hello guys i just wantet to inform you how my last friday went i was a bit down at the begin of the evening i was so angry about myself that after 7 month im still singel and i only approached like 15 girls in this whole time ( i know no wonder im still singel if i dont have the balls to approach i did go out EVERY weekend in this 7 month even on thusday and i only had one good sucess untill now so i had to make a hard a decision i knew that i would regret this decision sooner or later but i just wantet to be good at this game this game is the only thing that gives any sense in my life i do not have a job i still live in my mother room with 20 years i cannot work in the day because i suffer from eye problem im sure some of u have heard about it its called eye floaters it anoys the shit out of me but the good thing is that it dosent effect me in the night.
So what I basicly did is i vistet a friend that i met on pretty much drug dealing place and asked him if he can rake some coke... he said yes ofc and we went to his room and he selled me like 0.8g after i buyed the stuff i went home with the stuff in my underpants ( i had alot of paranoia) that the police would check me so i went home pretty fast when i a arrived at home i listend some music and i tried to prepare myself to go in the club i allways listen some good songs before i go out im trying to get me in a good mood in this way actualy it works sometimes it was 21:40 and i had the stuff on my table i was thinking alot if its really worth it to take it just to get a girl and the end i watched a video while during the video there was a phrase that is saying that from 21 till 40 there are only 988 weekends this pushed me even more to try out this stuff i was had a feeling like my time is going away so i seperted 2 lines and sniff that shit....
well in the first minuts to be honest i didt feel anything i was like wow??? thats it ? maybe this guy trolled me this is what i tought
then i prepared myself i dressed my club clothes on put some gel in my hairs some perfume on my neck and walked out i was walking to the club i rememberd what a guy in SPAM told do what to do before entering in a club he told me i had to approach some ppl on the street and ask them for time so after only 1 minut i saw a older man walking on the street in the opsite direction so i did go him and asked him for time ( i dont even know why i did that lol (im not gay) ) then i continued to walk and saw 2 girls infront of a cinema i walked to them and asked them heiii can u maybe tell me what time it is i really dont wanna miss my train
they answeret pretty polite and took their mobile phone out from their jacked and told me the time and i said thank you verry much walked away i continued to do that with EVERYONE I saw I approached like 20 ppl before i arrived on the club in this manner untill was just 30 feet away i saw 3 girls and those girls werent regulars one : D lets say one of them was a 7 the other girl 9 and a 8 i startet to feel the effect of the drug a little bit somehow i was really more confident in a way and i just "didt care about the result that i get from those approaches" So did the same thing on those 3 girls i approached them and asked them for time then one of the girl turned arround and i was like OMG FUCK XDDD the girl that i was currently asking for the time was a girl that i made out 2 weeks ago her name was sabrina i just give her my hand a as a greeting smiled and asked her how are you she told me that she was good and shes going to club again the other girl was like trying to neg me she said is this the way you say hallo to a girl you just gave your hand? i told yes this is my manner i dont really wanna chanege it sabrina had a cup on her hands filled with vodka redbull there were milions toughts that was going on my head while walking with her to the club but i dont wantet to make any mistakes with that girl and as u know i wasnt in a good "condition" so i told her that im really thankfull that she added me in facebook she said np alot of ppl are failing in writing my correct name in facebook so its not easy to find me (I tought wow your giving your facebook addy so many times to other mans that u know that?.....) anyway I was walking with the girls a bit but then i walked a bit faster and I was infront of them and they was behind me as i was turning back i saw that sabrina was gone again i guess she walked to the cafee that was right infront of the club i think this girl is really bitchy....I just had luck to mad out with her tonight so she isnt really special i tought awww i dont care about this girl im going to enter the club now
I said hello to the bouncers and asked them how are you?
we had a little small talk then i did go to the Jacked Collctor Woman and gave her my jacked i had to pay 2 fr for it wich is not much its like 1 doller i walked down the stairs and entered the club i saw that there alot of ppl there i walked throw the crowd with my fake smilie and looked abit arround if there are hot girls and i must say the club was FULL of hot girls there were even more girls then mans i was so happy i tought yes this is going to be my night now i just have to be confident and approach one of them and maybe i have luck who knows? but i decided to smoke a ziggaret first so i walked to the smoking room while i was walking there a really weird feeling affects me emotionally somethis wasnt good anymore i could feel the taste from the coke in my munth now... it was so disgusting....its hard to the descrive the taste but it was nasty as hell
i was infront of the toilets and there was a mirror there so i wantet to check if my hairstyle is still good but what i saw in the mirror almost made get a heart atack my face was completly pale and this is not usual for me because my parents are both from countries where there is a lot of sun so im allways a little brown and thats not the only thing that was weird my pupills were extremly large... you could see it from far that something is wrong with me... i was like ( oh no i had such a good start and now everthing is going to be ruined) i tried to calm down and walked in the smoking room said hello to the ppl that were there and sitet down while i was smoking the ziggaret this uncontroble feeling become stronger and stronger it was like somone is slamming a gigantic hammer on my head i was really nervous not mental but my body was nervous i made weird movements with my feet i allways had to move i was really hyperactiv the other ppls in the smoking room allrighty stared at me... when i realised that they are watching me i left the room i didt had anymore controll of the sitation that I was currently it was like a nightmare... there is a little room between the smoking room and the input from the club and there i saw a friend that i met last weekend on the club his name is stephan came to me and asked me how are you man nice to see you today is a perfect day like you see
(hes sarging too) i told him the truth directly i told him im not feeling good but i dont wantet to tell him what extaly is wrong with me and why im feeling bad i lied to him and told him that i smoked a joint outside the club and i think that the guy that offerd me the joint did mix something in wich isnt weed i was shaming to much to tell him that i took coke because I dont wantet to screw thihgs up with that guy because i find him a really cool person.
He looked at me and said ohhhh damn why are you doing such bullshit? cmon man thats stupid dont trust anyone that u dont know specialy if they offer you something to smoke. He said you should go home man you really look bad.....I didt had the force to speak alot because i was afraid that im going to puke so i only answeret his questions with yes or no but then while he was talking i had that feeling that i must puke now i told him i must to the toilet while running to the toilet i allrighty had the whole shit in my mounth and i just holded my hand infront my mounth so the puke dosent come out.... i did go to toilet but the door was closed somone else was allrighty in but i could'et wait i had to puke really hard : (
so i left the toilet and i was watching for a place where i could do it and i saw that there is a washbasin it is a public one for mans and womans that they can use after leaving the toilet to wash their hands i just puked right there....i know its really stupid but i could not wait... if i I have waitet 10 more seconds i would have puked on the ground when i turned arround from puking there was a bouncer watching me really weird he was like omg wtf... so i did go to him and told him that i drinked to much before entering in the club and i didt puke on purpose but i had to do it somewhere and somonelse was allrighty in the toilet while i was talking i had that damn feeling to puke again thank god the other guy leaved the toilet now so i entered in the toilet and puked there again.... it was so bad
so when i left the toilet there were 3 bouncers standing infront me they told me that they have to talk with me...
One of them said that the boss from the club saw me and hes really pissed now and he wants me to leave.
I said ohh cmon i didt do anything bad i didt insult anyone i just had to puke can i stay when i clean the washbasin myself?
He said no somonelse allrighty cleaned it you have to leave i said ok allright im going... i was walking out but then when i saw that he isnt watching me anymore i entered in the smoking room and sitet and hoped that he dosent saw me not leaving but he did :/ he sended another bouncer to me this bouncer made a hand emote to come to him i did go to him and he said "Dont try to troll us we saw you must go you can come tomorow no problem but for tonight its over for you.then i said cant we make a exception i really wanna stay :/ but he said no and i dont wantet to make problems there because this is the club where i go everyweekend so i left i dont wantet to risk to take a house forbade.
Well.... this was the first time that i get shootet out from a club in a record time i was only like 10 minuts in the club i was so pissed...
But the night wasnt over for me there is another night club near the club that i get shootet out so i decided go there while walking to the other club the effect of the drug became stronger and stronger it wasnt a good feeling anymore like in the beginning where i approached the girls infront of a cinema it was turning in a horror trip i entered the club and ordert some water i really had to drink something neutral to come down i drinked the water but nothing changed i was in a really bad mental state now everthing what i saw was going in slow motion.... when i watched the faces from ppl faces began to move and change their position and even their forms i startet to hallucinate while i was walking throw the club i saw blood on the walls that was droping down i was scared shitless then the effect from the face changing that im descriving is almost 100 % identical like in this video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjWleczjlnw maybe it looks funny on the video but belive if you expirience this shit yourself you would piss ur panths.. the friend arrived that selled me the cocaine in the club he asked me if the stuff was good and i was like yes at the begining it was cool but now im feeling like im going to die soon how long will this fu cking effect stays... i explained him what happend in the other club and that i get shootet out but insteat of taking me serious he just made jokes of me and called me a pussy.... i was really angry about him i just told him that i have to go im not feeling good... everytime i talked with someone and used more then 5 words i had to puke emedetly i runned to the toilet and i had to puke like 3-4 times again it was hell.... all ppl were watching me and saw how bad i was feeling so decditet to go home i just asked some random chick if she knows any number from a taxi driver so he can drive me home she gave me a number and i left the club called the taxi and he drived home this was the badest night that i ever exprienced it could'et get more worse then that.
When i arrived home with the car i entered in my room and closed the door from my room with the key i dont wantet my mum sees me in this condition while i was on the bed i could feel my heart pumping really fast i have a machine that can calculate the heart pumping per minute so i checket it it was 121 per minute and i had extremly high blood pleasure.... i sweared to myself that im never going to touch this shit again i tried to sleep but i could'et the haluzinations were to strange and really scarry ones i saw dead ppl like zombies trying to grab me and draw me in a hole
i tought i was going to die i was like im happy if im going to see the next day i dont care about girls anymore...
After like 4 hours i finaly could sleep so what i wanna tell you guys if you read this DO NEVER TRY COCAINE OR ANY OTHER STRONG DRUG IT CAN LEAD TO BAD THINGS LIKE I HAD PROBALY NOT EVERYONE WILL HAVE SUCH A BAD TRIP LIKE ME BUT IF YOU HAVE ONE THAT IS SIMILIAR LIKE ME IN BAD CASES YOU CAN EVEN DIE SO PLS BECAREFULL AND BETTER DRINK SOME BEERS
CHAT
then i think i missunderstood your answers : D
