K. This week's daily goal was : 5 openers/day.

Today I spent Mother's Day with Mom, so I was looking at a trolley stop at 10 PM when I remembered my goal. And let me tell you, any Sunday night is dry - but the holiday made today wretched. So dry of girls.

The first was on a train earlier in the day. I sat next to a foreign exchange student from China. I think most Asian foreigners are a little more withdrawn, but there may be underlying possibilities I just don't know about. I tried Kokology - which is a role-playing game - and had very little success. On the other hand, thumb-wrestling - cheating - then accusing her of cheating made her laugh pretty hard. I started with kino, but I felt some resistance and we had to sit next to each other for an hour so I didn't nut up and try to escalate.

After I hit the trolley, I approached a 4-set of girls and asked "Oh hey, you're taking pictures. Tourists?" "Yes Taiwan." Lot of Asian girls tonight. I tried to include one other but she didn't make eye contact. "Wow, she's shy. I was like that when I was younger." A few more lines exchanged, the other 2 stop taking pictures and pull the two I was talking to away.

The next set I approached was like 10 people all gathered around a pole. "Wow, I can see why so many people are gathered here.. this pole is amazing!" The two out of 10 I approached just gave me blank stares. "I'm just kidding, I was just wondering why there's this huge cluster of people here. Are you all waiting to get in (to the restaurant)?" "No we're seeing this guy off he's about to leave for ____" "Oh congrats man." He doesn't make eye contact. EJECT!

Went to two different bars, VERY dry of women. First one only had two girls seated in conversations, and I didn't nut up to talk to them. Second one had 0 girls, so I just talked to the (older) female bartender about bar-tending.

Next girl I approached was outside a restaurant. This one was the highlight of my night and kept me a bit motivated. I negged her mercilessly. She asked if I was military, I said yes Navy. How did you know? "My boyfriend is in the marines." "Oh, so you're attracted to morons huh? " (If I was a hotdog vendor and she said she was dating a hamburger vendor, I would've said the same thing.) She got defensive so I said something like "I can see this is a sore spot for you." Without changing my frame, still cocky and smiling. She eventually gets back into the mood and starts throwing sh1t tests at me. "I'm too tall for you" "Um, no you're not... actually... yeah, you are." "Yep." "Yeah, I'm into normal-sized girls." She said something about being a black-belt in karate and that she'd kick my butt - I challenged her to demonstrate her skillz. "I'm working." "Yeah, nice excuse " A few minutes later "I'm a model." "A hand model? That's gotta be tough - juggling hostess, black-belt ti quan do master (she said karate), and hand model. " I keep teasing her and she keeps smiling. "I have to work! I'm going to call my manager over hear (getting louder)" "Wow, you are so loud! And a tattle-tale too!" She ups the ante and walks back to the restaurant, calling the managers name out, but still smiling. I'm pretty sure this was a sh1t test, but I didn't want to create a fuss (and I saw the manager - an older chick that couldn't tell fun from explosive diarrhea) so I gracefully said "Well, whatever-your-name is, it's been fun." and backed out.

Should I have stayed and called her bluff? If not, what else could I have done?

After that, I bounced back home on the trolley. Tonight was kind of shitty, wish I had a wing man but that's life.

Today I hit my goal, but it was a pain. Going from hardcore video game nerd (40+ hours/week) into trying to be social 40+ hours a week is a ROUGH transition. Thoughts race through my head every few minutes like "Should I try to be more socially dominant?" "Am I coming across as an ass by trying to be more socially dominant?" "Okay, that might work on a set but the circle I'm trying to get into - should I play more passive until I'm more engrained?" When you're a video game addict for 7 years - it all looks like a warzone. What can I do to get what I want out of this? It seems like there's a sensation of humanity I had before the addiction came which hasn't appeared again.

Back to the bread and butter, picking up chicks.

This time, I went with one person I barely know and another I did not know. I kind of laid it out up front "I'm going downtown to pick up chicks. You can come if you want." Because his friend had a car.. and was under 21.. we went to the mall. Still not terrible, I can practice my day game - but really motivates me to get some wheels. As usual, my first 2 sets are on people I am not interested in just to break that AA. Usually something like "Where do I find such-and-such?"

My funnest set came third. She was super shy and also pretty receptive. Very cute, worked at the jewelry store. When I said "Oh, I was thinking about getting gages in a few weeks" She challenged me and said a gage was used for measuring, while a plug was the actual piece. "K. Time to drop a knowledge bomb on your ass. Language evolves, constantly. What a word means at one point in time doesn't necessarily mean it carries the same meaning even a year down the line. Everyone I know calls them gages. They may have at one point meant a measuring device, but its past that now, at least in the eyes of the public - the bearers of the language - who are the real arbiters. Sorry, you look a bit dumb - I meant 'deciders.' Then I affectionately patted her on the head. I tried a mystery submission test and it failed, so I said she was a chicken. I tried another test a few minutes down the line, said we were going to play a game she was familiar with. We thumb wrestled, I cheated and said she did. I really like this move, it's fun and easy. She had customers so I said "Oh its fine." Walked off. Came back 5 minutes later with a frappacino, said "I have to get back to my friends, but first you should give me your number - and held my phone out to her. Got her.

The people I went with challenged me to get the number of a random walking by. She was boring, and I called her boring. Got her to open up a little, but I felt like I had just destroyed one of the towers on a sand castle when I number closed and left. I'm not sure if she wants me to text.. but got the number...

Hit on another girl who had a boyfriend, mostly just a friendly conversation.

TEXT GAME
This is the part I struggle with the most. I have a very eccentric personality - when I can see someones reactions and they can see mine, everything usually goes smoothly. When text hides emotions (too many emotes I think looks tacky..) it is infinitely harder for me.

I think I'm losing a girl I number closed at a Renaissance Fair. She had a really nice body (and face..), but a thin mustache dropped her from an 8.5 to a 7. Wax that shit, can you not see it in the mirror?

M(e):"Mind if I ask you something?" (too beta? "I have to ask you something."?)
H(er):"Depends on what kind of something?"
"What is your favorite tellitubby"

5 Minutes pass

(M)"JK. Who lies more, girls or guys?"

Should I have just waited it out or what? Don't know what to do.

(H)"Was gonna say I have no idea hahahaha, don't even know their names."
(H)"Oh I'd say guys lie more. Women talk about emotions more, so they are usually honest. What would you say?"
(M)"Women. But they're not even aware of their lying. E.G. "I like nice guys" '
(H)"Oh I can see that, but they're only trying to cover their true intentions mean something is hurting their feelings . Now I have a question for you

I think I should have reacted to that instead of

(H)"Have you ever done any acting or theater?"
(M)"Yes. One year in high school. You?"

5 minutes pass

(M) "Also, I think youre mostly right. People lie to protect themselves."

What's worse, waiting 20 minutes, a day, or whatever for her next reply when you don't even know if she WILL reply, or apologizing or backtracking?\

(M) "Next conversation opener is on you. Im too lazy to come up with this shit all the time." better: "Next conversation opener is on you, lazy butt." ?

It's hard for me to find the balance, when to kino escalate.. when to be flirty.. when to be overtly sexual. I can carry a conversation, but I don't want a conversation. I want a girl in my bed.

I behaved poorly today.

I went out with my goal of 5 chicks/day. I met a co-worker on the train, started flirting with a girl there. He's a very friendly guy, so he positioned himself between me and the girl - and gave a LOT of attention to the girl. He was wearing a Captain America hoodie. This excess attention took whatever interest she had and absolutely killed it, when she got off her stop I should have either let it go or been more polite; but I pointed out how he just fucked up the game.

The day would have gone a lot better if I had just been nice and bullshitted with him, but we parted ways. Not a single successful set.

I'll admit it, I'm odd. Sometimes the teachings don't work well with my personality because it's just too deviant from baseline human behavior - acting confident/dominant works great when you hold popular opinions. Mine aren't always.

Gym is the next stop today; harder to mess up there.

If any experienced PUA is reading this - what kept you going in the beginning? How did you motivate yourself when a thought went through your head like "I could be (playing a video game) (drinking a beer) (watching tv) instead of being here"