shit that I was trying to use to build intrigue and crap. Yea that stuff didn't work!! So I got frustrated at the 3rd or 4th day of texting once, her replying once and then never again for the whole day. So I just blew up with a: "Fuck this I have other options."

Later on I felt like a dick and apologized, so I've really been chasing real bad.

I got somewhere this time round, but it appears to be a terrible case of Oneitis

Here it is:

Me:Hey ###, mind if i ask sm?
Chick:um ok what?
Me:Wht did u thnk of me?Be as brutal as u like
Chick:uh you were nice, but then got a littl strange in your texts...Haha
Me:Yup knew it. my txts suck..opn 2 a 2nd chnce in person?
Chick:weeell considering you said 'you've got lots of options' im gonna go with im not the only girl you're trying to get your ins with and im not all that keen to get played haha
Me: true, i do hv options but i really likd u, i thnk thrs mre thn sex 2 thx, Fnd myslf awkwrdly thnkn abou holdn ur hnd n nt bein inside of u
Chick:Haha wow you're forward... But yeah i cant be sure youre not sayin the exact same thing to your other girls, so probably jst better leaving it alone ay.. Sorry
Me:Forwrd/honst/confidnt/blunt...i gt tht alot. I undrstnd, bt i dnt thnk u undrstnd my lonly heart. Hw do u mean plyd?
Chick:How can you have a lonely heart when youve got plenty of options? pick one, problem solved!
Me:Jen, U mk it sound easy...hv u hd a orgasm n felt empty? Lets go out smtm, c where ths goes n if we like each othr...the "options" will dissapear, wht hv u gt 2 lose

Comments, advice,critiques would be Fucking awesome!! But yea no reply after that, so we'l see what happens.

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Im back and better than before!!

I havent posted in awhile due to moving, the internet was not up!

I've learnt so much in the time that I was gone, so much changes so rapidly especially in this part of my life.

Many, many approaches on extremely hot girls have been made, some extremely random!

One in particular which I thought would be funny that I learnt from one of sasha the puas videos on approaching.

Me: *walking up looking quite ambient*
Her: *Looks up*
Me: Listen, somethings really bothering me. I have to say Im quite annoyed.
Her:*Looks at me quite frightened(possibly wondering wtf she did)*
Me:How the fuck do you look that good, seriously what the fuck??!?!
Her*huge smile*
Me:Yea Im trying to text my mate and all I can do is stare at you, seriously what do your parents look like?!?!

Yea keep in mind this is pretty much the rush hour at the train station, where I decided hmm wow so many people this is a great place to sarge.

Also she was really hot and tall, she was also extremely friendly! Im finding more and more girls are really nice even when they appear bitchy.

I've read this book how to make friends and influence people from a pua on this forum can't remember?? Holy shit. The concepts in there are incredibly obvious a lot of the time, but wow, no one takes the time to take advantage of this shit!! It's amazing.

I've also learnt after watch a complete unatural (Cajun) in an interview on youtube, that routines and all this stuff you learn to pick up girls doesn't really work. It's the confidence backed up behind it, the person behind the verbal part that really gives you an attractive personality. The mindset is the real deal. To keep your self positive is incredibly important in life, it's so easy to look at the negative!! (State control)

I will admit I don't really use routines or techniques besides cocky funny, I usually aim to understand concepts and avoid the ones that don't seem to work. I realize now the only thing that will make you better at this is experience and pushing yourself everytime.

Im getting there, Im so close I can smell estrogen coming my way from every direction :]

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